Something Bothering you?/Daily Doldrums

[Jewish Candy]

I feel like I'm not even a shell of the person who I once was. Just a flake, wedged between a crack; I've tried getting help but the counselors just dangle the floss in front of my face and expect me to climb out by myself. It's not going to happen. And I struggle to even explain this to them because my social skills and thinking patterns have deteriorated so much: I'm just a running drop of grey watercolor paint drowning in too much water.

Are you seeing a counsellor right now? If you're able to write about your feelings as eloquently and descriptively as you do here, you could communicate the problem to them in that way rather than verbally. Back when I was doing group therapy I would effectively rehearse what I was going to talk about before I got there because I wouldn't be able to think up words on the spot that could accurately convey my experience. Not everyone will benefit from counselling - and of course all counsellors are different - so don't feel it's your only option.

Also, as Keane said, you are going through a complete hormone shindig right now. I'm not suggesting this is behind your feelings, but it is likely excacerbating them. When you feel like you're not even a shell of who you once were it's because you're not; you're the jelly inside the cocoon, neither caterpillar not butterfly. You are metamorphosing.

I never have energy and when I do it's only temporary, and I still have trouble paying attention in those cases. My life is going nowhere and I'm doing nothing to stop it. Every single day is the same.

That sense of hopelessness is very familiar to me, as is the ennui. What I will say is that you're not doing nothing to stop it. While I could never approve of using acid as medication, the fact that you are prepared to medicate yourself - and take quantities into account as well - suggests you have a strong drive to keep going in life and get better*. That drive is the first and most fundamental step to 'going somewhere'. Eating well and drinking plenty of water boosts your energy levels and concentration, so if you're not already doing that, do it as well you can afford. The stuff that I recommended to Keane about improving executive functioning a few posts ago could be useful for you too, basically allowing yourself to complete simple, pleasurable tasks in order to relax and prep your brain for more complicated ones. Like Keane says, "simple fun isn't a distraction unless you treat it as that". There's a lot you can't control about this condition as well you know, but you are already taking steps to control what you can and that's impressive. When I drop and feel like no matter what I do I'm never going to get better, when I feel like my efforts aren't enough to escape this rut, I try to remember that days pass and change happens.

*This also makes me wonder if anti-depressants would be beneficial for you. I haven't taken them, but I know people who do. That's something you'd need to talk to doctors about, and do get a second opinion or three because they're not something you're easily weaned off at all. I'm not sure what country you're in, so there's that issue too: a) standards can differ, and b) what might be free for me on the NHS might not be adequately covered by an American health insurer. Anti-depressants are not a cure and they don't suit everyone - they're heavy stuff - but they can be a great support in simply getting on with life.

I hope this advice is solicited, I'm sorry if not.

[Adsolution]

It's strange. I have a tendency to try and give advice whenever I can, but honestly, right now, I have nothing to say that doesn't involve making up some kind response that hasn't already been made. I've felt ingenuine communicating through text. It's exhausting trying to convey, and I'm tired.

Life really doesn't have any purpose, you just grab on to those days that made you feel good and try to replicate them. The problem is, there is nothing better, and you can't question it due to the fact that there is no answer. What often happens with me is that I start to think about things, and it passes through the stage of being really theoretical, tooling with negative emotion and all that. Eventually, as it goes deeper and onto a more technical level, I start considering the biology and mathematics behind it all. Either the notion of trying to understand how our minds work re-envigorates me slightly, or I tire my brain out and I begin to drift towards simpler childhood fantasies.

And then I rember that, for me at least, it's always been about embracing the unknown. Moving out, getting drunk in a comfortable environment for the first time, hearing one or many people stand up for you against a bully after you'd only ever been talked down to your whole life - these are all new experiences, and people often fail to grasp how life-changing they can be, every single one. They can turn your world upside down, they have the capacity to reinvent you. I've experienced precisely zero of the above, but I'm damn near certain, based off of previous both good and bad life-changing events, that to claim we know how we'll react to something in our reach that we can't even begin to comprehend (due to a lack of experience) is an unspeakable misjudgement. Our emotions are so flexible - we can be in states of immense dysphoria, euphoria, insanity, boredom, adrenaline, wonder, and nuch more. When you feel something outstanding, the question of "why" is no longer relevant, you won't have overruling vibes of 'meh', you live in the moment. Even if you're in your room right now, lying in bed when you think you should be starting your homework, trying to figure out what the hell you're even doing, consider where you are and what you've experienced. What you see in the movies or read about, what they attempt to replicate, they don't even hold a candle to what you'll feel when you feel it for yourself. You haven't seen it all, you've only seen the inside of your eyelids.

