Pluses (+) and minuses (−) of this day

[SilverLum]

ooh awesome! Not the bidet thing, but homemade strawberry jam with chia seeds is bound to make up for that, lol! Jam is so scary to make, though. One slip up when you're pouring it into jars and you could end up with some hefty burns!

- A guy that won't leave me alone is coming into my work today to "have a look at the cafe" but I feel like he just wants an excuse to see me. I told him I like someone else but he just won't get the message and it's scary.

+ I'm getting ready for work and honestly can't wait for it, otherwise! I miss my coworkers

[Steo]

- A guy that won't leave me alone is coming into my work today to "have a look at the cafe" but I feel like he just wants an excuse to see me. I told him I like someone else but he just won't get the message and it's scary.

Sounds a bit weird. If you were honest with them about how you're not interested and they still keep bothering you, then they need to learn to accept no for an answer. It sounds like another one of those cases where the person thinks the girl is into them because they're nice to them (they don't think that some people are just nice?). A lot of people do this for some reason, I don't get it.

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+ I feel like I'm getting back into a routine again after the holidays.
+ I recently had a VST instrument added by Native Instruments that was supposed to expire in January 2022, so that was nice of their support to still add it to my account when I asked.

[The Jonster]

ooh awesome! Not the bidet thing, but homemade strawberry jam with chia seeds is bound to make up for that, lol! Jam is so scary to make, though. One slip up when you're pouring it into jars and you could end up with some hefty burns!

Yikes I didn't think about that but yes it could burn me! Thankfully it all got in the jar safely. Mmmmm some nice pb&chia j sandwiches.....

- I sort of got nothing done this week. My routine is so bad.

[Fifo]

– I’m depressed yet again.
– I feel worthless.

[The Jonster]

That, my friend is when you talk to your friends and family about what's wrong. At least I think that anyways.....

+ Went to this Korean BBQ place again yesterday that I didn't have such a good first impression of the first time I went. Things went better this time, and I was so full at the end of lunch. And I'm starting to get used to eating japchae, delicious!
- Bad news, earlier this afternoon I felt really sick with stomach problems and was stuck in the bathroom for a few hours. I don't think it was the BBQ that caused this, but something else that I had eaten in between. I haven't eaten or drank anything else since then, bc I'm not feeling sick right now and don't want to be in the bathroom all night. I hope things will be fine tomorrow???

[Elite Piranha]

...was stuck in the bathroom for a few hours.

Good luck with that pal.



But seriously, I have you get better.

- Still struggling to find a new name for my other social media.

[Fifo]

– struggled with migrating my Mastodon instance to a new VPS
+ I succeeded eventually

[Hunchman801]

– I’m depressed yet again.
– I feel worthless.

- I'm sorry to read this! Hope you're feeling better today.

[Fifo]

+ Yeah I’m feeling better since then.

[Adsolution]

- My boyfriend failed his hoist operator exam for the second time in a row. The questions are stupid and cryptic, he was so confident this time. He has to get 7 out of 10 right, he got 6 both times. We were all ready for him to start work tomorrow, we just bought him all of his gear, and now nothing. We have no money, we're completely broke, we spent an hour yesterday just digging around the place for nickels. All we have is 200 CAD I'll be making from a music commission this week.

+ Our bed and blankets are comfy and I let myself get a really nice sleep

+ I managed to stop drinking for about 3 weeks

- I started again...

+ My first album is coming along really nicely, I've finished 8 out of 11-12 tracks. Once it's done, I'm going to upload a track from it per-week to YouTube.

[Hunchman801]

- My boyfriend failed his hoist operator exam for the second time in a row. The questions are stupid and cryptic, he was so confident this time. He has to get 7 out of 10 right, he got 6 both times. We were all ready for him to start work tomorrow, we just bought him all of his gear, and now nothing. We have no money, we're completely broke, we spent an hour yesterday just digging around the place for nickels. All we have is 200 CAD I'll be making from a music commission this week.

Sorry to hear that! Didn't you have a full-time job last time I heard?

+ I got high last night for the first time in well over a year and a half from one of those electronic cigarettes with THC-like components. It was fun, but I'm glad it's very occasional. I'm not feeling the most energetic today, but who cares, it's rainy outside and I'm happy to chill in the apartment!

[DaveRattlehead]

- Sorry to hear about Ad's situation. Unfortunately I know some close people who were in a very similar situation and some really bad memories came to my mind after reading that. Hopefully she'll get through it.

Vapes with THC components? Never heard of that. If it's very occasional and you got high just for fun it's fine I guess

- I am quite stressed with work. It's consuming a lot of my free time and I feel that the stress is affecting me a lot in my day to day life. I sleep less time (and the 6 hours I usually sleep already seems too little), I have put on a couple of kilos, my heart rate is higher than normal and the situation it's affecting my mood. I know it's a job that requires patience (it's easier for what you test not to work than the reverse situation), but that's not what bothers me, I'm more than used to it. What is really bothering me is the excessive workload. I hope the situation can change soon.
+ I learned how to play bowling decently. I scored +80 points for the very first time in my life! It isn't an incredible result but it's better than my score from 3 years ago (less than 40 ).

