Keane wrote:I can't complain about my parents in such a way. Something that I'm lucky to have is that my mother, despite her misunderstanding almost every single thing about me, does want us to be a good family together. We can have good conversation every now and then and our disagreements often don't go very deep. I just feel that sometimes that wanting to be a good family can go seriously overboard, because when she wants it so bad and we're clearly not shaping the image that's in her head she'll literally get angry at me for it. Even small things like my choice of clothing or music. Yes, she allows me to chose for myself, but it doesn't hold her back from constantly commenting on how she dislikes it. Her solutions to my problems are ridiculous (A while back she wanted me to join Scouting because she thought other "outcasts" liked that.) and almost every day I have to hear how I'll soon be meeting new friends and my girlfriend for life. And I'll keep hearing that, because I've told her she's bullshiting herself and that she needs to snap out of her Utopian ideas. But she doesn't, because to her the world is perfect and the only to blame is myself. I don't have any contacts outside the internet because I'm not willing to act like a different person for other people which she wants oh so much.
As for my dad, he doesn't really care, so he just leaves me alone. We're not angry or something we're just quiet. The only thing we may say to each other is him telling me dinner is ready and me saying I'll be there in a second. I just wish he stopped pretending like he cares about any of this like my mother.
And if anything is irritating then it's that every time they think my door is closed or I'm wearing headphones I can hear family discussion about all the things they think is wrong with me. Especially my brother whom has been his whole life trying to hold up his nonexistent reputation of how amazing he is and that he'll be this rich, well traveled man one day, yet just sits on his bed all day doing nothing and still acts like he has the right to say anything about me. But meh, soon he'll be forced to move out anyway so I'm just ignoring him now. I honestly wonder if I'll even see him anymore when he does.
Actually, I can relate to most of that a lot. My mom also wants us to be a good family, but she takes it a bit overboard and points out all of our flaws and yet never our positives. My dad sometimes does that too, and I think even my sister has. No matter what I do there is no pleasing my mother, and it seems that situation is the same for my sister and even my dad a bit to an extent.
My dad is usually apathetic, but he'll often times be angry when he's not apathetic. My mom and him have made me feel like a worthless pile of shit coutless times and my sister has done just that more than a couple of times herself. All in all, it's not always bad though. My sister is much kinder to me than she is to our parents, my dad isn't always angry and when he is it's directed more at my mother, and I'm closest to my mother because we've had plenty of good discussions.
all of us originals from way back are like old men now.
