Something Bothering you?/Daily Doldrums

[Zikken]

While mine is that i'm a bit rude at times and that I have a low self esteem. I don't know about anything else since I barely know myself.

[Dark Lum Lord]

While mine is that i'm a bit rude at times and that I have a low self esteem. I don't know about anything else since I barely know myself.

I agree with this on so many levels. Anyways, I am done with people. At this pount I've decided to live on the computer twenty four seven when I'm not at school and I have Internet connection, because it's the only place where I can speak with large quantities of people who are worth speaking with.

(Wow, my pretentious attitude has hit a peak. Sorry, I didn't mean for it to appear that pretentious. )

[Zikken]

While mine is that i'm a bit rude at times and that I have a low self esteem. I don't know about anything else since I barely know myself.

I agree with this on so many levels. Anyways, I am done with people. At this pount I've decided to live on the computer twenty four seven when I'm not at school and I have Internet connection, because it's the only place where I can speak with large quantities of people who are worth speaking with.

(Wow, my pretentious attitude has hit a peak. Sorry, I didn't mean for it to appear that pretentious. )

I don't think you sound pretentious at all honestly.

[Dark Lum Lord]

While mine is that i'm a bit rude at times and that I have a low self esteem. I don't know about anything else since I barely know myself.

I agree with this on so many levels. Anyways, I am done with people. At this pount I've decided to live on the computer twenty four seven when I'm not at school and I have Internet connection, because it's the only place where I can speak with large quantities of people who are worth speaking with.

(Wow, my pretentious attitude has hit a peak. Sorry, I didn't mean for it to appear that pretentious. )

I don't think you sound pretentious at all honestly.

Well I suppose it's only me then. My mind has a tendency to attack myself anyways.

[Zikken]

Aahh don't attack yourself its pretty bad to do that.

[Dark Lum Lord]

Aahh don't attack yourself its pretty bad to do that.

Well, that happened all the time when I had depression since attacking yourself with your mind - and often even others - is basically what depression is, when not counting the many other symptoms and such. But I don't attack myself often anymore.

[Zikken]

Aahh don't attack yourself its pretty bad to do that.

Well, that happened all the time when I had depression since attacking yourself with your mind - and often even others - is basically what depression is, when not counting the many other symptoms and such. But I don't attack myself often anymore.

Well that's good.

edit: This belongs here.

[Dark Lum Lord]

Aahh don't attack yourself its pretty bad to do that.

Well, that happened all the time when I had depression since attacking yourself with your mind - and often even others - is basically what depression is, when not counting the many other symptoms and such. But I don't attack myself often anymore.

Well that's good.

edit: This belongs here.

Ahhhahhah. I actually feel cared for, and therefore you're awesome.

[Zikken]

Ahhhahhah. I actually feel cared for, and therefore you're awesome.

I care about everyone I talk to. But thank you.

[Keane]

Heh, gotta say this generation is full of assholes. But there is some good peoples in it and a bunch of them are all on here.

Basically my point. No, but please do come to my school. The amount of idiotic asswipes is just...It's just said, let's put it at that and keep it there because I could literally rant all day. I honestly have the same rantings about how idiotic they are silently in my head at least every single day. But I'm not free of flaws myself, nor is anyone, and one of my flaws would obviously be me being pretentious.

Excuse any grammar or spelling mistakes. I'm seeing it nearly turn 6 AM so I am mildly freaking out about being ready to leave in five hours so no time to fix it.

