An experience like no other, and it was only a tiny dose (Even smaller than a typical single tab if I remember correctly -- I primarily took it so I wouldn't have to deal with depression and anxiety at school, took it in the cafeteria immediately on arrival and it lasted the entire school day. I was originally on the hunt for some weed [Which I've smoked 3-4 times by now, but I can get into that later.] but had no cash and the single friend who I smoke for free with wasn't available. After mentioning my issues with depression to a friend, she offered acid.) It was definitely a life changing experience. I walked around the halls for some time before class while keeping it on my tongue, and it kicked in quickly, the first symptoms being a much higher alertness, more energy, and a slight lift of mood. By second period I had no anxiety and laughed/smiled a lot, and had some mildly interesting conversations (My senses increasingly heightened, and I was both irritated and fascinated by my limbs and clothes all rubbing at once while I walked -- walking was bothersome but manageable.) My memory is a bit blotchy on this part, but I'm pretty sure that during lunch colors became much more radiant and my perception of time was very distorted, and I was rather outgoing and energetic like before (I'd say it was at this time that I peaked.). I also lost a lot of my appetite (But felt thirsty and craved a shower or a bath, or a dip in a pool.), had a strong urge to hug people and "the world", I was sweating tons, and found most people very attractive. I found the reactions from my friends very amusing: some were apathetic, most were as amused as me, and a few were a bit upset but joined in on the fun. I had a large amount of empathy and muscle weakness (Which intensified in a pleasurable way while sitting) throughout, and the smiling and laughing was at its most after lunch, which was also when I hallucinated the most. While I did laugh a lot and joke around, it was largely introspective at this point, and most of those jokes were not shared or even perceived by others around me, but they had fun as well, and provided a great setting. Some things I distinctly remember is the way colors blended, how objects (Including people) in the foreground and background really messed with me in a good way, hearing my friend's headphones scratching against the table as laughter and her surprised reaction when I told her, staring into a toilet and a mirror and plenty of other objects, and the way the patterns on the table rippled, everything seeming to have an outline. I also created several theories that intertwined (With some "plot holes", if you will) and largely revolved around specific things and how they dictate life, our existence. Theories were based around colors, paper, trees, the sun, hearts... And I can honestly say that I appreciate all of those, music, and artists a lot more than I already had beforehand. I had some negative thoughts, but it always turned around in those cases. I can go into that more later if anyone's interested.Adsolution wrote:How was it?Dark Lum Lord wrote:+ Dropped acid for the first time yesterday
And that leads me to music. It fueled a lot of these thoughts and seemed to "send me to places" in general. It was a real treat. I literally wanted to have sex with music; I explained this to a friend and they thought I wanted to fuck someone while music was playing, but nope -- I wanted to fuck music. By the time school ended and I was on my way to the bus, I was convinced that I'd figured out life and was captivated by the beauty of the world (ex. staring at blooming trees in awe and coming to the conclusion that the world was sending me flowers in the way that someone would to a lover.) I'm not sure how long it kept going when I came home, but I could tell it was fading and I became very tired some time later (I only had three hours of sleep.) and my mood lowered. After that, it came to a point that I was feeling depressed and anxious again and panicked a bit, but was fine again after I adjusted for a few minutes. As for today, I felt even more tired and depressed and some time in the afternoon in class it got so bad that I had to go to the counselor to waste the time I had left until school was over. Right now, I'm fine.
I'd like to go more in depth on the thoughts I had and maybe some other things I forgot. Oh yeah, one thing... I find it interesting how getting high seems to make my blood sugar high too (Nothing drastic, just a typical high BS -- lol.). It was fine after the trip. With weed, it gets high but seems to be improved in the long run as it stays stable for awhile afterwards.
