Pluses (+) and minuses (−) of this day

[incognito]

- Im a poor and lonesome boy and im far away from home...

[Master]

+ Got through today
- Tomorrow is going to be a little hefty still

[Shrooblord]

+ I've been nominated for an Honours program! Exciting stuff!

[Dark Lum Lord]

- Ah socializing, something so easy for others and so painfully difficult for me, to the point that I'm in near tears right now. I constantly imagine how much more fulfilling my life would be if I had social skills and could normally socialize and create and maintain friendships with others like a normal human being.

[Snagglebee]

- Ah socializing, something so easy for others and so painfully difficult for me, to the point that I'm in near tears right now. I constantly imagine how much more fulfilling my life would be if I had social skills and could normally socialize and create and maintain friendships with others like a normal human being.

I know that feel bro. I had these minds some days ago too and they were upsetting me.

[OCG]

It will be better guys, don't worry.

[Dark Lum Lord]

It will be better guys, don't worry.

Oh? And how, it's been this way for two years.

[technology4617]

- I'm not getting a response from my friend, so I have a feeling that I will not be doing the Mr. Nutz LP with him.
+ I'm doing it with Omar now.

[Zikken]

It will be better guys, don't worry.

Oh? And how, it's been this way for two years.

By doing efforts.

[OCG]

@DLL
Zepto gave you good answer. Important thing is making effort and believing you can change on better. If you do truly want it and put tons of effort into improving yourself, it will get better.


@Alex
Great. I just hope livestream wont be too late so I can watch it.
I always liked watching livestreams but never was myself in any of them. Maybe I should livestream once.

[Dark Lum Lord]

It will be better guys, don't worry.

Oh? And how, it's been this way for two years.

By doing efforts.

Funny how everyone automatically assumes I'm not putting in effort, even though I have been this entire school year so far and the situation has only improved slightly. Ignore the injection of snide in that one, it's just that I've been trying my hardest to socialize with other people and improve most aspects of my life in general and it's all been failing mostly. Earlier this week and the couple of weeks before I've also tried to keep myself happy and positive which worked wonderfully, but it's all crashed recently after I realized nothing's gone anywhere. I'm still that person in the background that no one cares about and despite my efforts it seems like I've only driven people further away from me with exceptions.

- Homework
- Can't concentrate worth a damn.

[Adsolution]

Well, doing something and feeling comfortable doing something are two different things. Socialising is a very, very simple thing to do, but if it's not something you feel comfortable doing in the first place, then there's a good chance that you'll feel as if you're betraying yourself - or trying to be someone you're not - when you attempt it. Honestly, I believe the best solution in this kind of a situation is to only do it bit by bit so that you can slowly let it into your comfort zone. Focusing all your efforts at once into becoming a socialite will not make you any happier. Ease into it as you mature and let your actions work alongside those of your growing mind, and ultimately, be content with this factual progression.

For instance, I was forced into being a social child for a long time, despite my clearly introverted nature, and while I got good at it as a result, I felt terrible, and by the time middle school rolled around, it backfired hugely and caused me to utterly despise socialising and to never want to ever speak to anyone in real life ever again. As some years went by however, I rediscovered its perks, and my past experience allows me socialise if my heart so desires, but ultimately, I don't force myself to, as I'm really not that kind of person.


+ I finally got my Bamboo tablet to work in Windows 8; it involves having to uninstall the prompt Windows 8 has in which it attempts to recognise it as a mouse when you plug it in.

+ I'm putting a lot of effort into this one digital artwork - the first one I've attempted in almost a year - to make sure it comes out exactly how I envision it. I've spent an hour or two just working on the lineart for a face.

[Dark Lum Lord]

+ Thank you kindly for the advice. Also want to add that I myself an introvert too, sadly stuck in a family of extroverts who don't seem to understand me whatsoever, as though I'm some sort of alien species. They've always complaind that I'm too quiet, or that I'm anti-social, or so on, but I'm just a person who's easily drained by social situations and would enjoy a nice time alone in his room after a long day, there's nothign wrong with that. I also agree that taking things slowly is the best way for this situation, wish I thought of that earlier.
- Sadly, the shower I took did not wake me up like I thought it would, and like it usually does.
+ But I don't feel as tense, however.
- Honestly though, the weight of my lower eyelids is unimaginable.

[Keane]

I can imagine myself being more social if I were to meet people that I'd want to be social with. Talking to someone you don't really care for or are forced to talk to doesn't make things better. I think I'd be amazing to mention some of the stuff I talk about here or another site in real life but It's not like I'm gonna bring it up to my parents.

- Today is kinda boring. :/

+ Join Me is pretty filled

[Dark Lum Lord]

- No one seems to ever bring my to Join.me anymore. I feel unwanted.
+ Feeling less tired.

[THEdragon]

+ Delivered a birthday present to a friend's house today C:

[Keane]

- No one seems to ever bring my to Join.me anymore. I feel unwanted.

Sweet dear, log into dA more often. I can PM you a link if you want though it's just chat and it cooled down a little. Waiting for my Zeppy to return from whatever she's up to /o/

[Dark Lum Lord]

- No one seems to ever bring my to Join.me anymore. I feel unwanted.

Sweet dear, log into dA more often. I can PM you a link if you want though it's just chat and it cooled down a little. Waiting for my Zeppy to return from whatever she's up to /o/

Well, that could work. However, I can't find any links that aren't to closed orgies, so please do kindly link me.

[Adsolution]

- I still can't fucking log in to DeviantART.

[Keane]

Send, though at this point it's just all of us complaining about having nothing to do and me trying to let it sink in that zeppy's probably gone to bed. ;-;