Pluses (+) and minuses (−) of this day

[Hoozang]

Reminds me of my old skin, that I made with Skincraft.

- Every time I try to do a skin, or my sister changes it, or I give up in the making.

[saerleiya]

- Damn Shroob', I hope I didn't bother you too much on Skype: I wasn't looking at RPC while you got all this stuff going on and were talking about it.
- I have been a bit less on RPC this week, even with Internet being back. Maybe I don't feel that much in the mood of going there these days. Bah, it's just because I'm ont posting like a freak for once.
+ DId my laundry and some grocery shopping today. I actually went far away from my studio, and walked all the way back, but it was okay, because I'm living in a town where there is a nice park with a nice pool of water and a very nice castle. Adding the twilight effect with all the colours and the blur on the clouds,....mmm, so beautiful!
+ Managed to take a picture of all this mess with my phone before it ran out of battery (fuck). I will send it to my GF so she can see how my surroundings look like and make her want to go there. She likes history, after all :3.
+/- Doing my placement matches in the ranked system of League of Legends for the Season 5 which just started. I seem to paly awfully and lose all games while playing with friends, but when I'm playing with complete strangers in pick-up games, I almost always manage to win, even from far behind (went 0-2 with a friend, then played in Solo Queue, and went 5-1, with some very nice steals, comebacks, and stomps. Wut?).
+ Cho'Gath deals damage. Went into a teamfight and got a triple kill just like that. ZOMFG...
+ Feeling tired, but great.
+ I will see a good friend of mine tomorrow. I could have gone to Paris tonight too, but I got lazy ...

[Jewish Candy]

--- Dissociation.
+ Managed to process it into writing. At least now I have an English-language reference for the experience, if and when I need one.

[Zikken]

+ Guild Wars 2 Heart of Thorns.
- I stayed up all night just to watch the thing on twitch because I never wake up in the morning.
+ It was worth it.

[Shrooblord]

+/- Doing my placement matches in the ranked system of League of Legends for the Season 5 which just started. I seem to paly awfully and lose all games while playing with friends, but when I'm playing with complete strangers in pick-up games, I almost always manage to win, even from far behind (went 0-2 with a friend, then played in Solo Queue, and went 5-1, with some very nice steals, comebacks, and stomps. Wut?).
+ Cho'Gath deals damage. Went into a teamfight and got a triple kill just like that. ZOMFG...

These are my exact experiences in League too. If I'm gonna place in ranks again, it'll always be solo and mostly top lane (sometimes Cho depending) - I feel I have the most impact there.

--- Dissociation.

Hey you'll never not belong here, dear. You're part of our wacky crew and we'll stick with ya through thick and thin!

- Missed a concert yesterday that I bought tickets for half a year in advance. Well, there goes 30 or so euros down the drain.
+ The reason was that I didn't feel well at all and I felt a lot better being among friends should anything strange happen than among complete strangers in the middle of the dance floor of a strange town.
+ I feel better now.

This sickness is bothering me. I can't tell when it's ended and it keeps coming back giving me all kinds of different aches and pains all over the place. First my lungs, then my throat, then my head, then my stomach? Where will it go next...?

[Jewish Candy]

Hmm. I'm in two minds as to whether to post this, but since this is basically a collective diary I might? Well, if you read this it'll be obvious what decision I made

--- What happened yesterday was not, as I had interpreted it, dissociation. The most apt description would be a violent loss of identity.

I'm not sure what brought it on. I was on a 2000's music binge when this terror suddenly gripped me and spiralled into something impossible to describe*. I didn't lose my memory - perhaps think of it instead as my memory losing me. I can't and won't go into more detail here; needless to say it was utterly horrifying. 'Livetweeting' the experience yesterday helped reconstruct my sense of self, so it only lasted in its fullest sense for, eh, 10 seconds? But full recovery took much longer.

