The You Game!

[Master]

< has not heard of this news, < will look into it now, as < follows Totalbiscuit also.
Ah, does ^ refer to the more serious repeat of the Garry's Incident issue?

[OCG]

< has absolutely no idea what happened.

[Reese Riverson]

< is saddened that a game < had ordered may have gotten lost in the mail.

[OCG]

< is saddened that a game < had ordered may have gotten lost in the mail.

< is afraid for one of <'s packages too

[Hunchman801]

< noticed that ^ forgot to add "<" sign in previos post.

No need to do it if the post doesn’t have anything to do with <.

Yes you do, it's the You game so either refer to yourself or post somewhere else.
< has spoken.

[Fifo]

< noticed that ^ forgot to add "<" sign in previos post.

No need to do it if the post doesn’t have anything to do with <.

Yes you do, it's the You game so either refer to yourself or post somewhere else.
< has spoken.

But < wanted to have some fun.

[OCG]

< understands that ^ wanted to have fun but ^ should respect the rules of topic.

[Dark Lum Lord]

Yeah, < knows what to do. <'s gonna fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck ^. Fuck ^.

[Hunchman801]

< just bought Revolution today for a ridiculous price.
< doesn't have a PS2 though.
< may buy one at some point, but < has many games to finish first.

[OCG]

< is feeling too tired and < will probably fall asleep really soon.

[sonicbrawler182]

< has pretty much been doing nothing but playing Lightning Returns and doing college assignments.
< just wants to do the former, and then throw Professor Layton and the Azran Legacies into the mix. < still needs to finish that game. < also wants to get back to a few other games from the backlog. College has been making it impossible to play anything but accessible platformers with little plot, and Smash Bros.

[Fifo]

< just bought Revolution today for a ridiculous price.
< doesn't have a PS2 though.
< may buy one at some point, but < has many games to finish first.

^ has bought Rayman Revolution? Cool.
< does have a PS2. If ^ wants to buy a PS2, < recommends buying the SCPH-9000x slim model, as that’s what < has.
Warning: Rayman Revolution has long loading times!

[OCG]

Heh, funny how ^ mentioned SCPH-9000x model since < is selling that model. SCPH-90004 to be exect.

[Fifo]

Heh, funny how ^ mentioned SCPH-9000x model since < is selling that model. SCPH-90004 to be exact.

< has the SCPH-90004 too.

[Adsolution]

< has not heard of this news, < will look into it now, as < follows Totalbiscuit also.
Ah, does ^ refer to the more serious repeat of the Garry's Incident issue?

< has absolutely no idea what happened.

< thinks that sonicbrawler is referring to this: http://www.reddit.com/r/Cynicalbrit/com ... subreddit/

< will post it in quote-form here, as < thinks it's an important read:

[quote="CynicalUS (OP)"][quote="TotalBuscuit"]Someone who blindly agrees with me is a silly fanboy.
Someone who insightfully disagrees with me is an uninformed idiot.
I'm disappointed with this community. /quit[/quote]

This community should be disappointed with him.
I am well versed with his character and general attitude, yet both his exaggerated replies and ultimate reaction to perfectly valid discussion points show immaturity more than just stubborness. It reeks of a desperate youtuber not being able to handle the spotlight, or a child singing "lalala" when faced with arguments, whichever analogy - it's void of any sort of professionalism.
And a certain level of professionalism is what I had come to expect from this brand.
While the measly dozen dollars he loses from this viewer are absolutely irrelevant, I had to create an account to voice my discontent - only by doing so do things ever change for the better, however unlikely that may be.

