Something Bothering you?/Daily Doldrums

[Shrooblord]

Hm, I wonder what a realling is. Maybe it's like a more-existent railing for by the staircase.

[incognito]

Im affraid of myself, im falling in an extremly intense paranoia.Im even sleeping with my knife close to me.

[OCG]

What is bothering me is how one crime that happened recently is most likely not gonna get punishment. A guy ran over one guy on bridge and didn't stop to help. Guy died few day later in hospital and police is doing jackshit to find him and is instead trying to sabotage whole thing and put fake clues and is actually PROTECTING killer since he is most likely someone who has good relation with them and has a lot of money.

[Shrooblord]

Political corruption is a terrible thing, yes. There is no justice when you have friends in the right places and cash to burn.

[OCG]

Father of the guy organized protests on the bridge where his son was killed and thats the only reason why investigation even started. Without that, police would not even make single progress in case...

[MLII]

damn ocg that sucks X: sorry dude

in other news the wonders of being in a fandom with (an) insanely popular ship(s) that you're just not into. that you kind of hate, in fact??

aka "the homestuck fandom likes shipping kids with their parents and i am quietly horrified"

i mean i guess i don't have much room to talk being my own otp has an age gap of like five years but at least he's not his dad

[Earth Gwee]

That is terrifying that ANYbody would be promoting incest as being okay in ANY medium! I don't understand it.

[MLII]

well technically most people in homestuck are related because shenanigans but that's more genetically than parentally

there is nothing more horrifying than fanfics with a thirteen year old having sex with his dad and this is ok apparently

it's funny because on all the rp sites it's like "YES INCEST YES NONCON YES GORE WE'RE GUNNA CUT U UP N SHIT but no bathroom kinks because that's gross"

and it's like ??????

[Keane]

Personally, I don't look into that sort of thing too deeply. Obviously, the person behind the OTP finds both characters romantically and/or sexually attractive. For example, I've seen the first season of Attack on Titan, and honestly it's nothing surprising to me that people would ship Eren and Levi. Levi could easily go as a 20 year old despite being in like his later 30's or something (Which I actually really hate. It's so obvious they made him look younger than anyone else around the same age just to appeal to the fanbase. I thought he was 18 upon first seeing him.) and he has the "im powerful and jerky" personality that takes about three seconds to get twisted into a "oh but he's really a sweetheart on the inside!!" character by the fans. Now the fanbase has started shipping them because Eren can play the sweetheart nice boy and levi the very emotional on the inside one. So yeah, Levi is older, but because he fits in the picture, people don't really care. I've noticed that often those types of ships tend to just change personalities or behaviour so it works with the OTP.

...but on the other hand both of these characters have about the equal level of character development as a koopa in a mario game, so this might not be the perfect example.

[MLII]

i've never watched attack on titan so correct me if i'm wrong but i'm pretty sure levi isn't related to eren? it's not age gaps i have a problem with (again, my otp has a 5 year one) it's like, actual incest. especially with a parent.

[beebo44]

Levi is in fact not related to Eren. And I agree, incest is disgusting.

[Keane]

i've never watched attack on titan so correct me if i'm wrong but i'm pretty sure levi isn't related to eren? it's not age gaps i have a problem with (again, my otp has a 5 year one) it's like, actual incest. especially with a parent.

Oh, scuse me, you're right, mistaking the meaning of the word.

[beebo44]

I've been having a recurring dream recently, where I live in a forest/marshy type area and I've got a little house to myself. It's a nice place and there's a lake right next to it. On the other side of this lake is a more mountainous area, it's full of crisp bright green grass and white snow that contrasts with my forest. In this dream one of my close friends always visits me and invites me to row across the lake with him to the other side. I accept, but by the time we reach the other side it has either become night or I've lost the motivation to explore, and the worst part is that I want to explore! I want to go, but whenever I cross the damn lake something clicks in my head and I decide to turn back.

This might be looking too deep into my dreams, but I feel like my subconscious is trying to tell me something. This dream only started occurring in the last month or so, and in that time I've tried numerous times to break a routine I've fallen into. It's a routine I hate and it's bad for my wellbeing, but every time I try to break it I just fall back into it after a day or so. It's like in the dream, I'm lacking motivation even though I know what awaits me on the other side, and every time I gather the courage to go to the other side that courage slips away from me and I end up going back to normal. I think that's what this dream is telling me, almost as if to say 'Stop before this becomes a big problem!'

