I feel like an emotional bomb right now. I was so confused earlier when I saw a strange post, and then I find out it's actually a joke so now I feel stupid despite the fact that I am laughing. I fell for another joke today, albeit it was unintentional, this is like the 10th one on me for this month. I wish I wasn't so naive. I am also laughing at myself for how easily I failed to pick up that joke. Sigh...for some reason though it's leaving me depressed and unmotivated to do anything today, I think I'm having mood swings again from this. I know I'll be all right but I hate how naive and also emotional I can get when it comes to things like this. Maybe I should just stop everything and take a break for awhile. That q though....
Tired, worn, old. Shit gets worse... My head's full o' crap, I hadn't a sincere smile on my face for a long time now. I just wanna work my way outta this shit, burn down whatever my life has been for those last years, alongside whatever memories I have of it, and start anew.
Feeling better. Most of today I have spent the day either fixing my computer with the stuck key (still need to keep trying) or getting a stupid web recorder to record when I play my games. After an hour I finally feel great since Bandicam worked at last for me! I hope I can start making good playthrough videos soon. I think what first inspired me to try this was from first seeing Haruka's videos on Youtube many years ago, though it was temporary and the feeling didn't arise again until recently when I helped Steo and Fifo write a guide for Rayman (PSX). I think it helped me start pushing myself to finally giving it a try, and someday I'm going to upload them. Just not now. I need to practice some more.
My left eye felt strained the past 3 days, something that I haven't went through in several months. Thankfully when I woke up today the strain was gone, so I've been feeling pretty good.
Today, I am feeling very twitchy. Probably because I am having my first interview in quite awhile since I started that class. I know I won't fail miserably at it, but I still needed to feel prepared for it so I studied hard the past few days. Despite it all, I'm still pretty nervous, but I'm going to stay confident.
The Jonster wrote:Today, I am feeling very twitchy. Probably because I am having my first interview in quite awhile since I started that class. I know I won't fail miserably at it, but I still needed to feel prepared for it so I studied hard the past few days. Despite it all, I'm still pretty nervous, but I'm going to stay confident.
I am very concerned right now for my cousin, and it's affecting my mood at this moment. I have no idea what to do. I am worried that she will likely be sitting outside the apartment complex of her home all night, and that's something I don't wish for anyone, not even homeless people! I want to bring her to my house, but her mom said to not get involved in the affair right now. Sigh. My head is a mess.
The Jonster wrote:I am very concerned right now for my cousin, and it's affecting my mood at this moment. I have no idea what to do. I am worried that she will likely be sitting outside the apartment complex of her home all night, and that's something I don't wish for anyone, not even homeless people! I want to bring her to my house, but her mom said to not get involved in the affair right now. Sigh. My head is a mess.
Well we all hate those situations where we feel bad for someone but can't get involved, but the best and only advice I can really give you, is that it's not your fault that whatever is happening is happening. Try not to beat yourself up over it or you'll just be even more upset.
EDIT: Oh hell naw my signature did not just stop working. Oh wait it's fixed... Yay!
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The Jonster wrote:Thanks. This happened like an hour ago, I've been watching funny videos and bumping old threads to get over it, and it's working so far
Nice! I do hate when that happens but to be 100% honest here, I have no cousins in my family I care about that much and the ones I do see all the time I'd love to strangle one of them because he's an annoying prick and I hate him
Now I do feel better! I wish I could be that way, but I'm just too nice and kind-hearted to not be involved in family matters, even if it isn't my own. I think it's better off if I don't do anything though. I'll probably just make it worse.
Haha. It's none of my business but I'm taking a guess your cousin isn't an idiot like mine who purchases "illegal substances" and is the leading cause of stress on my mothers side of the family?
I wish I wasn't so naive. 
