Something Bothering you?/Daily Doldrums

[incognito]

He also got a DRM free version as a gift, and this one didn't even worked !

[Pirez]

It's true. The DRM-free won't save and has no sound.

Talk about an embarrassement, but the game is so fucked up, it's actually kinda entertaining. All of of those who say that the game is "basically alright" can feel free to suck Zero's Z-Saber, if y'know wotay mean.

[incognito]

You're talking about the saber as a phallic metaphor, but I can't actually guess since you're talking about a game that is out of my knowledge.

[Keane]

I've myself discovered that my personality is not the same when I talk English or French (“Language defines how you think!? No shit, Orwell!”).

That's interesting actually, I've always felt like I'm more expressive in my eurotrash Dutch language than when I'm trying repeat myself thrice before people can make out my accent.

Like Itooh said, environment can have an unbelievable influence on you, assuming you're independent to some degree. If you live with your parents, you're capable of moving from one side of the world to another and hardly noticing a difference if all you do is stay indoors, aside from maybe having to re-learn how to flush the toilet. Social inhibitions are largely built by association, so going somewhere with fresh people, fresh scenery and a fresh working environment is, realistically, a very good thing to try. Like you said, travelling is a large endeavor, but the lifestyle you've been confined to clearly isn't making you any happier. Sooner than later, it's time to try something, something way less trivial than lying in bed and overthinking the last conversation you had with some guy.

Those are all very good points and a perspective I needed to hear from, thanks dude.

A killer mistake is pretending to know how you'll think or feel in a situation you've never been in. You can make basic assumptions regarding your actions and outward expression based off of how good you are at controlling yourself, but you can't tell what will actually be going through your mind, and how you'll actually feel.

I think it's just a fear based on how I tend to handle things, like I said I'm pretty fucking retarded in conversation and create kind of a barrier around myself when I'm around other people. And it's not even like an intentional thing, I'm all for being the same edgy ironic memester I act like online, but I just can't find the right words and pick up the right cues to make conversation flow. It's like I could only do it if I was allowed 20 seconds to think my response through, but instead I manage to be so painfully slow to utter anything out at all that people understandably distance themselves from me.

But anyway, I hope you're right and I hope whatever the fuck I'm doing in a year from now it's something completely different and I can get the actual experience instead of speculating. I'm too often going from depressive period to depressive period, and it's like I don't have the kick anymore to want to bother reshaping what things are in this current status quo.

As a side-note, I would totally drive down there to visit you (I love going on long road trips, and why not), if I were allowed to go on long road trips by myself.

Hey that'd be pretty rad, don't you live in like Vancouver or something though?

Stupid, right? I'm sure I could talk my mother into it if I hammered the point home that driving is piss-easy (she doesn't drive, she's afraid) and she'd stop sending me pictures of newspaper articles talking about how stupid and irrational young drivers are, as if I'm stupid and irrational or something, and as if me saying that I'm not automatically means that I am.

Kek, why's she got so little faith in you over newspaper articles? Can't she just judge you based off actually knowing you instead of stereotyping a family member as being a dumb teen?

[Adsolution]

I think it's just a fear based on how I tend to handle things, like I said I'm pretty fucking retarded in conversation and create kind of a barrier around myself when I'm around other people. And it's not even like an intentional thing, I'm all for being the same edgy ironic memester I act like online, but I just can't find the right words and pick up the right cues to make conversation flow. It's like I could only do it if I was allowed 20 seconds to think my response through, but instead I manage to be so painfully slow to utter anything out at all that people understandably distance themselves from me.

Have you ever Skyped with someone you're comfortable talking (through text) to online?

Hey that'd be pretty rad, don't you live in like Vancouver or something though?

Yeah, hence "long [road trip]". As long as I have somewhere to stay once I'm there, I don't care how far away the destination is. I love driving.

Kek, why's she got so little faith in you over newspaper articles? Can't she just judge you based off actually knowing you instead of stereotyping a family member as being a dumb teen?

I don't think she knows me very well.

[Snagglebee]

ever since i graduated from, my life entered into a deadly spiral into depression and loneliness.

first, with high hopes, and with a big smile i started flight school. a month later my dad decided to show up here, and shattered my dream of becoming an airliner pilot plus he deceived me and the rest of this family, and disappeared with his new wife and family.

With nearly no perspective to future, I tried to follow my friends footsteps and applicated to an university to study physics. Luckily though, I got accepted.

However I own a car (originally needed one for flight school), and it still has to be paid (fuel, maintenance, tax, etc), with my dad gone with that money I needed, there was no way to keep this car, but I didn't want to give up on that last thing what kept me happy too, so I took a job.

As if that wasn't enough, at some point my bad past with girls also reached back onto me. I'm just very bad with topics like love and relationships. I simply can't express my feeling and I don't have the courage to try to get closer to a girl. Actually, I always bear that idea that I'm just an annoyance to them and that I'm far out of their league plus I am seriously afraid of denial so I don't even try to bother myself.