[The Jonster]

- I'm sorry to hear this is happening to you Ad, hope things look up for you soon.

- I had a bit of an off day yesterday, and didn't really get much done, aside from routinely weekend cleaning.
+/- Recently been trying to use the frozen berries (which are strawberries and blueberries) in the freezer that I haven't touched in months to make smoothies. The strawberry ones are good and my favorite berry smoothies, while the blueberry doesn't seem to have any flavor for me. Maybe my taste buds are off or something.

[Adsolution]

Sorry to hear that! Didn't you have a full-time job last time I heard?

The one I got back in 2017, yeah. When COVID happened I started having to work from home, I realised my hair was thinning, and I lost all the data on my laptop (all of my own and others' music projects) which resulted in a band I worked with who'd also pay me well disowning me as a producer, which led me to getting extremely depressed, which led to me getting into a very abusive relationship, which led me into an alcohol addiction I'm still dealing with, and I stopped being able to function. Coupled with a really difficult patch of work where I was a bit in over my head, I broke down crying in a meeting and told them I couldn't do it. I was never fired, I just haven't spoken to them in a long time since it took me at least a year to get out of that and pull myself back together. I'm actually looking to see if I can work there again now though, I'm a lot more efficient at the kind of thing I was working on there (VR development for home design showcases) now than I was then. I'm trying to develop a proper prototype right now to show them.

+ I got high last night for the first time in well over a year and a half from one of those electronic cigarettes with THC-like components. It was fun, but I'm glad it's very occasional. I'm not feeling the most energetic today, but who cares, it's rainy outside and I'm happy to chill in the apartment!

Oooh, nice I keep a few edibles around just in case I feel like it, but I rarely ever do. I only really have fun when I get high if it's out somewhere with friends, doing it at home gives me too many anxious thoughts at the moment.

- I'm sorry to hear this is happening to you Ad, hope things look up for you soon.

- Sorry to hear about Ad's situation. Unfortunately I know some close people who were in a very similar situation and some really bad memories came to my mind after reading that. Hopefully she'll get through it.

Thanks. The homelessness situation in this city is getting exponentially worse, and once you wind up there there's basically no way out... unless we were to live with friends, but everyone's already paying 3000 a month for single-room apartments for them and their partners together. I'm sure I'll figure out something though, I always do somehow.

+ I got the commission money. It isn't much and won't last long, but it feels nice. I'm going to try and advertise myself more than I have been to get as much work as possible.

+ The VR prototype is coming along really well actually.

- My computer isn't powerful enough to do raytracing in VR with more than 10-15 FPS, even with the resolution cranked down to half... I thought a 2080 Super would do a little better than that I can't show them the prototype in its full glory unless I upgrade. Or maybe the company will invest in that upgrade if they like it anyway.

[Hunchman801]

Vapes with THC components? Never heard of that. If it's very occasional and you got high just for fun it's fine I guess

It sure beats smoking joints on a daily basis! (I quit many years ago.)

The one I got back in 2017, yeah. When COVID happened I started having to work from home, I realised my hair was thinning, and I lost all the data on my laptop (all of my own and others' music projects) which resulted in a band I worked with who'd also pay me well disowning me as a producer, which led me to getting extremely depressed, which led to me getting into a very abusive relationship, which led me into an alcohol addiction I'm still dealing with, and I stopped being able to function. Coupled with a really difficult patch of work where I was a bit in over my head, I broke down crying in a meeting and told them I couldn't do it. I was never fired, I just haven't spoken to them in a long time since it took me at least a year to get out of that and pull myself back together. I'm actually looking to see if I can work there again now though, I'm a lot more efficient at the kind of thing I was working on there (VR development for home design showcases) now than I was then. I'm trying to develop a proper prototype right now to show them.

I get it now. Well, it's good that you remained on good terms with this former employer. Good luck with the prototype, and hopefully this will help bring things back to normal.

Thanks. The homelessness situation in this city is getting exponentially worse, and once you wind up there there's basically no way out... unless we were to live with friends, but everyone's already paying 3000 a month for single-room apartments for them and their partners together. I'm sure I'll figure out something though, I always do somehow.

Are you still in Vancouver? I had no idea it was that expensive, but hey, just consider yourself happy you don't live in San Francisco.

- The weather is not so great today. I can't remember when I last looked at the sun.
+ As long as it doesn't rain, I may still go for a walk!

[PluMGMK]

Best of luck with the prototype Ad. I'm sure you've totally got this, framerate issues notwithstanding!

[Fifo]

– Not again.

[Giant Chicken]

+ Did a double black diamond while skiing for the first time!
-/+ Fell while doing it, but at least I did it.
- Felt sick for a while after I got back to the house im staying at.

[Greengoop]

- first day back of school

[Fifo]

– Exhausted from troubleshooting my Mastodon installation