I find it sad to see how easily brainwashed a lot of people are by the educational system. Just about every person I knew from all the schools I've been to in the past couple of years wanted to be a Lawyer or Dentist. Not because they actually like these jobs, but because the schools and parents pound it into their heads that that is what they want you to be. On another community I'm part of we had a discussion about what people wanted to do with their lives and those two came up a lot. I asked one of them if being a lawyer is truly what they want for themselves. The reply I received was yes, and the reason for it was because it would make his parents proud to see their son be successful. Digging deeper into it, lawyer was not at all what this guy wanted to be, but he remained stubborn with the idea that he will have that as his job. And schools do it to. When they have those silly "What do you wanna do with you life" days they'll hugely promote jobs like dentists, lawyers, engineers, and a ton of desk jobs. Instead things like being an author or writing music is being talked down for being "unrealistic" and "not promosing good payment". Their all falling for it and in 45 - 50 years their all gonna wake up one day and realise their whole life has been repeating itself. Go to the job you don't care for, come home, and again. And again. And again. I see it happening to my own father. I know he hates his job, gets little to not time for things he likes and is no longer having a relationship with my mother that you could love. They get along but it's not like I ever see them share any sort of romance, not even mildly. And for the strangest reason people seem to consider that a good life. Something you should want. The US goes as far as to call it "The American Dream." No. I know how they acted in school. They won't even want to be a lawyer. They like hunting, sports, coding, whatever. And not one of them is even considering making those things anymore then merely a hobby.

And hey, I can't deny that for a long time I've had the same picture in my mind. I didn't really know what I wanted to do for a job so I figured I'd just find something that is somewhat in my interest zone and pays well. That's always been number one: What offers the best paycheck. Fuck that. I won't tell you to completely forget about money. Money can't buy you love but believe me when I tell you'd rather be unhappy in a luxurious environment then a shitty vacation home like I'm in right now. But it should never influence your goals in life. I've always known that music is pretty much my favourite thing in the world. I've always wanted to learn how to play a guitar. But it wasn't until a long time when I actually wanted to learn it. Now I'm willing to join a pretty shitty class so I at least can do it and build up from there.

My point is that way too many people have "hopes and dreams" that they'll accomplish "someday". But they know they won't. Their just gonna go on with their current life until they are old and get their pension. Hell, my mother is forty and she already says she has nothing she dreams of doing anymore. A neighbor of mine before we moved out to the US has recently received her pension, and she says it's the most awful time of her life. She says she has done little to nothing but work for years, living up to the moment of "freedom". And now she has that freedom and has already wasted so much time there's barely a point anymore.

[Zikken]

Lot of text there, but yeah its better to do something you would want to do than something you would hate even if it gives lot of money. I actually wonder why some parents want their kids to be "successful" or even forcing them to do a specific job later. Seriously, no one is successful in something they hate because they hate it, they didn't success in having a job that would be fun for themselves.

[Dark Lum Lord]

Heh, gotta say this generation is full of assholes. But there is some good peoples in it and a bunch of them are all on here.

Basically my point. No, but please do come to my school. The amount of idiotic asswipes is just...It's just said, let's put it at that and keep it there because I could literally rant all day. I honestly have the same rantings about how idiotic they are silently in my head at least every single day. But I'm not free of flaws myself, nor is anyone, and one of my flaws would obviously be me being pretentious.

Excuse any grammar or spelling mistakes. I'm seeing it nearly turn 6 AM so I am mildly freaking out about being ready to leave in five hours so no time to fix it.

I find it sad to see how easily brainwashed a lot of people are by the educational system. Just about every person I knew from all the schools I've been to in the past couple of years wanted to be a Lawyer or Dentist. Not because they actually like these jobs, but because the schools and parents pound it into their heads that that is what they want you to be. On another community I'm part of we had a discussion about what people wanted to do with their lives and those two came up a lot. I asked one of them if being a lawyer is truly what they want for themselves. The reply I received was yes, and the reason for it was because it would make his parents proud to see their son be successful. Digging deeper into it, lawyer was not at all what this guy wanted to be, but he remained stubborn with the idea that he will have that as his job. And schools do it to. When they have those silly "What do you wanna do with you life" days they'll hugely promote jobs like dentists, lawyers, engineers, and a ton of desk jobs. Instead things like being an author or writing music is being talked down for being "unrealistic" and "not promosing good payment". Their all falling for it and in 45 - 50 years their all gonna wake up one day and realise their whole life has been repeating itself. Go to the job you don't care for, come home, and again. And again. And again. I see it happening to my own father. I know he hates his job, gets little to not time for things he likes and is no longer having a relationship with my mother that you could love. They get along but it's not like I ever see them share any sort of romance, not even mildly. And for the strangest reason people seem to consider that a good life. Something you should want. The US goes as far as to call it "The American Dream." No. I know how they acted in school. They won't even want to be a lawyer. They like hunting, sports, coding, whatever. And not one of them is even considering making those things anymore then merely a hobby.

