SOTM#170 - Rayman Legends

[Steo]

And I’d be calling you an ass for pulling more all-nighters than me.

So now it's a competition to call the person who done more than another an asshole I see.

[The Jonster]

And I’d be calling you an ass for pulling more all-nighters than me.

So now it's a competition to call the person who done more than another an asshole I see.

Imagine if there was actually a thread where you call the person above you an asshole like this!

[R4Y_ANC3L]

I wouldn't be calling anyone an asshole. I would just be unreasonably mean.

I am just sometimes led to believe that people who barely do any good work end up succeeding in life while the ones who try hard just struggles. I have experienced that when I was younger in my original school.

I understand I shouldn't think of a forum contest as a serious business. I am just very passionate about the work I produce. I have been an art student for years so this probably why I am just being a cock. My parents always think that I am a master at it and when I don't do well, they are like "What's going on?" and sometimes I can't answer that.

I feel like I should consult a therapist just to give myself answers. But of course, that will not be an option, my parents hate to believe that I suffer from depression and other mind related problems, eventually they saw it or heard about it then they treat it as a joke and think I am just being a baby.

I don't know what is wrong with me...Work and School probably messed with my mind.

[Hunchman801]

To me you clearly sound mildly depressed, I think it wouldn't hurt to consult a doctor or therapist. Acknowledging your depression doesn't mean you should use it as an excuse though; some people find comfort in being diagnosed and from what I've seen it only drags them down.

[Steo]

I had a friend go to therapy before and it helped them a lot. They even got their life back together and they're in great form now. It might be best to consider it if you're feeling this way, I think it could help you in the long run. I remember you never used to pass on SOTM, regardless of votes, you were doing it for fun.

[Aaron]

From a lot of your recent posts that were longer ones, it definitely seems to me like you have depression which is a very serious thing so I think you should make sure to go to a therapist as early as you can.

I know it can be hard to come to terms with the fact that 'there's something wrong with you' because as I said before in some of my previous posts, I have autism, and I still try my best not to think about it that much, which is why I also don't look at a lot of videos concerning my disorder and how to deal with common issues regarding it (like the fact that I have a lot of trouble holding eye contact, reading people, reading certain 'shades' of emotion etc.)

Recently I've gotten slightly better at this, though keyword being 'slightly'.

And as a closing statement, of course, I'm not trying to compare my disorder to depression in any way.

[Steo]

I'm going to just make a sig real quick now that has green Globox with a crown, since I mentioned it recently. It's going to be a bit random, but I think it will do the job.

UPDATE: Here it is, I did say it was going to be random.

[The Jonster]

I remember when R4Y really enjoyed contests like these when I first joined RPC. And it’s not like he hasn’t won any contests either, he still has 3 under his belt, so that should count for something. But if it’s depression bringing him down, maybe seeking therapy would be for the best. Perhaps it will help him cope with it.

[PluMGMK]

My parents always think that I am a master at it and when I don't do well, they are like "What's going on?" and sometimes I can't answer that.

Oh man…

I feel like I should consult a therapist just to give myself answers. But of course, that will not be an option, my parents hate to believe that I suffer from depression and other mind related problems, eventually they saw it or heard about it then they treat it as a joke and think I am just being a baby.

Oh man…

I get it. I think. From what I can tell, you've felt this way for several months now, and it's not really improving. I don't know how many times you've raised the issue with your family, but maybe you should try again to get them to take it a bit more seriously. I know that's probably a lot easier said than done, but still, it sounds from what you're saying that that's the direction you want/need to go in…

Also I like most of your sigs (except the ones attacking Tily ). I don't normally vote since I run the contest, but there were some of yours that I'd have liked to see get more votes…

On a lighter note, I've added Steo's entry to the first post. Anyone else want to give me a date for an entry before I move to the voting phase?

[R4Y_ANC3L]

I don't know how many times you've raised the issue with your family, but maybe you should try again to get them to take it a bit more seriously.