Sometimes - more often than not probably - you can't act now, and you just have to wait for a little bit. This is especially the case when you're a developing teenager, when you don't have any freedom or independence. To help eachother through things, I want so much the privilage to just sit back with you guys in a quiet place area and listen to music.

[Bradandez]

I didn't get my portfolio reviewed. Great. Well, I guess it's time to take a break and focus on something else for a while.

[OCG]

On this day in 1999, something that can be compared to Charlie Hebdo shooting happened. Employees of RTS were killed in bombing. May they rest in peace and I am glad that political scientist Noam Chomsky compared those two cases and made more people aware of 1999 aggression. I always feel very bad when days when horrible acts of terrorism happened in 1999 have anniversary. I can only hope that both them and Charlie Hebdo staff are on better place now.

[Reese Riverson]

Well, first time I'm driven to come here, honestly.

Basically some time last year, Moonlightelf came to me via DeviantArt note seeking to find someone new to role play with. She's a friend of Ryo, who I didn't know very well, nor still do.

There's been a few instances that was off putting about her, like some 'strict' requirements on role playing, that 'cut off' many who used to role play with her. Demanding reasoning for every single damn thing of existence, such as fears for example. Then when she joined my Minecraft server, she even was pretty snooty to Master and myself there over Raylex building something in an ocean she had made full claims on.

That didn't set well with me, and I still never did talk to her that much, and there was a second event of her making some extreme ridiculous demands over her build too. By this point I've already lost a lot of interest in role playing with her, because I'm afraid of her being one of those control freaks. Though I hadn't told her because I am trying to be nice still.

Until yesterday came, and I thought I would say hi to be friendly. Boy, that conversation turned around into a big headache.

Now, I am going to post it here, because I want you to see what I had to deal with, and tell me if I'm not the only one to feel she decided to toss out some insults at the end especially, and being a bit demanding.

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Reese (4/24/2015 11:55:38 AM): Hello there, moon!

Moonlightelf (4/24/2015 12:22:16 PM): Hiya. Sorry about late answer, I was at sauna and shower after well-earned work

Reese (4/24/2015 12:24:03 PM): It's okay, I ended up eating lunch. 

Reese (4/24/2015 12:24:08 PM): So how are you today?

Moonlightelf (4/24/2015 12:24:19 PM): sore from feet and muscles.

Reese (4/24/2015 12:26:14 PM): I've been practicing, and here's even my first proper shading attempt even... http://reeseriverson.com/rriverson/Reesepractice-color-4-23-15_smallres.jpg
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Moonlightelf (4/24/2015 12:28:47 PM): Hmm... still little flat, but it's improvement

Reese (4/24/2015 12:32:14 PM): I have a bit to learn on shading, but I do plan to learn that too.

First, I'm focusing on drawing well.

Moonlightelf (4/24/2015 12:32:51 PM): good luck with that

Though... how's the city coming along?

Reese (4/24/2015 12:38:54 PM): I still need to familiarize myself with the terrian tools, but it hasn't gotten made yet. Tools confused me, but I hadn't touched that game (or any games) for a while now, since I've been trying to work on my artistic skills.

Moonlightelf (4/24/2015 12:39:45 PM): *tilts head, giving little "you had one job..." look*

Moonlightelf (4/24/2015 1:45:44 PM): You just can't get anything done, can you? *tilts head other way*

Reese (4/24/2015 1:47:28 PM): I do eventually, but excuse me for being busy with other things.

Moonlightelf (4/24/2015 1:47:48 PM): Typical man. Can't multitask. No offence.

Moonlightelf (4/24/2015 1:48:39 PM): Though seriously... I thought you RPed for fun.

Reese (4/24/2015 1:50:00 PM): I do, but a lot of requirements can slow things down, like said city.

I'm not that quick on coming up with things, ask Ryo.

