Something Bothering you?/Daily Doldrums

[Sabertooth]

Is it just me or does this sound clichéd?

Even so, it's correct.

[beebo44]

I just felt like making this topic because once in a while we all get really pissed and need somewhere to vent out our anger. So this is the place to come if you want to rant or rage about just about anything. Here, I'll start.

Ok so today started off pretty well for me. I had downloaded a demo of Dungeon Defenders of PSN last night to try it out. I loved it, so today I decided to go and download it. (Unfortunately I had to go be a pirate for this, seeing as no-one will buy it 4 me.) So everything's fine, and I go on to look for a driver update for my comp, (Cuz it's a new (Technically old) one and I haven't gotten the graphics card updated yet) I finally find the update and download it. Great. (My Dungeon Defenders download is still going btw.) I install it, and I says (as with most programs) that I have to restart the comp. So I pause my download and restart. What do you know? My whole FUCKING download couldn't be saved, so I have re-download it. (This download takes about hour and 40 mins to complete.) I go take a shower, come out, and my FUCKING comp has totally frozen. I get running again and the download is stuffed cuz I had to restart the comp. This means I have to download it AGAIN. It's still running now. 32%. Would've been done by now if it weren't for my stupid computer...

[Adsolution]

seeing as no-one will buy it 4 me.

Hah.

I feel your FWP pain.

[beebo44]

seeing as no-one will buy it 4 me.

Hah.

I feel your FWP pain.

Damnit. So close! 83% finished and I have to go to a b'day party. I chose the wrong day to download a gigabyte file...

[Kurui]

Rant:

My family thinks they can control all of my disability benefit money. Apparently I am a "bad person" because I want to use the money for things I want and need to use it for. I'm also a "slut" because I'm moving my lover into the house so we can be closer enough to work better on my singing/art/game things. Oh, and my mom is always taking my foodstamps..............

[Adsolution]

seeing as no-one will buy it 4 me.

Hah.

I feel your FWP pain.

Damnit. So close! 83% finished and I have to go to a b'day party. I chose the wrong day to download a gigabyte file...

Don't worry, I'm sure it will finish by the time you get back. Just have a good time at the party.

[SuperSunshine]

RANT

I know just how you feel man, Same thing happend to me once with a download.

Rant:
I'm also a "slut" because I'm moving my lover into the house so we can be closer enough to work better on my singing/art/game things.

Wait is this your house or your parents house? If its your parent's house then well she obviously has a reason to get angry. But of course if this is your own place I have no idea why she would call you a slut you're a grown adult right? I don't think having you're boyfriend/Lover move into your house quaify you to be a slut. On the other hand unless you are constantly having males move in and out?

My family thinks they can control all of my disability benefit money. Apparently I am a "bad person" because I want to use the money for things I want and need to use it for.

Sometimes we think we need things that we can acually go without. I geuss it really depends on what you're spending your money on. This is coming from someone who spent all her money on stuff from comiket 81 on touhoe Arrange CDs

[Adsolution]

Most people see this as a reason to rant, but I've actually been waiting for this to happen for a while:

My main computer just got an epic virus. It's one of those that make pop ups of "security breaches" trying to imitate Windows Security all over the screen, constantly making the dinging noise Windows makes when a pop up appears. It's so intense that my mouse lags at about 0.25 FPS, and I see window after window of pop up appear. Why is this not a rant? I've had Windows 7 installed now for a good years, and most computer techies actually reinstall their OS every year or so. I couldn't be arsed, so I was waiting for something to get up and make me. Because I was curious and my OS was obviously fucked, I clicked on the fake "remove malware" button. Awesomely, it made my screen image flip upside down, and whenever I moved my mouse to the taskbar it would switch to a different side of the screen.

Now I'm just booting into my XP installation to back up some stuff then reformatting le main hard drive.

[Kurui]

My own house, and NO. Even if I DID want to waste my money, they have no right.

[SuperSunshine]

My own house, and NO. Even if I DID want to waste my money, they have no right.

Haha, didin't that you would do something like that, didin't mean to offend you if I did. In that case it sounds like your mom is judging you wrongly for normal actions. Maybe she feels that if a female moves a male into her house its morally wrong? Don't really know.