And hey, I can't deny that for a long time I've had the same picture in my mind. I didn't really know what I wanted to do for a job so I figured I'd just find something that is somewhat in my interest zone and pays well. That's always been number one: What offers the best paycheck. Fuck that. I won't tell you to completely forget about money. Money can't buy you love but believe me when I tell you'd rather be unhappy in a luxurious environment then a shitty vacation home like I'm in right now. But it should never influence your goals in life. I've always known that music is pretty much my favourite thing in the world. I've always wanted to learn how to play a guitar. But it wasn't until a long time when I actually wanted to learn it. Now I'm willing to join a pretty shitty class so I at least can do it and build up from there.

My point is that way too many people have "hopes and dreams" that they'll accomplish "someday". But they know they won't. Their just gonna go on with their current life until they are old and get their pension. Hell, my mother is forty and she already says she has nothing she dreams of doing anymore. A neighbor of mine before we moved out to the US has recently received her pension, and she says it's the most awful time of her life. She says she has done little to nothing but work for years, living up to the moment of "freedom". And now she has that freedom and has already wasted so much time there's barely a point anymore.

Right, so it's getting later here, but I have plenty of time and enough energy to type millions of more paragraphs let alone just a couple so here's my shot.

I honestly could never have said it greater myself and I agree one hundred percent. As Daria had said best years ago, "My goal is not to wake up at forty with the bitter realization that I've wasted my life in a job I hate, because I was forced to decide on a career in my teens". I honestly have no clue what I'm going to do with my waste of a life. I've always loved the idea of starting a band, or at least I did until I realized that I have no skills in writing poetry, of the song lyrics variety and any kind really, or playing instruments, nor can I even remember how to read musical notes as I always forget no matter how many times I learn how to; at one time I've wanted to be a veterinarian since I love animals and would like to help them, but surgery is not something for me. I've also wanted to be an artist but I'm not good at paitning or drawing whatsoever; the same could be said with my writing skills which is why I leave it nothing more than a hobby but it improves with every chapter of every story so I'll have to wait until the future and see if that dream could become a reality. My point is that my future is nothing but a large, smudged blur that scares me to death.

I highly doubt that my parents enjoy their jobs. Especially my mother, on account that she cleans mansions for a living, a job nobody with even a shred of sanity would enjoy unless they're paid in hundreds of pounds of gold by the hour, but even then it doesn't make up for the arthritis-inducing backbreaking work that some maids like my mother put in nearly every day. Not only that put she comes home only to do even more cleaning and cooking on top of that since my dad works the night shift and when he's home all he does is wash the dishes and sometimes vacuum, plus my sister's just lazy and so am I but I still haven't tried vacuuming or such - I take out the trash though. Now, back onto topic, I have no idea how I veered off but that occurs often.

Yes, most people are brainwashed by society, and it's not only their future careers that're being pounded into them, but every aspect of their life in general. Individuality is nothing but a foreign concept these days and any person who seems to show signs of it is automatically labeled as a "loser" or [insert millions of other pointless, tin-can labels here] by society and it's just plain sad. Listen to this, wear that, watch this, play that, do this, do that, become this, act like that, say this, but don't say that, eat this, don't eat that, look like this, don't like that. As the days pass by I only find my faith in humanity crumbling ever more so and nothing seems to save it because if anything does restore any another chunk will be chopped off by the stupidity of humankind. Now, I can't really blame humankind since we're not all perfect, but I might as well because the stupidity of others can be so much that it's literally unbearable and causes me t oconstantly think of what our horrible future will look like.