Moonlightelf (4/24/2015 1:52:53 PM): I don't think I gave that many requirements. Sure, parkour... but that's that. Did you even watch that Assasin Creed parkour video?

Definitely will ask about that

Moonlightelf (4/24/2015 1:54:45 PM): ...yeah... *eyes you*

Moonlightelf (4/24/2015 1:56:06 PM): ...blanking on Reese and his own grandfather?

Moonlightelf (4/24/2015 1:58:31 PM): I'd like to hear what's story behind that one?

Reese (4/24/2015 1:59:38 PM): What do you mean blanking on Reese and his grandfather?

Moonlightelf (4/24/2015 2:00:04 PM): You told me to ask Ryo and I did ask. *tilts her head*

Reese (4/24/2015 2:00:55 PM): I didn't blank anything with those two, all I said is I ought to have his grandpa take Reese and his buddy camping, and let them invite a couple of friends

Reese (4/24/2015 2:01:14 PM): Ryo responded with "You could." 

Reese (4/24/2015 2:01:25 PM): I have not responded back yet.

Moonlightelf (4/24/2015 2:13:40 PM): Well... "ought to" refers to being not so sure about it. Do you ever plan things ahead or do I have to do everything when reaching certain points? Because I don't mind showing how pro at imagination like me can do it.... *smiles*

Moonlightelf (4/24/2015 2:14:51 PM): Though during all the RPing years... honestly... I've never had problem with starting one.

Reese (4/24/2015 2:18:07 PM): I have my good days, I have my off days. Sometimes my mind seems a bit foggy and depending on what's going on around me how it effects my ability. I do role play for fun, but I usually do what feels comfortable for me. Things that require more concentration just need to be done when I am not pre-occupied, or on my better day.

I never been a good role play starter so I tend to keep things simplified, but that's what I generally am happy with. If Ryo starts something, it may be a couple of pages worth of intro for a new role play of his own. 

Me, maybe a paragraph or two. (Which anyone else I can role play with is the same as me in situations.)

Reese (4/24/2015 2:18:19 PM): I usually think as I go.

Moonlightelf (4/24/2015 2:24:50 PM): Well... ought to start now learning. Nothing can't be accomplished if you keep being "I never been". Time to change it to "I'm not finest, but at least I try".

I'm not Ryo when it comes to making intro, but at least I try. In fact... his intros aren't exactly couple pages, but relevant to the situation at hand. The longest post I've seen from him...? Nearly one page.

Reese (4/24/2015 2:26:06 PM): Well sometimes it's too much detail for my taste. I like detail don't get me wrong but I have a preference in a proper balance.

Moonlightelf (4/24/2015 2:26:41 PM): Though detail is still essential, especially when describing a character.

Reese (4/24/2015 2:28:49 PM): I know Reese is easy for me to discribe. Blue wolf boy, who's age 13, brown messy hair, dark blue eyes, a black sleeveless shirt with a nintendo gamepad on the chest, and tand and black cargo shorts Then a set of matching shoes.
Moonlightelf (4/24/2015 2:29:58 PM): What is his nail color?

Reese (4/24/2015 2:30:20 PM): black

Moonlightelf (4/24/2015 2:30:41 PM): his worst/greatest fear?

Reese (4/24/2015 2:31:29 PM): Clowns and Tornados.

Moonlightelf (4/24/2015 2:31:34 PM): Why?

Reese (4/24/2015 2:33:31 PM): For the former, I had in mind because one was pretty scary looking when he was a young child, back when his Grandpa took him and his sister to a circus. 


For the latter, likely the same reason as me... I never am sure what made me fear tornados... other than just living in an area that had them a lot. Not being in one, but they are very deadly forces of nature. 

Moonlightelf (4/24/2015 2:34:41 PM): How does he define what is good or morally desirable?

Reese (4/24/2015 2:36:48 PM): I guess if I am understanding the question right...he likes and desires friends, and desires to play sports and games.

Moonlightelf (4/24/2015 2:39:11 PM): *plays horn as wrong sign* This isn't from likes and desires... it's about defining  what is good or morally desirable. How he defines what is good? How he defines what is morally desirable.

Moonlightelf (4/24/2015 2:43:41 PM): In short... lets have the mentioned friend as example for now... how he would define that the friend is "good"?