Now I'm just booting into my XP installation to back up some stuff then reformatting le main hard drive.

Epic virus indeed. Of all the viruses I had in my life using the computer I have never seen one that would flip the screen. This also reminds me that I need to reinstall windows XP onto my PC. I currently have the SP3 2011 version by DiGIT.
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As for my own problems, Me and my mothers relationship seems to be slowy fading as time goes on. We just can't get along or relate anymore. By the time I move out I feel that i'll hardly even contact her anymore. Its not olny her ethier, It seems im this way with everyone in my life. Ever since I moved away from my closest friends I just felt lonley and for reasons I don't really know of I can't find the motivation to call them or hang out and when the chance comes I find myself using excuses to keep me from seeing them. At my new school I seem to enjoy hanging out with people I can't stand rather than hang out with people I tolerate. Such as that weaboo who thinks her Animu RPGs are so much harder then any Pig ulgy american game out there and if I do something better than her such as make butt-ugly pixel art in 30 seconds and still manage to do it better than what she was trying to do in 2 class periods I'm instantly stupid and she tries to call out all my faults. With all of that I 'm also getting lazier and lazier as time goes by to the point where im failing class. I just dont have any motivation anymore. I really need to sraighten myself up.

[Cairnie]

This is like the third rant topic we've had here so I'm just gonna merge, I don't get why anyone can't just go back a few pages and bump something.

Edit: Yeah I have a new something to rage about, it's about how much I keep waking up feeling tired as all fucking types of shit. No matter how early I try to go to bed it always takes me hours to actually get to sleep, and it doesn't help that 1) my dad watches the same shit over and over and falls asleep to it, so I have to get out of bed to turn the TV off, and 2) my dog scratches on my door until I get up to let her in, and she goes in and out in and out in an out all night. Then some days my dad gets up at like half 3 in the morning, turns the TV on again and just thumps about getting ready for his work.

I don't get it. I'm a fully grown adult yet I sleep like a teenager basically, in the way that I just take too long to get out of bed.

I'm trying like everything, one thing being making changes to my diet; I've been taking vitamin b12 tablets [something you really should not go without if you don't eat meat and consume much dairy, like me], trying to use more fruit and veg, but I don't know what else I can do. Mind I should do more exercise since walking part of my journey to work every day doesn't seem to be enough. :S

[Haruka]

May I recommend you a tea that helps people to sleep? Look for Valeriana officinalis. I just warn you about the smell of the plant itself but the taste is completely different and drinkable.

[ikke471]

Rayfan I had the same problem once and I fix's it by searching/google-ing the name of the imitator virus thing and it gave me some tips to get rid of the virus (you jave to install a lot of stuff when you are in the "safe mode" from windows 7)
I hope this can help you!

[Kurui]

I'm tired of having to throw up everything that I eat. I guess its time to go back on the nutrient shakes. I should have obeyed my failing body long ago to prevent this crap again but I just feel like I don't get enough to eat when I'm just on the shakes. And I end up getting skinnier every time I do.

I'm also pretty tired of waking up 50 billion times in the night from the excruciating pain. I'm tired of pain medications not doing a thing for me. I'm tired of this boils all over my skin; They itch and hurt and burst.

I'm tired of the cysts on my ovaries. I'm tired of gushing out fluids from them every time they feel like busting. I guess I'm going to have to start wearing diapers and age 2-fscking-6.

I'm tired of doctors not caring whats going wrong with me.

I'm tired of not being able to stand up for more than 5 minutes straight. I'm tired of not being able to go out of the house. I'm tired of being stuck in a lean back chair or bed just to feel like I'm not dying as much.

I'm tired of the dizziness, fainting, confusion that make my muscles spasm so painfully and hard that I kick things in a fit. I'm tired of not being in control of my own body.

I'm tired of idiots who look at me and tell me that "You look fine to me." when this is all going on inside and they can't possibly know how it feels. if they looked close enough at the outside, they'd notice my hair falling out, my skin rotting with boils, my teeth crumbling. Just because I'm able to smile through this sh*t doesn't mean I physically feel okay.