Edit: Leaving the original post intact.
A note here since I'm getting threats from the point TB posted and apparently some people hate me on a deep personal level (only after TB posted, however, before that it was commended and hot, so being: All that he just said, we didn't know, and it's exactly what we, excuse me, I, wanted to know after those events).
For the record, I do care about the person behind the content and plenty more people than they care to admit right now also do, it's a phenomenon social sciences might explain better, but any business' or celebrities reputation and work can and does get hammered over bad public relations, which tends to be why they hire people for it, this is an odd middle-ground riddled with well-known issues.
Carry on.[/quote]
[quote="TotalBiscuit"]Right. See this is what happens when I try and quietly remove myself from the situation, people just make it worse and worse and worse. There's no winning. So apparently I should have made a final post saying why I don't want to engage on this subreddit anymore, so here we go.

People like you are the reason I dread talking to my audience on a daily basis. A long time ago I used to love waking up, logging in and seeing what the viewers was saying, replying to their comments, doing the whole interaction thing. It was great. But that was a long time ago. Now everytime I post a Hearthstone video I have get anxiety over the amount of horrible comments it will get. It keeps me awake at night. I barely play the game now because of it. I used to play it for hours a day, now I only play it for videos, maybe an hour or two a week at most. I guess I've associated what was once a fun activity with constant complaining. Everytime I make a mistake I don't beat myself up about it because I made a mistake, I do it because I just gave people another avenue to complain and say things like "It was painful to watch" or "it was cringeworthy". I've heard so much of it I'm rolling in self-doubt and the only reason I keep that series up is because it pays well now. It used to be through passion for the game but the audience killed that.

But it's not just that. It's when the audience stomps on my principles. I think that's what hurts the most. I made a career out of trying to protect my audience from bad purchases. It's hardly saintly, its still just videogames on the internet, but whats a little light entertainment/info for you is MY LIFE. That's what I get up for every day now, that's what I live for. I work that job 6-7 days a week and I do it because I believe what I'm doing is helping, that it's making gaming better even if it's just a little. Ignoring your blatant misrepresentation for a second, when you say something like "It's not the devs fault there's bugs", or you go after me because I don't support early access and I want to be consumer-first, dev second, that isn't just a debate point, you're attacking the principles that are at the core of my day to day life. This sounds really dramatic but this is my life, this is ALL I DO. I only exist to do this right now.

I've read so many people with their "advice", oh... you should get a thicker skin! You should just ignore it! Those people have no idea of the volume of it all, or how constant it is, it never stops, it's day in day out 24/7, no end in sight noise. So many people talking at once... It's death by a thousand cuts. That thick skin isn't invincible, occassionally it buckles and when it does I tend to react badly. I'm not sure you actually understand just how fucked up I am. My hair is going grey, not to mention it's falling out. Yeah, my hair is grey at 29. Great right? I'm pretty sure I have chronic health problems that have been made far worse by stress. I'm even worried one of them might be life-threatening and I'm getting really paranoid about it. I fucking eat because I'm sad or angry or whatever, I have days where what should be a dream job is something I don't even want to think about doing. I'm seriously fucked in the head and I have been for a very long time. I CANNOT stop reading feedback. I can't just leave comments. I gave my Twitter to my staff months ago to try and stop me from reading it, which actually worked surprisingly. Turning off Youtube comments was great and for a while the subreddit was small enough and friendly enough that I could actually handle dealing with it. Now I dread reading it every morning and I CAN'T STOP MYSELF. God how many times have I tried to "get better?" over the last few years? Every time it's fucking failed, every time and I hate myself for it.

But do you know how much it hurts to read stuff like this? That I think my audience is irrelevant? I live for my audience. I put myself on the line for my audience. Right now my livelihood is under threat because I said what needed to be said to make sure my audience stayed informed. I give everything I've got on a daily basis to try and make my audience happy. So imagine how I feel when they lash out at me. Yeah, you're right, I should handle it better, but I can't. I mentally cannot, I'm a mentally broken person who likely can never be fixed. I hate myself everytime for that, way more than you could ever hate me for the things I say here. I kinda hoped that some people would realize when I did that piece on the Flappy Bird dev that there was more than a bit of my own personal issues in there. When I asked people to understand what it's like to get a bunch of attention you're not equipped to deal with that maybe a few people would realise but that's my fault, I should have just come right out and said it. I'm in a bad place physically, emotionally and mentally. I am not equipped to deal with my audience right now and frankly I should have deleted my account weeks ago so I can try to recover and not have individual viewers bear the brunt of that process.