Reese (4/24/2015 2:45:30 PM): Well, because someone actually becomes his friend, I suppose. Good friends go a long way.

Moonlightelf (4/24/2015 2:47:28 PM): Would he sacrifice someone he loved, for a good enough cause?

Reese (4/24/2015 2:48:15 PM): What, you mean kill someone he loved? I highly doubt that.

Moonlightelf (4/24/2015 2:49:02 PM): Well how do you define sacrifice then?

Also, don't worry... I have 11 pages of different kinds of questions I can ask on a whim.

Reese (4/24/2015 2:49:56 PM): Well... typically when I hear sacrifice, it's when it involves... sacrificing animals for example.

Moonlightelf (4/24/2015 2:50:51 PM): Aka letting go of things at times.

Who was his first kiss?

Reese (4/24/2015 2:52:21 PM): Ah, well if letting go material possession for someone's sake that he cares for, probably would be something then.


First kiss at his age? lol seriously?

Moonlightelf (4/24/2015 2:53:30 PM): Just answer the question. Heck... some get their so called first kisses really young nowadays for goddesses sake.

Reese (4/24/2015 2:55:02 PM): Well at his current age no one. Later in life, out of my characters, Maybe it'd be Kat.

Moonlightelf (4/24/2015 2:56:43 PM): Favorite meal?

Reese (4/24/2015 2:57:46 PM): Well, it'd be either cheese burgers or something my mom cooks I love, called Mexican Chicken.

Moonlightelf (4/24/2015 2:58:27 PM): He's leaving and can only say goodbye to one person. Who would he choose to see?

Reese (4/24/2015 2:59:53 PM): Define time frame of leaving, or even if it's his family moving away. Because there's too many variables to this one.

Moonlightelf (4/24/2015 3:00:42 PM): I think "to one person" says it all.

Reese (4/24/2015 3:01:40 PM): Not really.

Moonlightelf (4/24/2015 3:02:27 PM): How about not thinking about it too much with all the variables?

Reese (4/24/2015 3:03:27 PM): Fine, we'll just assume under a situation where his family is moving away.

Probably his best buddy, who is Ryo's character Marvin. 

Moonlightelf (4/24/2015 3:04:19 PM): Why does he bother? What makes whatever he does better than giving up, or even just laying down and dying?

Reese (4/24/2015 3:05:20 PM): He doesn't want to die.

Moonlightelf (4/24/2015 3:06:00 PM): What is his earliest memory?

Reese (4/24/2015 3:07:31 PM): His sister pushing him into a christmas tree at his grandparents... making him cry when he hit his head on something. This is the earliest thing that was mentioned in a role play with Ryo a while back.

Moonlightelf (4/24/2015 3:08:20 PM): The police has arrested him for murder and he has one phone call - who does he call?

Reese (4/24/2015 3:09:09 PM): What a silly thing to ask.... but possibly his mom.

Moonlightelf (4/24/2015 3:09:35 PM): Where does he hide the bodies?

Reese (4/24/2015 3:10:15 PM): He had none to hide. Nor will I need to think of an answer for that kind of question. Sorry.

Moonlightelf (4/24/2015 3:11:31 PM): *rolls eyes* How about dose of hypothesis on that case?

Moonlightelf (4/24/2015 3:15:29 PM): Or are you saying that you don't know your character that well after all in that aspect?

Reese (4/24/2015 3:16:34 PM): There's nothing to know or need to know for that question because it's something that's never ever going to happen.

Moonlightelf (4/24/2015 3:16:52 PM): Not even in video game?

Reese (4/24/2015 3:17:44 PM): Him being a video game character? Doubt it. Him playing a video game involving that? I doubt that too.

Moonlightelf (4/24/2015 3:19:14 PM): Tch, Nii-sama would have given at least hypothesis if such were case with Ryo... be narrow-minded then and moving on.

What are his beliefs?

Reese (4/24/2015 3:24:50 PM): Probably believes in God like his parents.

Moonlightelf (4/24/2015 3:25:21 PM): And what exactly is his religion?

Reese (4/24/2015 3:26:14 PM): Possibly Christian in that case.

Moonlightelf (4/24/2015 3:26:33 PM): Drink of choise?

