Something Bothering you?/Daily Doldrums

[DandyGuy]

I'm shocked. It seemed like your were suicidal for a moment
What did the other 2 say about this?

[incognito]

I'm shocked. It seemed like your were suicidal for a moment

Kind of, it was a dark period.

What did the other 2 say about this?

I actually made a small comic strip about it, but I won't release it before a while.
Actually I have a quite Immature and childish part, and another extremely serious, and the problem is the fact i neglected too much a part of me, thus making me unstable.
Trying to destroy a part of yourself is not a good thing, you just have to live with it.
My mind splitting in three might just be a representation of my way to think, I dunno really.

[DandyGuy]

A-are you me? What is your comic strip about?

[gamerz31w]

where i can find fully working codebreaker and air max for my ps2?one thing bother me one guy want money for making video games he had no patreon account after i believed in that he retreat from my request it's guy nicknamed CorvidDude(Joshua Corvinus).

[incognito]

A-are you me ?

I think we're two extremely similar person, the fact is, you are still searching for your way.

What is your comic strip about?

The tales of a schizo loser spending time with himself, I can send you a strip by PM

[Dart]

Sounds like you've been having a rough time with it lately. Believe it or not I do understand what you mean by having two selves, one self being what I show and say to others while the other housed most parts of myself that I couldn't reveal. What's important is that you don't bottle up that other self otherwise it'll eat you alive.

[DandyGuy]

>The tales of a schizo loser spending time with himself, I can send you a strip by PM
I'm very fascinated to read it

[incognito]

Of course "schizo" is quite exaggerated , you'll see anyway, it is full of references.

[gamerz31w]

insanity

[incognito]

Yet another person to conform to what he sees to make a judgement/statement.
I wanna work on a strip but I have a trip to work on and after that I'll be to busy to do anything so I dunno when it will be done, in addition I have to work on my costume.
It is a full mix of Isaac Clark's level 1 RIG (for the blue light and the clothe) and of the Star Wars Imperial Gunner (for the plans) and a little of Boba Fett (probably, still not sure, for the armor, still have to make some plans).
Anyway my mask is kind of tight and compresses my throat which already gives me a Boba Fett like rapsy voice.

[Hunchman801]

Nope, I think most of you guys would be disappointed if I show my face, but as I already said I look like a teen-aged Boba Fett.

More like Darth Vader's actual face, eh?

[incognito]

Nope, actually I'm considered as pretty handsome.

[Hunchman801]

Easily said when you won't show your face.

[incognito]

Oh you people can think what you think, I don't care, I know who I am.
#Burn !
#Duck tie slams,
#Anon rocks.

[Keane]

welp, this happened all of a sudden: my parents are divorcing

I've been deeming it a possibility for a while I guess, but it comes at a really shitty time, because it means that my mother'll be moving back to the EU and financially it's just not possible for me to go alongside with her, but being left behind with my father/brother duo is as tasteless as it gets. My father is way too prone to making these just completely irrational decisions and I can see him going overboard with things that he'd otherwise be stopped from. I have the impression that he's in a mid-life crisis, and at the same time he's got the same sort of socially inept bullshit that I do, and I feel like it's just not gonna stir him in a good direction or he's going to regret it eventually.

I also see it turning everything in the shitter, considering that my brother is barely home and I just don't have the closest relationship with my father, it's gonna become very silent here. My mother is still sticking around and nothings official yet, but a half year'll be the absolute maximum.

I dunno man, but with everything that I've already got to deal with on my own and then this, it's like there's always something looming over me. I'm really not sure what to do now - I don't wanna attend college here, I don't wanna go back to the netherlands, so the only thing I can think to do is just continue the original move to the UK on my own. Until then, I've got another year and a half to spend with family, but if I'm already feeling isolated and alienated right now than I'm not looking forward to this at all.

[Eren]

Aw man, I hope you get better I know that feel, my parents divorced too.

[Xenon]

Very sorry to hear that. Divorce is surely one of the most depressing and heartwrenching words there is.

[Dart]

Sure is, though I don't have any memories of my parents ever being together.

[Dart]

There's something I seriously need to get off my chest and I don't really know how to word it, but I feel that if I don't I'll go crazy because I'm not sure what to feel or what to do.

For the past few months, I've been rediscovering a part of myself that I buried a long time ago. Truth is, I really like what's traditionally feminine stuff. A long, long time ago (say 8 or 9) I was always alone at my dad's house, so in my spare time, I'd watch shows like the powerpuff girls and totally spies or read about Alice's adventures in wonderland; sometimes I even wore my stepmoms clothes (Hey, I was the one that did the laundry while they were gone so it's not like they'd notice.). Basically I liked a lot of girl stuff when I wasn't gushing over Pokémon and Yu-Gi-Oh as a kid!

Since then I've grown a lot, I've met some good people and have a job as well as a college career during the weekends all while attending High School. But for a long time it always felt like I was missing something, so I spent an immeasurable amount of time trying to fill the void of something I'd forgotten. I'd work, browse the same websites, play video games, read. Rinse. Wash. Repeat. It wasn't until around September that I began to remember that old part of my life I had discarded and I guess things just clicked. Like that part of me that I'd lost had finally been found.

Now I'm 18 and I've come to realize something. I miss being around frilly and lacy things, thinking about dresses and fashion or all the cool girls I watched on TV; I especially miss being able to express a fondness for cute things. Part's of the change have been easy, since I buy my own clothes now (when I got the cash), and can speak more freely among my friends from High School. Other's make me depressed, because the second I leave my room in a dress or anything too feminine (like earrings or hair clips, both of which I'd love to have) I'd immediately be labeled a bunch of shit and be ridiculed, even by my own family. In fact I only got rid of that part of my life because I was desperate for acceptance and as a result was either depressed, hollow, or parroting others for a decent chunk of my time I've lived.

Which is why I'm so scared right now.

The life I've lead since I left these things has been as traditional as it was hollow, and the things people expect of me I just can't provide anymore. I've never been into hunting or wrestling or being macho in any way, in fact I hate hunting and can only stand wrestling if I think of it as being theater but with more punching; despite this my dad and my co-workers (some of which are my friends) seem to think I'm Mr. BroMan cause I only offered them a personality made of smoke and mirrors. On my Mother's side I have 2 older brothers that're cool with the fact that I now own a bunch of pink and purple stuff (Earbuds, shirts, yarn yoshi's), and a younger brother and sister think I'm weird; my Mom calls all my changes "unnatural." Funnily enough I talked to my older sister about this and she was very supportive, so much so that I was on the verge of crying with relief!

So that's basically it. I'm trying to redefine myself without burning all the bridges I've made in the past 18 years of my life, no pressure of course!

[Xenon]

Damn, sorry to hear you feel that way. Seems like quite a few people here have some difficulties in establishing themselves. Good that you were able to write it here though. Would you say you could relate to Ad's feelings about his gender or have I read your doldrum in a too extreme way?