Honestly, think of the pople of our generation one day becoming parents and ruling politics, and then one day becoming grandparents. It seems like an impossible concept; all I know is that they'd fail immensely at parenting and running our already broken society and governments, and I'd rather enjoy living it at that. Now I could go on for days about this topic, but while I know I have more to say I'm starting to lose what I've just thought of and I think I've typed plenty by now. I'd also like to say that I agree with your idea of the "American Dream" being a large, steaming pile of utter bullshit and what you've said about our endless routines and "freedom". I've ranted about all of those for at least a million times.

[Dark Lum Lord]

Bumping because I didn't type all of that shit for no reason.

[sonicbrawler182]

I'm glad to see people questioning and criticising the status quo on this site. I had a terrible experience in secondary school too, because of how bad a system it is.

College is a lot better though, in many ways.

[Dark Lum Lord]

I've heard people claim that college is greater plenty of times before. I'm sure it is, from what I know about it.

[sonicbrawler182]

It's better in the sense that you are actually doing something you're passionate about (in my case, Computer Games Design), and in certain courses, you are graded based on practical work rather than arbitrary exams.

And if anyone ever had social troubles in school, or just generally didn't like their classmates because they acted like idiots, I assure you that all changes in college. In school, even the smart kids may struggle to care about the work and a lot of students will be immature. But in college, everyone cares tremendously about doing well, and enjoys the work they do. And because you are doing a course on a very particular thing, you will no doubt have something in common with your classmates. And everyone is just more mature in general, because they are adults (you may find the odd person who is still technically a minor, but even they are mature). I've made more than 5 new friends already, within the first week of college. A new person just kind of tagged along with me each day, creating an increasingly large group. Everyone starts off on their own on the first day, and most people will just reach out to anyone who seems friendly (which makes me wonder how I made this many friends already!).

[Adsolution]

it's mostly my generation that I loathe with all of my heart. My views on older people are not nearly as aggressive.

I don't think this is a very fair stance at all. This generation is, well, different in a sense, but not all that different. We're different than the previous generation because due to the rapid growth of technology, there's far more to separate ourselves from our elders than there ever has been before. How maturely we handle life as we grow is another thing, our similarity. Even while that strengthened barrier exists, I can fully assure you that the way we treat each other within our own generation is hardly any different than that of any previous generation.

As Daria had said best years ago,

Excellent taste.

I honestly have no clue what I'm going to do with my waste of a life.

I know this can seem ageist and irrelevant, but keep in mind that you are thirteen, and at that age, your mind has only just begun to develop. It's not something you choose to make happen, in time it will on its own, and I'm certain you will feel very differently than you do now in years to come. Denoting your life as a 'waste' at this point is irrational and incredibly off-target.

a job nobody with even a shred of sanity would enjoy unless they're paid in hundreds of pounds of gold by the hour, but even then it doesn't make up for the arthritis-inducing backbreaking work that some maids like my mother put in nearly every day.

Actually, this was my aunt's job, and she absolutely loved it. Any career choice is relative to your interests, but the amount of people who fail to pursue their interests is depressing.

Honestly, think of the pople of our generation one day becoming parents and ruling politics, and then one day becoming grandparents. It seems like an impossible concept; all I know is that they'd fail immensely at parenting and running our already broken society and governments

Once again, I completely disagree. Everyone feels that their generation is the worst, and only provide fad-related interests as to why. Many people were bullied and depressed this generation, and many were during the previous one as well, that hasn't changed, the only difference is that this generation is still young enough to have not yet hardened into assholes. Given our more enlightened nature, I see a brighter future for our society. Not that we will all be angels given the unchanging amount of idiocy in the world, but I foresee an increased amount of open-mindedness with a raised artistic focus in schools and such, resulting in less parental frustration and fewer people afraid to follow their passions.