Reese (4/24/2015 3:27:19 PM): Root beer or tea. Really.

Moonlightelf (4/24/2015 3:28:02 PM): How does he take his tea?

Reese (4/24/2015 3:29:09 PM): iced, sweet

Moonlightelf (4/24/2015 3:29:53 PM): What is the color of his third cousin's aunt's brother's niece's husband's hair?

Reese (4/24/2015 3:30:35 PM): I haven't a clue.

Reese (4/24/2015 3:30:49 PM): Probably don't have all the family that far developed yet.

Moonlightelf (4/24/2015 3:31:12 PM): Name his favorite story as a child.

Reese (4/24/2015 3:32:48 PM): Good question, I need to come up with this one, figure what story sounds the best. So just hold off on this one for now and we'll come back to it.

Moonlightelf (4/24/2015 3:33:24 PM): If he were a tree, what kind of tree he would be?

Reese (4/24/2015 3:34:59 PM): The heck do you come up with these things from? (Or why for that matter?)

But if I must pick a tree, maybe spruce. 

Moonlightelf (4/24/2015 3:36:41 PM): I told you that I have 11 pages of questions that I can ask on a whim?

Are there any songs or nursery rhymes from his childhood that make him all nostalgic?

Reese (4/24/2015 3:38:32 PM): Yeah but that still doesn't explain why, are you just trying to test me or are  you just having fun asking me questions?


Like with the story, I need to truly come up with a good choice, so let's save this one for later too

Moonlightelf (4/24/2015 3:40:35 PM): *leans a little closer* ....does it matter when it's your character that possibly gets new possibilities opened by the questions? A little wider perspective? Something to think?

Reese (4/24/2015 3:41:44 PM): I'm just curious at your reasoning on it is all. Though I hope you don't plan to ask all 11 pages worth in one day. ^^;

Moonlightelf (4/24/2015 3:43:44 PM): Pft, as if I would. I've gone through one page with Nii-sama.

Reese (4/24/2015 3:44:27 PM): But yes, you brought up two things so far that would be good to think on

Moonlightelf (4/24/2015 3:45:30 PM): What's the furthest he has traveled from his birthplace?

Reese (4/24/2015 3:47:47 PM): Maybe to another state to see his dad's parents. 

Moonlightelf (4/24/2015 3:48:26 PM): How old is "too old"? (to him)

Reese (4/24/2015 3:49:59 PM): Not sure

Moonlightelf (4/24/2015 3:51:21 PM): What is the last thing he does before he goes to sleep?

Reese (4/24/2015 3:54:02 PM): Probably playing video games or playing with legos 

Moonlightelf (4/24/2015 3:54:56 PM): okay, last one because my eyelids start to get heavy.
What advice his mother gave him has he obviously never followed?

Reese (4/24/2015 3:57:31 PM): Possibly things related to home work. Since he dislikes homework

Reese (4/24/2015 4:02:07 PM): 
Now, as for this...

"Moonlightelf: Tch, Nii-sama would have given at least hypothesis if such were case with Ryo... be narrow-minded then and moving on."

I'm far from being narrow-minded here. Some people can't deal with even one thought of violence, let alone murder. And if something doesn't apply to a charadcter, it doesn't apply period. Such as this case.

Moonlightelf (4/24/2015 4:03:19 PM): So he wouldn't even go and defend himself?

Moonlightelf (4/24/2015 4:04:45 PM): oops, combo of 82 in game

Reese (4/24/2015 4:05:24 PM): With out killing someone probably.


Question like that one, you almost may as well ask who he would sexually assault... that's as bad as murder is for crying out loud. Thus why I refuse to answer.

Moonlightelf (4/24/2015 4:06:16 PM): *shrugs* Whatever.

Reese (4/24/2015 4:07:33 PM): Besides, killing in self defense isn't murder nor does it require hiding any bodies. So that question was completely irrelevant to begin with.

Moonlightelf (4/24/2015 4:10:10 PM): it's still justifiable homicide.

Reese (4/24/2015 4:11:07 PM): How's that possible? Murder's defined as unjustifiable.

Moonlightelf (4/24/2015 4:13:49 PM): it stands on the dividing line between an excuse, justification and an exculpation in criminal law. Homicide is justified when it prevents greater harm to innocents... and can only be justified if there is sufficient evidence to prove that it was reaonable to believe that offending party posed and imminent threat to the life or well-being of another.