I'm tired of "friends" telling me "Meh, stop complaining." when they only have very minor things wrong with them or NOTHING at all and I have to sit here and suffer in silence feeling like I am dying 24/7 without a way to vent because they don't really care to listen (ranting helps sometimes). I'm tired of being the only one I know with this many physical problems; Its kinda of lonely in a way. Especially when other people tend to criticize me and harass me for it. I'd rather them just ignore me like many people do honestly.

I'm tired of being called lazy. I'm tired of being told to get a job. When I know dang well that that isn't possible. I'm tired of people thinking that just because I can barely sit up to type at a computer that they think I can do some kind of work, when really what do they want me to do? Never talk to anyone ever (online is really the only way I get out of my house besides AP)? Cut myself off from the outside world completely here? No thank you.

I'm tired of people telling me that I'm pretending or exaggerating it just to get attention/money when really I HATE any kind of attention and before I got sick, I worked both part and full time jobs AND went to college to get a degree.

I'm tired of not being able to do things I love anymore. Exercise, eat out with friends, go outside, sing (though I still try that but it really hurts and my voice suffers from the heart issues), draw, sports, dancing.............Walk, stand, take showers, things I used to take for granted and I'm sure people still do.

Because my life (basically) was cut so short, I can finally appreciate the smaller details in life, unlike %99 of other people who just go about it not thinking that it could be taken away is just an instant (Literally, one day I was fine, the next, bedridden - until I got used to it enough to do as much as I do now, and that took over TWO years). TBH it is worse than death. To watch people who can do these things you used to could do so well knowing that you might not ever do those things again.

BUT! For every 100 rotten people out there who do not try to sympathize and who bring you down, there's always at least ONE who really cares. If even you only have one person to live for and help, that's worth living for. because when you die its not going to matter how famous you are or how many things you make or how much you're praised. Its going to matter that even that one person who stuck by you, was inspired, and helped by you. And that you changed their life forever for the better just by being in it. ^^

And that is why i smile. Every day. If i can smile through the tough times, then others can also know that they can smile through anything.

Because thats one thing I'll never be too tired to do.

[Adsolution]

Rayfan I had the same problem once and I fix's it by searching/google-ing the name of the imitator virus thing and it gave me some tips to get rid of the virus (you jave to install a lot of stuff when you are in the "safe mode" from windows 7)
I hope this can help you!

One of my payed jobs is computer construction maintenance and repair, so I'm the one who gives tips on how to remove viruses. You might notice that the point of my post was that I wanted a virus as a reason to reinstall Windows 7, and I got one, so now I'm reinstalling Windows 7.

BUT! For every 100 rotten people out there who do not try to sympathize and who bring you down, there's always at least ONE who really cares. If even you only have one person to live for and help, that's worth living for. because when you die its not going to matter how famous you are or how many things you make or how much you're praised. Its going to matter that even that one person who stuck by you, was inspired, and helped by you. And that you changed their life forever for the better just by being in it. ^^

And that is why i smile. Every day. If i can smile through the tough times, then others can also know that they can smile through anything.

Because thats one thing I'll never be too tired to do.

And that's the perfect way to look at it. One day, hopefully soon, you will get better, I believe in that as much as I possibly can.

[Tobbe]

That sucks, Kurui. Have anybody figured out what's wrong with you yet?

[Cairnie]

May I recommend you a tea that helps people to sleep? Look for Valeriana officinalis. I just warn you about the smell of the plant itself but the taste is completely different and drinkable.

Oh er, you mean valerian root? Well I used to drink this mixed tea that had a bit of that in it, smelt like oranges but didn't taste of it, though yesterday I was in the health and beauty store looking at valerian tablets/other own-brand kalms. Not sure about it yet but could give it a shot.

[spiraldoor]

2) my dog scratches on my door until I get up to let her in, and she goes in and out in and out in an out all night.

We just block the stairs with an open umbrella. Our dog doesn’t even try to come up because she thinks it’ll fall on her or something.

[Haruka]

That sucks, Kurui. Have anybody figured out what's wrong with you yet?

Yeah, I wonder the same... It is preety wierd that you, Kurui, go to doctors and they can't figure out what do you have.

This might sound an inappropriate moment to say such thing but I can't see doctors in my front.

[Tobbe]

This might sound an inappropriate moment to say such thing but I can't see doctors in my front.

I'm sorry, but that sentence makes no sense. Try rephrasing it.