I guess it's also worth noting that I'm unsure of my friend's significance in this dream, and that last night was the most vivid I had ever had this dream.

[saerleiya]

I'll try to give a good opinion, though I'm not sure I'm the best person to explain dreams.

You say you lack the motivation to go to the moutainous area by passign through the lake, but in your description you say the place you are living into is already a nice place. Yes, you point out the main difference between your zone and the other, but you don't feel really guilty about being here, it seems.

It's only when your close friend comes and invites you that you want to go there. But the journey is long and requires some effort you are not willing to do, because you always back out. The fact that it is your friend maybe means that you are not doing it because you consider your bad habit bad for you, but for your relationship with your surroundings, or that your relationship with your surroundings would be better without it (thus the familiar and trusty face of one or your good friends, showing it's more of a good will coming from you).

To conclude, maybe that at the end you don't consider the habit being bad for you, but you also want to change it for the better and be a better person for the people you love. That dilemma shows up in your dream this way, or it is what I'm feeling. Of course, dreams have sometimes a deeper and more complex explanation. I'm not your subconscious .

[beebo44]

Thanks Saer, I think you got it pretty good. It's not like I don't like my surroundings, it's that I realize it could be more. And I guess another thing could be that the people I care for are trying to help me go across the lake, but I keep backing out and pushing them away. But they keep coming back to convince me. I get the feeling that there's an underlying problem that's a combination of the many things that have been going through my mind these past couple of months, and that dream seems to be my subconscious' manifest of the situation. (For example, I've been thinking about the fact that I don't want to waste my life where I am right now and that I want to make an impact in the world in some way. Then there's my other thoughts that this yearn to impact is eventually futile, as everything I know today will be gone at some point, so why bother?)

[saerleiya]

It's not like I don't like my surroundings, it's that I realize it could be more. And I guess another thing could be that the people I care for are trying to help me go across the lake, but I keep backing out and pushing them away.

Therefore the dilemma. Why would you ream about it otherwise?

(For example, I've been thinking about the fact that I don't want to waste my life where I am right now and that I want to make an impact in the world in some way.

This is something many of us face, the will of having an impact in the world around you. This is kinda selfish, but it can help you find what you want to do and be a motivation for you.

Then there's my other thoughts that this yearn to impact is eventually futile, as everything I know today will be gone at some point, so why bother?

This is a selfish process, as I said. Do not forget yourself: only a few have the opportunity to leave a durable trace of them in this world, even if now information and knowledge travel faster than ever in the global network. The big question is: what do you want? The others, although we care a lot abotu some of them (like our family, our friends), are, at the end, secondary. If you want something, it's your choice, even if it implies caring about other people in it.
I'm also trying not to be afraid of what I want and I am currently working on it: telling the people I love I want to do things my way and that I'm old enough to do so is a pain in the ass, even if at some point it would be necessary if I want to grow up and find my own place down there.

[iHeckler9]

I have no idea what to do on my 18th birthday. How do I make it special? What's going to happen?

[saerleiya]

I have no idea what to do on my 18th birthday. How do I make it special? What's going to happen?

Depends on you. Personnally, I didn't do anythign very special aside from celebrating it with my family and some close friends (at diferent times). My first brother threw a party with a friend of his born the same day, and my littlest did the same as me.

Most people think 18 years is a VERY important mark, but outside of it being the age limit for a lot of stuff, it's not very particular. Celebrations are great when there is something important to you. If you judge your 18 years are important, then do something interesting for you .

[Cairnie]

My 18th didn't exactly go to plan, I ended up having a meal I didn't like at the time and I didn't even feel like drinking alcohol so it just felt like an embarrassment. Yours needn't be if you have a word with family and think about things you really fancy doing.

[Serza5]

Hm yes, my mum likes making out ones 18th birthday to be big but mine wasn't really all that much more than going up to Edinburgh for dinner and a walk around the Christmas market that's usually up at that time.

That being said she's trying to get a big 21st out of me as well this year but I can't say I give that much of a fuck about it, much like my 18th. Although at the same time it'd be nice if I could think of something.