Moonlightelf (4/24/2015 4:14:36 PM): One must, however, objectively prove toa trier of fact, beyond all reasonable doubt, that the suspect intended to commit violence.

Moonlightelf (4/24/2015 4:15:04 PM): to a*

Reese (4/24/2015 4:17:41 PM): Still, we've drifted from the prime definition of murder compared to self-defense. Which are different. 

Justifiable homocide is like shooting someone because they are raping your spouce.

Moonlightelf (4/24/2015 4:18:12 PM): Though it can be flipped as murder if there isn't enough evidence to point it out.

Reese (4/24/2015 4:19:04 PM): But the original point is, and still stands, is Reese doesn't murder. Period.

Moonlightelf (4/24/2015 4:20:40 PM): Well... it's good to see that your mind doesn't allow such hypothesis to even exist. *chuckles* Then... if not narrow-minded... let me correct it then. Close-minded.

Moonlightelf (4/24/2015 4:21:53 PM): Though sad to know that your character is unprepared.

Reese (4/24/2015 4:22:47 PM): Well, you're free to think so, anyway.

Moonlightelf (4/24/2015 4:23:32 PM): Poor day when he accidentally kills someone due to some degree of carelessness though... mental health and all, you know?

Moonlightelf (4/24/2015 4:28:59 PM): And having mind that refuses to even think such possibility or scenario... it's truly sad, you know? I do ponder how he'll be able to even live with it or even process the entire thing. Because the Kübler-Ros model is somewhat fashinating at times to think through for characters.
But yeah, I'm free to think. And wonder... and be left open with the questions that you refuse to think answer to. *smiles*

Reese (4/24/2015 4:33:00 PM): Well gee, I could have aliens abduct him and make him into some monster or make him pregnant and he might not know how to live with it... or he could live with it.

Or how about the loss of both his parents? How would anyone be able to live with that and process it?

And what are the chances of him accidentally killing anyone? Slim to none. And that's still not closed minded.

Moonlightelf (4/24/2015 4:37:14 PM): Then start thinking. *smiles* Besides... even if it is slim chance... accidents happen. Like last year in here, it needed only one shopping trip and the parents vitnessed their own house burning... with daughter in wheelchair upstairs inside the house.
And one summer... at one concert event, a girl who had just turned 18 got run over by firetruck that was moving slowly through crowd... really slowly.
Slim to none, indeed.

Reese (4/24/2015 4:44:20 PM): 
Well, then I guess he could accidentally get abducted by a kidnapper, aliens, pack of underground moll men too, couldn't he?

If I'm close minded, I suppose you are too? Because I recall a few things you mentioned you claim are impossible. If I need to be so open minded, then why not let him hit it off with Kat accidentally and get stuck with a kid, or him get abducted and get stuck with a kid, or call his mom a whale accidentally and get kicked out of the house, or him piss off a villain accidentally and get 3rd degree burns instead of him accidentally murdering someone. 

You know, he's just a teenager, he doesn't have to be prepared for anything. If something happens, it happens like in  realife. Ain't no damn-body is prepared for what can happen all of a sudden. You don't plan 

Reese (4/24/2015 4:44:24 PM): this crap out.

Reese (4/24/2015 4:44:29 PM): Only true murderers plan crap out.

Moonlightelf (4/24/2015 4:45:37 PM): Hmm... you have ADHD, don't you?

Reese (4/24/2015 4:46:51 PM): Alright, that's just completely irrelevant to anything. We are done here for the night.

Moonlightelf (4/24/2015 4:49:31 PM): Just asking since you went pretty snappy, really defensive and write a ton of text while exagrating things to irrelevant things yourself.

Moonlightelf (4/24/2015 4:49:52 PM): Just like my RL ADHD friend.

Moonlightelf is typing...

Moonlightelf (4/24/2015 4:52:25 PM): Besides... true character owners have their OC's reactions ready to be slapped on table anytime when appropriate situation rises... even death. *lifts hat* Have a good evening with some food of thought <3

For someone who wasn't even a friend, sure likes to push people away, and I have to say it turned hurtful and I just will not tolerate this nonsense any more. Especially with having dealt with her nonsense before over Minecraft.