Even worse, in past I seem to have had a habit of upsetting and in some cases breaking the feelings of girls. I never even inteded to, but it still kept happening from just simply pulling back or letting my emotions take over controll when I'm felt angry or upset for example. Having that being reminded and burned into my mind, just made it all worse to the aboven given points.

And the friend I have, whom I used to feel this connection that he is the same hopeless failure like myself is also starting to fade away. While I spend my boring days at home alone and for a few hours at my job's place, he can go out all the time and constantly meet people and make friends. Meanwhile I get to realise I barely have any good friends.

I'm a 19 year old boy, with nearly no friends, spend most of the time home alone, and just try to do the best out of what I have. I more and more get this depression and loneliness feeling and my social anxiety is starting to rise and shine again. I feel crap.

I just hope it'll get all better again once I start the semester this october...

[incognito]

Well, we're pretty much the same kind of guy I think, but the social problems doesn't really bother me, as I'm very introvert and antisocial, however, I can open a conversation and easy establish social connection whenever I want to.
I never really bothered to have someone to talk to (the voices in my head do the job well), but I can actually understand how you're feeling.
As for your problem with the opposite gender, I can't really help as I don't know what kind of relationship you're looking for, but from what you said earlier, you missed really evident situations without being even aware of it, so I think your problem is that you're not doing the right talking.

[Bzzit]

I'm a 19 year old boy, with nearly no friends, spend most of the time home alone, and just try to do the best out of what I have. I more and more get this depression and loneliness feeling and my social anxiety is starting to rise and shine again. I feel crap.

I just hope it'll get all better again once I start the semester this october...

University does help a lot with amending these issues from my experience. It opens up a lot of social opportunities and even if you aren't comfortable with going on nights out with a large group of people, it's quite easy to meet a couple of good friends on whatever course you're undergoing.

Hope things get better for you

[incognito]

I never saw the community so empty because most of the members left for a Microsoft VoIP client based discussion and thus bothers me.

[DandyGuy]

It's okay inco, I don't have Skype either.

[Dart]

I never saw the community so empty because most of the members left for a Microsoft VoIP client based discussion and thus bothers me.

Honestly Skype's been a bit easier for me to use lately, and I can have fairly fluent conversations with folks now.

[Dart]

Changed for reasons.

[gamerz31w]

imco is there any cosplay of yours you'd like to share with us?

[Prout]

imco is there any cosplay of yours you'd like to share with us?

gamerz31w, you have just been added to the pr0oOuT group watchlist.

Do not spam. The pr0oOuT group is watching you.

[incognito]

I'm back from a trip during which I had the time to think about a lot of things.
I already lived a fricking lot of adventures in my life, after all life where I I do live is already an adventure, but despite all of this... I'm in need of something new, I always have that emptiness inside me, and whatever I do it always ends the same darn way, me, facing it, there is nothing to do with it, the fact is, despite I know I lack something, I am completely unable to say what, and why, to be honest back some years ago I didn't felt that, I was a lot more joyful in everything I was doing, now I always feel the same, empty, to the morning till nightime. I don't know what I need, I recently came to think it was probably because I was lonely and that I needed someone on my side for what I was going through but to be honest... Would that shit really fix something?! No, I'm too much of a special guy for this, and I know that it will always end up with me heartbroken, and that really does not fix anything.
Or perhaps do I just need some time far from everything, just to focus and calm the turmoil inside me, to be honest the last three years were really bitter, and I don't know which one was the worst, as far as I'm aware nothing is gonna get better with time so I'm a little desperate right now.
I do not expect anyone to answer my post os anything, to be honest I just wanted to leave this somewhere so I can read it later.

[Dart]

Y'know Incognito, I think I can relate to this somewhat. The biggest problem I assume is that you're still in school or otherwise under the care of an adult, which means that the amount of vacation you can really get from others right now is very limited. The best thing in the meantime is to find various ways to cope with your situation, maybe try new hobbies or just spend more time outside of your house. Granted if you're anything like me you've totally considered going all Chris Mccandless and ditching society altogether, which is something I don't truly recommend. In the meantime I hope you can feel a bit better man!

[incognito]

Going outside is even worse, I just sit somewhere and watch people walking and driving as I think about Koyaanisqatsi.
For now I try to more follow the code in my life and meditate more, just to make it better, for now it works. I think I'm just condemned to live with that emptiness inside me until someday I'll finally find a way to fix it, as for my hobbies aside from my Mark V suit and making short movies I don't really have anything else.

[gamerz31w]

I could do anything to win EarthGwee's trust,but I'm afraid it's to late.You don't even have Rayman PC Community Discord Server,yet.

[Dart]

[gamerz31w]

I guess maybe this will help?https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZXsQAXx_ao0