When I was younger they (especially my father) kept thinking that I am just using depression (and suicide) as an excuse to not do what they want me to do. My parents used to think that I like doing what I like doing and just being defiant when in fact I am not. (I know when I am, but I tell the truth whenever possible and even that doesn't work. Check out all my past posts in the Daily Doldrums thread.) I can remember when I was in a certain level in my original school, this happened many times. My little sister doesn't even care. She just calls me "being dramatic". And I had different kinds of issues in the past with my parents as well and of course I went along with it because I was a little bitch boy who could not stick up for myself and tell people "No, that is not so. It is x/y".

My father shouted the "F" word to my face when he was angry at me during July and I have done nothing like that to him EVER. Things like that. I do something and there is a problem and I will just be remembered as a dick head who just doesn't want to follow the rules in the house and do whatever the fuck I want to do.

Also I like most of your sigs...

I am glad that you like them. It just bothers me that I work hard and put a lot of thought before and during making them just for them to receive NO votes at all. That has happened to me in past SOTMs. There was even one SOTM that four people entered and I was one of them. Every entry EXCEPT mine was voted. Mine had NO votes at all. I have been entering for fun but it is just very disheartening that I produce something for a contest that cannot even get people's attention especially since I can relate to something similar happening in real life when I was in my original school. I even had this thing happened to me at school in the past when projects that are not thought of for a good amount of time, rushed or simply had less time in making get appreciated more than the one I spent a lot of time and put a lot of thought in making. I am currently heading onto the next stage in my life in terms of my education and I know I will be involved in competitive businesses that deal with visual, digital media since art is what I am "supposed" to be good at or graphic design or anything like that along those lines. If can't even make anything that can get anyone's attention then what is the point? I get the contest is about people's tastes on the signatures entered but that aspect is going to come later on and it is going to haunt me.


Just.. I can't deal with SOTM or even Manipulate that Image anymore.

[The Jonster]

Like I said before you don’t have to enter these contests if you don’t find enjoyment out of them anymore. But I think you should have more confidence in yourself bc it seems like you lack confidence along with the depression. But that’s just how I view it from my perspective.

Honestly though you haven’t given me a signature that I didn’t like. This one I’m using now is still one of my favourites (along with the blue splinter cell themed one Steo gave me that I need to find again)

[Steo]

I never thought they were bad myself, sometimes all of the sigs are good and it's a really tough choice as to which ones to vote for.

[R4Y_ANC3L]

Like I said before you don’t have to enter these contests if you don’t find enjoyment out of them anymore. But I think you should have more confidence in yourself bc it seems like you lack confidence along with the depression. But that’s just how I view it from my perspective.

No, you are right. You are so right.

As I said before, I haven't been confident about what I do, even in things that I think I am good at. It is not easy for me to think the opposite especially since I have people telling me that what I have been doing is not good enough. Imagine being told that for years on end even if what you were doing is not good enough you realize it and, you make a compromise that you will make effort to do good and better work, you still get told that it is not enough. That is what I have been facing when I was at my new school as well, in case you didn't know. I have been learning to look past it but you know, it keeps coming back, you have people bringing it up to your face again and again and again and again. It just never goes away. I always had someone telling me that what I do is not good enough even when I make a compromise to making a better effort. I even had that happen for a subject that I made a massive project for. All those days and nights, and the document I written for it. For me to be told, it is insufficient work. I didn't work hard enough. I loved it.


I should stop before I flood this SOTM thread with a lot of worthless and useless whining and moaning..

[The Jonster]

I understand the lack of confidence, since I don't see myself as very good in programming in particular. That's why I've started teaching myself using online classes again to gain more knowledge and confidence like i did when I went for training in Dallas last year.

But yeah, let's talk more about this in Daily Doldrums if you're up for it.

[Steo]

I always just said I'm great at things, even if I wasn't. The majority of times it was enough that I really did become great at things.

[The Jonster]

Maybe I shuold just start thinking that way when I'm practicing coding, and then I'll be really great at it then!

[Steo]

Yeah just say you're great at programming and keep practicing, then it will likely happen one day.

[The Jonster]

Then I will keep telling myself that while I'm practicing.

[Elite Piranha]

Green lipped Tily or Green Globox? I don't how I'm going to figure out which one I should vote for .

[The Jonster]

Is it coincidence that both signatures feature a green change? I think not. Green has always been a creative colour.