[DandyGuy]

>Typical man. Can't multitask. No offence.

After lurking on her Deviantart after reading the chat. She strikes me as one of those anime feminists who ship X with Y and want control over men.

[neo]

I am going to RP with her, in hopes of getting into an argument. I WILL SAVE YOU HOODCOM.

I SENT HER A NOTE GUYS

[DandyGuy]

I am going to RP with her, in hopes of getting into an argument. I WILL SAVE YOU HOODCOM.

I SENT HER A NOTE GUYS

I was hoping someone would do this TOPKEK.EXE
Post results please.

[Earth Gwee]

This girl is completely condescending. I wouldn't even bother with her anymore, not even as a troll.

[Xenon]

She strikes me as quite strange, actually. All this tilting head sideways and tipping hat business. I wouldn't know how to respond.

[Jewish Candy]

She sounds like a living fedora.
Yeah, I don't think there's any point continuing to communicate with her. Very condescending and, ironically enough, closed-minded.

[Imco]

Wow Reese, I just read through the whole conversation. What an arse! It all made me cringe, I definitely would have cut off that conversation way earlier.
Anyway, I'd say, cut the wires, stop the communication. I couldn't even stand reading through her first statements, let alone the entire conversation.
She should have been happy to have somebody to roleplay with, not some total bitch because she has her "own set of rules" and her "11 pages full of questions"

I must agree with you on the questions as well. What kind of questions were those even? I guess you should know something about your character, if you want to roleplay, but questions as "What is the color of his third cousin's aunt's brother's niece's husband's hair?" or "If he were a tree, what kind of tree he would be?" don't even make sense. And to call you narrow minded when you refuse to or are unable to answer them, what bull shit is that?!
Just the overall tone of her messages, like really? Is she even a moral being?

Anyway, I do believe I'm dragging myself too far into this, like I so often do, lol . What I really wanted to say is, that if just reading this makes me cringe all over, you probably feel even worse, having had contact with her for a longer time. Stop the communication, although personally I'd make a statement to her first. I'd tell her this just isn't tolerable, not caring a fuck how she responds, perhaps she'll learn for the future, although I have my doubts about that.

[Reese Riverson]

Glad I'm not the only one to feel she's condescending and close-minded. Also truth be known, I do have ADHD, but that's still no reason to bring it up like she did. That's quite low, and it's even offended some of my friends I've mentioned this crap to.

Wow Reese, I just read through the whole conversation. What an arse! It all made me cringe, I definitely would have cut off that conversation way earlier.
Anyway, I'd say, cut the wires, stop the communication. I couldn't even stand reading through her first statements, let alone the entire conversation.
She should have been happy to have somebody to roleplay with, not some total bitch because she has her "own set of rules" and her "11 pages full of questions"

I must agree with you on the questions as well. What kind of questions were those even? I guess you should know something about your character, if you want to roleplay, but questions as "What is the color of his third cousin's aunt's brother's niece's husband's hair?" or "If he were a tree, what kind of tree he would be?" don't even make sense. And to call you narrow minded when you refuse to or are unable to answer them, what bull shit is that?!
Just the overall tone of her messages, like really? Is she even a moral being?

Anyway, I do believe I'm dragging myself too far into this, like I so often do, lol . What I really wanted to say is, that if just reading this makes me cringe all over, you probably feel even worse, having had contact with her for a longer time. Stop the communication, although personally I'd make a statement to her first. I'd tell her this just isn't tolerable, not caring a fuck how she responds, perhaps she'll learn for the future, although I have my doubts about that.

Yeah, a lot of others wonder how I tolerated it as long as I have, and to be honest there's plenty of others I can role play with if I wanted. Likely with out being forced to make useless plans for every scenario my character COULD be into before it ever happens. Not gonna happen. Plus, that comment about her going off about "True character owners have blah blah" is nothing but utter bullshit, honestly. Because if you look at reality, a situation can arise and you may not even be ready for it!

Example, what if a tornado went through your town and demolished your home? You might be prepared enough to seek shelter and that's that, or worse. Still, you're going to be devastated. Or what if a fire broke out in your home? You can only ensure you and your loved ones (pets even) get out.