+ I now know what to look out for should it show signs of happening again, but in all honesty I don't think it will. I think it was cognitive, and that it was the culmination of something brewing for years.

So the moral of the story is, drink plenty of water because it can't hurt to stay hydrated.

Shrew, your magic migrating illness is quite worrying to read about. Have you seen a doctor?

*Yes, I do see the potential for a humourous quip here, durr hurr noughties music so bad it causes existential crises durr hurr. Please don't take it.

[Shrooblord]

Shrew, your magic migrating illness is quite worrying to read about. Have you seen a doctor?

I will visit one tomorrow after some friends warning me it showed possible signs of appendicitis (!) - but my dad seems to think it's one of these seasonal things where there's tons of viruses flying around and my immune system is basically picking up a new one just as it's on recovery from the previous. I tend to think the latter is true, but I will definitely not risk neglecting the first.

Do you want to talk about what happened to you (privately maybe)? It sounds dreadful and if I were you, I'd love to get it off my chest.

[Reese Riverson]

Well, if you ever need to talk to any of us to get things off your shoulders, don't hesitate. Friends will always be there for you.

[Fifo]

——— School. The worst place ever!

[Pirez]

++ School is over forever, yay!!!!

--- Unemployment is worse.

++++ Begins his new job (more like a civic service) on february 2nd

[Matyuv]

+ I now know what to look out for should it show signs of happening again, but in all honesty I don't think it will. I think it was cognitive, and that it was the culmination of something brewing for years.

Hopefully you're right, but if that does happen again, I'd suggest looking up meditation practices; breathing is an extremely powerful tool to get your mind back to the present moment and not get caught in spirals or vicious circles of negativity. For me personally, meditation has been very helpful to fight anxiety, stress and panic attacks, and even relieve some of my chronic pains.

[Jewish Candy]

+ Thanks for the offers of support, guys, really appreciate it.
++ There are these sweet fluffy Great Tits perching and hopping along the branches of the tree near my window. Tiny baby dinosaurs, such perfect little perfections. So cute yet so majestic.

[Shrooblord]

I love looking at birds and imagining them roaming around about ten times their present day size.

- Got my last exam tomorrow and I'm not feeling very positive about it.
+ We can bring a cheat-sheet. That should help somewhat.

[saerleiya]

+ Publishing a video I made almost one month ago during Christmas. It's done XD...

I will visit one tomorrow after some friends warning me it showed possible signs of appendicitis (!) - but my dad seems to think it's one of these seasonal things where there's tons of viruses flying around and my immune system is basically picking up a new one just as it's on recovery from the previous. I tend to think the latter is true, but I will definitely not risk neglecting the first.

It depends if it's weighing heavy only on your stomach or if it's going somewhere else after that. If you have a doubt anyway, go see a doctor, it's always better (and don't feel guilty about doing so: you have been sill for a long time already).

Well, if you ever need to talk to any of us to get things off your shoulders, don't hesitate. Friends will always be there for you.

I'm also here to help if needed. Do not forget there is a special thread for that .

++ School is over forever, yay!!!!

--- Unemployment is worse.

++++ Begins his new job (more like a civic service) on february 2nd

Same here! (But no civil service). Although I've been working for three weeks already .

[Fifo]

- Lost my EarPods

[Hoozang]

+ Made my Minecraft Skin!
- Had some trouble with it.

[Sny]

++++++ Just saw a teaser of Five nights at Freddy's 3 OMGOMGOMGOMGOMG *0*
- I don't find it creepy at all

[Hoozang]

God, that game's the same game, it's worse than COD, but if you like it, it's not a big deal, you can like what you want.

[Sny]

Yeah, I admit that the game is really REALLY overrated^^"

[Shrooblord]

Some awesome theories get spun off of it though.

+ I haven't had any cramps or whatevers since last Saturday. Don't think it was apendicitis after all. It was scary how incapacitating it got at one point though so I'm def gonna visit my physician tomorrow just to be on the safe side.