You are not blameless but you are not the root of the problem either. Understand what it is you do to the people you apparently like. Everyone you like feels this way to a greater or lesser degree. Some people handle it better than others. I handle it terribly. I probably always will, so it's best I do what others in my position do and put a wall between the audience and myself to prevent further damage being done to both.

I've always been a believer that professionalism and worth speaks through your actions not your words. So I'm going to take away my words for a while so there's nothing else to drown out my actions.

Sorry if you expect a better person behind your daily videos. What you've got is a fucked up, sad, balding, overweight guy who is good at one thing and is lucky enough to do it for a living. I guess things were better when it was possible to maintain the illusion, but these days people demand unprecedented levels of access to the people they watch and this is what it gets them. Sorry you don't like what you see behind the curtain[/quote]

< knows that he definitely has the ability to recover. After all, being in a wreck at a young age is better than being in one at an older age (at least, once you're able to look at the bright side, which unfortunately is more difficult when you're younger), as it provides all the more time to recover, and it shows how much life there is ahead to be lived still. You'll have learned from these issues far before most people, and then use it to become wiser than ever. < believes that TotalBiscuit just had a breakdown, and that he's likely had other days where he sees the light at the end of the tunnel, a solution if you will. He's experiencing something entirely unavoidable that many independent professionals of this kind have to go through; while he has every right to be displeased with these negative people, in the end, it is up to him to make of that what he will. He has his dream job, and there's nothing he, nor anyone needs to do differently in order for him to view it like that once more.

Watching his videos won't be the same knowing how broken the man behind them is.

< feels differently, as even though his current mindset may not relish the outcome of every video he uploads, there's still an unwavered, profound sense of passion behind every word he says in his videos, no less than the TotalBiscuit we've always known and loved. That's what matters to <, and < thinks that that's what should matter the most to everyone.

[Master]

Wow, thanks for letting < know, Ad. < doesn't pay attention to the subreddits.
< is indeed saddened to hear of this plight, the other issue probably isn't helping either.

[sonicbrawler182]

< doesn't mean that TB's videos will be less meaningful or "worse" to watch, it's just that < is one to always remember when a person is going through something bad, even if they are being strong about it, and there will always be condolences held in <'s mind as < watches his videos. It's much more apparent with people < is close to, or used to be close to, where < will pick up on every little effect a person's plight has on them.

< thinks his videos will be the same as always, but knowing some of the more personal thoughts of any prolific person < likes will always give < a new perspective. That person just becomes less of a mystery.

It's sweetly ironic - in announcing that he will be shutting himself away from the community, he has also given us a lot of deeply personal information to ponder over, opening up to us one last time before he stops interacting with his audience.

[Adsolution]

It's sweetly ironic - in announcing that he will be shutting himself away from the community, he has also given us a lot of deeply personal information to ponder over, opening up to us one last time before he stops interacting with his audience.

It could be intentional and therefore non-ironic; he can say whatever he wants then and not care about the negative feedback (even though obviously only from the vast minority) he will receive, so he could have used this exact message as an opportunity to leave, or vice-versa.

< doesn't feel that shutting out an entire community is the answer though, < believes the answer will always simply be to not allow it to get to you, by taking a different standpoint. It's one of the reasons < didn't post tthrowawayme's quote here as well, despite wanting to initially. It is a comforting post, though after thinking it over some more, < didn't find that particular point of their post to be agreeable. Then again, perhaps < is simply speaking through a lack of experience and <'s ethics aren't as religiously viable as < believes them to be. But then again, < isn't going to side any differently on that unless < were to be made aware of some revolutionary reasoning.

[OCG]

< found this in <'s mail today

< will upload unboxing video.

[Fifo]

Cool. <’d like to have the original discs for Rayman 1 and 2 for PS1.