Now those things can sort of be prepared for, but the things that can't is a sudden loss of a loved one, or an accident that can ruin your life. You have to think on the spot to get by any situations that suddenly happen. Just not possible to be prepared for every single little thing in existence.

Fortunately she never asked all 11 pages worth, because I would definitely had to cut it off there. I do agree, some of those questions are absolutely retarded, especially for a character of the age of 13!


But yes, it was bad, so I shut it down and she still kept trying to drag me down further.

[Xenon]

Don't let it get you down, Reese. One person's critique is no more valid than anyone else's (in this case especially when it's posited in such a snotty and patronising tone). And don't take our posts as we're here for you bruh comments, either. Out of interest, does she happen to know about this forum...?

There are two things that are bothering me at the moment, and since I'm here I'll share em.

Firstly, about a week ago I idiotically smashed the back window of my car, and because the glass broke literally into a million pieces, it's impossible to replace window panel on its own, and the car thus requires a new top altogether. The problem has just been stressing me out all week, and although I've fdound a garage that will do the work, it's not going to be easy on the dolla.

Secondly, a close family friend (so close we affectionately called her auntie) died last night. It was quite a relief for the family however because she was suffering a lot and actually wanted to die, hence the reason this came second in the list. It's not the first time I've made a death post in this thread and I still find it hard to cope with, even though I wasn't especially close to the person in question..

[Jewish Candy]

I'm so sorry, Xen. My thoughts are with you guys.

(As for the car issue, what a pain. I hope the expense won't put you out too heavily.)

[Reese Riverson]

Don't let it get you down, Reese. One person's critique is no more valid than anyone else's (in this case especially when it's posited in such a snotty and patronising tone). And don't take our posts as we're here for you bruh comments, either. Out of interest, does she happen to know about this forum...?

I don't know, I kind of doubt it, though I honestly wouldn't be surprised if she found out some how later down the road.

There are two things that are bothering me at the moment, and since I'm here I'll share em.

Firstly, about a week ago I idiotically smashed the back window of my car, and because the glass broke literally into a million pieces, it's impossible to replace window panel on its own, and the car thus requires a new top altogether. The problem has just been stressing me out all week, and although I've fdound a garage that will do the work, it's not going to be easy on the dolla.

Secondly, a close family friend (so close we affectionately called her auntie) died last night. It was quite a relief for the family however because she was suffering a lot and actually wanted to die, hence the reason this came second in the list. It's not the first time I've made a death post in this thread and I still find it hard to cope with, even though I wasn't especially close to the person in question..

Oh my, I've never heard of a car needing a whole new top just from a broken window, is this a convertible?


Also my condolences to you and your family.

[neo]

Don't let it get you down, Reese. One person's critique is no more valid than anyone else's (in this case especially when it's posited in such a snotty and patronising tone). And don't take our posts as we're here for you bruh comments, either. Out of interest, does she happen to know about this forum...?

I don't know, I kind of doubt it, though I honestly wouldn't be surprised if she found out some how later down the road.

LOL I hope not or I'll be exposed. I'm currently talking to her now. Nothing interesting to report. OVER

[Xenon]

Neo, how are you doing matey?

Yeah Hoodcom it is a convertible, that's something I forgot to mention. I guess that makes a little more sense now, haha. And thanks Miss Candy for the kind words.

[neo]

Hey. I'm doing alright, yourself Spaceray? I'm sorry to hear about your close family friend passing away. Also I feel ya on the car repairs, I also had to spend quite alot of moolah on my mother's van, which STOPPED WORKING OVER THE INTERSTATE HIGHWAY. So, I live in Pennsylvania. It was left in a shop in NJ. It was annoying as shit. I didn't mean to post this as something that's bothering me. Just want to say, that it is what it is. Simply go through with it, and move on. Because, you are still living regardless of it being fixed or not. Eventually, you'll forget it and sift back into living happily, like me. Try your best to stay as stress free as possible.

[Reese Riverson]

LOL I hope not or I'll be exposed. I'm currently talking to her now. Nothing interesting to report. OVER

Well you don't need to troll people, as much as some of them deserve to be trolled. As Earth Gwee covered nicely earlier.

Though I'm not going to nor can I stop you from doing what you wish. All I can say is I wish you the best of luck.