Pluses (+) and minuses (−) of this day

[Samathou]

- illness/sickness
- loads of homework
- I feel like shit
- I cry a lot
+ I ate a cookie today (most positive thing I could think off.. Hurray)

Yeah, one of those shittiest days in which you hate everything around you...
Aaw, that might last several days... but I hope you'll feel better.
You have my sympathy.

- Stressed... by the fact that I have until March 20th to choose what I wanna do next year.
I dunno what kind of studies I want to follow, despite all my researches... no interest, no ambition, no projection into the future... I am lost. And this problem is haunting me, obsessing me...

[Shrooblord]

- Stressed... by the fact that I have until March 20th to choose what I wanna do next year.
I dunno what kind of studies I want to follow... no interest, no ambition, no projection into the future... I am lost.

Very tricky. Have you any presentations you could go to, any open days at the schools you could visit? I've been to a lot of those places because of your very difficulty; I like too many things and didn't know what to choose, but it turned out there was something in all those talks that always really stood out and that is Biology. So now I've refined my search to schools that teach Biology, and then preferrably at the cellular level and involving genetics etc. because that is where most of my interest lies.

You can really benefit from talking to students or visiting their schools to taste the atmosphere - and of course, the very best advice is to just follow your heart and do what feels good. What makes you feel happy, fulfilled, interested the most? I certainly don't know what I want to do for a living later on in life, but I know I want to study Biology. Just takin' those steps one at a time - who knows, maybe something comes by in your life later on that takes you in a completely different direction. Maybe you become a writer, a director, a musician, the town mayor! Who knows - but most of all, don't worry too much. March is still a long time away in terms of making a decision. You have lots of time to get out there and find out what you want to do.

And then there's always the option of a gap year, if you can afford it or if you're allowed. I for one wanted to have one of those, but then my country's government decided to change the school financing system, which meant I would be in 30 000 euros debt if I took one. Whereas if I go to uni right away, I'll still be within that group of people that benefit from the old system. Those kind of things might influence your choice also.

Good luck!
And most of all
#Don't worry about a thing,
'Cause every little thing gonna be all right.#

[ikke471]

that might last several days...

heh.. funny I've felt like this for 2 weeks now

[Shrooblord]

that might last several days...

heh.. funny I've felt like this for 2 weeks now

ikke, you're going through a rough patch right now, but remember there's most certainly a lovely conclusion to your current state of mind. Just get that sadness out of your system... in time, it will happen. Hang in there, buddy!

[Samathou]

ikke > days can be weeks or months... years at worst. We all hope you'll recover, even if it may take a lot of time.

Shroolblord > Thank you very much for the advices. The gasp year could be an idea, but we don't have a lot of money for now...
On top of that, I really have no idea of what I want... I haven't stopped wondering, but I don't find out. I hope I'll manage to have a better answer with time.

+ Finished a video dedicated to Rayman.
- School tomorrow, homework.... Oooh no.........

[Matyuv]

I for one wanted to have one of those, but then my country's government decided to change the school financing system, which meant I would be in 30 000 euros debt if I took one.

A 30k debt? How does that work?

[Xenon]

I guess he means debt from the expenditures of living somewhere else without working or studying.

[Keane]

+ Made a joke
- Americans took it too seriously and needed me to go into a deeply detailed explanation of the meaning of the joke and why it wasn't literal
+ Decided I should probably stop bothering because I will leave in May anyway
- Faking that I'm sick. Feeling so fucked lately and need some time alone. I hope that doesn't show around here.

[Shrooblord]

A 30k debt? How does that work?

Basically it implied that people had to pay for their own Uni costs (like costs of lessons, admission fees etc.) and while this is normal in countries like England, something like this is new for the Netherlands.

However, I just read on the government's website that what I thought was the old regulation is now still applicable; if you can't pay off said debt within a set number of years (now 15), it will be remitted. So I guess things are fine again...?
It's very hard to find accurate information on the subject, but there were some changes in the legal policies that meant some of the financing would change for new students, making it harder for them to pay off their school fees.

[Master]

+ FINALLY GLORIOUS SNOW!!!!
- College didn't close...
+ Still, SNOW!
- Had to walk out in the cold, then had to help grit the driveway once I got back.

[GNineify]

+ Currently applying to a vocational school to the media-assistant category. I hope I'll get there next year!
+ I'm Cookie Monster.
+ Stealing cookies.
- Too much junk food.
+ But whatever.

[ikke471]

------------------------------------------------------ do you still know I was depressed? well it got worse.. she lied.. she dind't dump me becuase of the distance,,, but because of some other guy... and now I'm hating her.. and my life.. and shit
/complaining about life

[Xenon]

Sorry to hear that, ikke. Sounds like you need to pick yourself up, move on and forget about her. It may sound like a tall order but that's the single best thing you can do right now, as thinking about her and hating her is only damaging your own self.

+ I just sort of gave some advice

[Decidetto]

Who? Penelop? Sorry to hear that, Ikke.

[Electoon]

- Missed pantomime performance yesterday due to belated winter sickness bug
- School not shut all day due to weather (it was closed for a few extra hours to clear snow), so I had to miss valuable school time for other reasons
+ Feeling alot better today
- Have been unable to eat properly for two days in a row
+ Have been well enough today to revise for my exam on Wednesday
+ Today has been the least stressful day in weeks

[ikke471]

Sorry to hear that, ikke. Sounds like you need to pick yourself up, move on and forget about her. It may sound like a tall order but that's the single best thing you can do right now, as thinking about her and hating her is only damaging your own self.

Thanks for the advice Xenon... I'll try to do that but... Yeah I don't know if I can do it.. We'll see..

Who? Penelop? Sorry to hear that, Ikke.

Yeah... She..

[Master]

Keep going Ikke, you've got the support of many here.
- No snow falling today.
- Snow is turning to ice now.
(+/- YMMV) No college today.

[Xenon]

- Also very annoyed with the snow and ice around here
- More snow is forecast later in the week

[Rayray1994]

+ I just finished Devil May Cry 4 in Hard Mode
- And now...What will happen to Dante and Nero? Where are they

[Adsolution]

- I got a phone call from an employee for my mother's company today dedicated to bashing my transgenderedness. He somehow managed to inexplicably tie in "transgenders being a god damn fucking disgrace to niggers like himself." He called my home the "forsaken transgender palace" and said "I'm living in a bullshit dream world." He then proceeded to claim I should either kill myself or be killed for this and started rambling on into total nonsense I couldn't even understand. So I called the police and he's probably going to jail.

You know what's funny? He isn't even black, he's a very light-brown-skinned Hispanic. Sure, people have opinions, but the part that really threw me was the fact that he wasn't even fucking remotely black, which in a way I found even more insulting than his gross idiocy toward my condition.