I've always known that music is pretty much my favourite thing in the world. I've always wanted to learn how to play a guitar. But it wasn't until a long time when I actually wanted to learn it. Now I'm willing to join a pretty shitty class so I at least can do it and build up from there.

I'm extraordinarily happy to hear this. Whether or not it ends up being for you, I always wondered why you hadn't tried picking up an instrument earlier. I would be absolutely enthralled to hear about your progress.

[Dark Lum Lord]

I don't think this is a very fair stance at all. This generation is, well, different in a sense, but not all that different. We're different than the previous generation because due to the rapid growth of technology, there's far more to separate ourselves from our elders than there ever has been before. How maturely we handle life as we grow is another thing, our similarity. Even while that strengthened barrier exists, I can fully assure you that the way we treat each other within our own generation is hardly any different than that of any previous generation.

You make good points.

Excellent taste.

Thank you. Quite a well-written, generally great, and all around relatable show Daria is.

I know this can seem ageist and irrelevant, but keep in mind that you are thirteen, and at that age, your mind has only just begun to develop. It's not something you choose to make happen, in time it will on its own, and I'm certain you will feel very differently than you do now in years to come. Denoting your life as a 'waste' at this point is irrational and incredibly off-target.

I only just - mostly - recovered from depression a few months ago, so I have still irrational, negative thoughts scattered around here and there. Of course my life isn't a waste, I'm not even in high school yet - I have, presumably, many decades to go until I die.

Actually, this was my aunt's job, and she absolutely loved it. Any career choice is relative to your interests, but the amount of people who fail to pursue their interests is depressing.

Well, if she was happy then I guess there's really no problem. My mom used to constantly talk about, and still sometimes does, about how horrible her job is and how she's in pain and such so I guess she was projecting onto me when I typed that.

Once again, I completely disagree. Everyone feels that their generation is the worst, and only provide fad-related interests as to why. Many people were bullied and depressed this generation, and many were during the previous one as well, that hasn't changed, the only difference is that this generation is still young enough to have not yet hardened into assholes. Given our more enlightened nature, I see a brighter future for our society. Not that we will all be angels given the unchanging amount of idiocy in the world, but I foresee an increased amount of open-mindedness with a raised artistic focus in schools and such, resulting in less parental frustration and fewer people afraid to follow their passions.

I'll have to agree with that. Every generation has its ups and downs, but most people only focus on the ups when looking back on past generations which I had done throughout that whole post. My pretentious attitude and constant state of nostalgia, to the point that I'm living in the past all of the time, tends to get in the way when I'm thinking of the current generation. Older generations are just as guilty as always bashing the new one as well, something that's been going on for what seems like since the beginning of time.

I'm extraordinarily happy to hear this. Whether or not it ends up being for you, I always wondered why you hadn't tried picking up an instrument earlier. I would be absolutely enthralled to hear about your progress.

Right, this statement was not directed at me but I have something to add myself so here goes. Music has always been one of my greatest interests, something I've always held close to my heart, but yet I've always remained the critic - the listener - rather than the one taking part in music. I've never had a talent for singing, song-writing, or playing instruments of any kind to my chagrin. Okay, I can play the piano a but but only I'm mediocre at best. The instrument that I've always wanted to learn how to play well the most is the guitar which I'm the worst at funnily enough. Another problem is the fact that I'm always forgetting how to read musical notes; I learn, then forget, learn, forget again, and so on.

In general, I've never seen myself as talented at anything really. I can't sing, I can't play an instrument, I can't draw, and I can write but I'm not well at it whatsoever. But, as I mentioned, I can write and my writing skills are always improving so I guess I could consider myself good at that in a way. At the rate my skills in writing are improving, I might actually be a somewhat decent writer one day.

[Adsolution]

Your writing skills are easily the best I've ever seen from someone your age, I would consider it University-grade.

[Dark Lum Lord]

Your writing skills are easily the best I've ever seen from someone your age, I would consider it University-grade.

You, my friend, just made my day.