Something Bothering you?/Daily Doldrums

[Master]

Zepto, from what I've seen of you here, you're a brilliant lass and someone whose presence I really enjoy, don't let your life be dragged down by stuff like this, and know you have the respect of many here.

[Keane]

Zepto, from what I've seen of you here, you're a brilliant lass and someone whose presence I really enjoy, don't let your life be dragged down by stuff like this, and know you have the respect of many here.

Can't add much to your statement. Please try to remember that you are not a bad person and we do have respect for you. I wish I could do more then say some supportive words but sadly that's not the case. But you're certainly not worthless. You've kept me up late several nights with your live streams as I quite enjoy the company. Your a great person and I'm glad you've joined us here.

[OCG]

Zepto, I am really sorry to hear what happened. Master and Keane said it well and I really have nothing to add. I hope things get better in future. You are amazing person.

[Zikken]

I don't even know what to say holy crap. Thank you guys...

[Keane]

Haha you're welcome.

[Snagglebee]

Zepto, you're mom clearly doesn't show you love and care. What your mom does is not OK, and I am pretty sure this isn't a way of raising up their children.

[Adsolution]

Well I just got yelled at for 3 hours for being tired. Apparently I have no right to be tired when its day. My mom decided that yelling at me would be the best decision to wake me up and that I would do what I have to do but after 16 years of living with me I thought she would know that yelling at me for a ridiculous reason and saying that I'm a piece of shit that can do nothing but gives me panic attacks. She went on for 3 hours saying I'm worth nothing and that she would put me for adoption just to make me cry. It led me to get a panic attack and I couldn't breath anymore and my mom decided to think I was over reacting and left me there to myself yelling at me still. It went to the point I felt like throwing up and missed school because of this. She also brought down my self esteem thanks mom, for the first time in my life it was high and now you brought it down back into the pit of hell. I feel like I'm never going to be at peace in this fucking home. I'm feeling so bad right now.

An adoptee threat, hm? Believe me when I say that your hypothetical foster family would probably be miles better than the dreck you're having to put up with right now. You would have to be pretty unfortunate for it to be any worse, right?

Also, one little thing I use that's helped me elude the chastisations of my mother is to remember that she is simply one person, no more. Despite the fact that she's known you far longer than any of us have, her words and her views on your integrity are that of a single person, and clearly one who is so stupid and ignorant as to apparently have no desire to be remotely good herself.

None of us here could possibly know your behavioural patterns nearly as well as your mother does, but just given the fact that she is so unable to provide the most basic means of consolation and would stoop so low as to leave you unable to even breathe for reasons you can't comprehend, she cannot possibly understand you the same way your friends - or many of us - do.

Parents are people who chose to be legally obliged to be the caretaker of a child for eighteen years. If they are unable to pursue something even as simple as keeping their well-intentioned child happy with them as people, then they should be reprimanded and deported for eighteen years themselves. We're talking about the whole first quarter of someone's fucking life here, an unfathomably long stretch of time that cannot be redeemed. If you choose to be a parent, you'd better be open-minded enough for your child to stand. You know they may not feel the same ways you to about things, and you know they're going to garner their own view on life in their teenage years. If you're unable to sustain the love of your well-intentioned child, then you haven't been treating them like the people that they are.


Remember, a parent is only one person. A person whose words, when being perfectly realistic, can be brushed aside and ignored, just like the next insightful or retarded YouTube commentor - whether their words are wise and provide you with fruitful advice, or are disposable gibberish getting in the way of you living your life - it's up to you to decide which one of those it is. In regards to the quote above, I think it's pretty obvious what those words are to you, so don't take them as anything more than ignorance and stupidity you can laugh at later during lunch, before you sleep, or with friends.


If abusive parents could only once, for a split second experience the amount of trauma and immorality they inflict upon their children on a day-to-day basis, they would be really fucking surprised. The flaws of democracy are a breeze compared to this shit.

[Keane]

That's how I often think about my relationship with my brother, whom I don't have the brightest history with. He's ignorant, insulting and will go a great distance to make sure he's making your blood boil. This isn't always how he is but in most cases, especially the last two years, our situation has been rather horrid. I've stopped letting him bother me and completely ignore his presence at times because arguing isn't worth it. People like this should't influence you and there isn't anyone who you won't be able to leave from some point. I've sat out the time and now he's departing in less then a week. Albeit tough sometimes, I suggest you don't let someone get to your head.

[Zikken]

Zepto, you're mom clearly doesn't show you love and care. What your mom does is not OK, and I am pretty sure this isn't a way of raising up their children.

And you think I don't know that already?

An adoptee threat, hm? Believe me when I say that your hypothetical foster family would probably be miles better than the dreck you're having to put up with right now. You would have to be pretty unfortunate for it to be any worse, right?

I've been getting those since two years now. Nothing was happening but now it sounds like she just want to throw me out for real. And yeah probably it would be better seeing how unhappy I am to be with this family.

Also, one little thing I use that's helped me elude the chastisations of my mother is to remember that she is simply one person, no more. Despite the fact that she's known you far longer than any of us have, her words and her views on your integrity are that of a single person, and clearly one who is so stupid and ignorant as to apparently have no desire to be remotely good herself.

True.

None of us here could possibly know your behavioural patterns nearly as well as your mother does, but just given the fact that she is so unable to provide the most basic means of consolation and would stoop so low as to leave you unable to even breathe for reasons you can't comprehend, she cannot possibly understand you the same way your friends - or many of us - do.

She used to give a shit when I was younger but because I'm a teenager I should be "strong" and all that crap, which is the other way around happening because of hormones and shit like that, they keep saying " I was a teenager too once" but its like they never were.
I swear to god most people here understands me better than my parents.

Parents are people who chose to be legally obliged to be the caretaker of a child for eighteen years. If they are unable to pursue something even as simple as keeping their well-intentioned child happy with them as people, then they should be reprimanded and deported for eighteen years themselves. We're talking about the whole first quarter of someone's fucking life here, an unfathomably long stretch of time that cannot be redeemed.

Aye, looks like I lost 16 years of that, its been going on like this ever since I was born Jesus Christ. I also don't understand when my parents say its " the hardest job in life to have a child". Okay I can understand from when they are born to when they are like 12 its hard to know what they want and have difficulties to say what troubles hem but after that you can talk with them to know if something bothers them for fuck's sake. My dad doesn't even know what my personality is like, this is depressing to see how much he even paid attention to me, actually, the only thing he knows is how to make me get pissed off at him and my bad habits. I don't know with my mom, I talk to her less than with my dad.

If you choose to be a parent, you'd better be open-minded enough for your child to stand. You know they may not feel the same ways you to about things, and you know they're going to garner their own view on life in their teenage years. If you're unable to sustain the love of your well-intentioned child, then you haven't been treating them like the people that they are.

If I was ever going to be parent I surely would pay attention to what my child need instead of ignoring it like my parents are doing.

Remember, a parent is only one person. A person whose words, when being perfectly realistic, can be brushed aside and ignored, just like the next insightful or retarded YouTube commentor - whether their words are wise and provide you with fruitful advice, or are disposable gibberish getting in the way of you living your life - it's up to you to decide which one of those it is. In regards to the quote above, I think it's pretty obvious what those words are to you, so don't take them as anything more than ignorance and stupidity you can laugh at later during lunch, before you sleep, or with friends.

Although, I better not show that I completely ignored what they say, because last time I was welcomed with a slap on the face. Not that getting a slap hurt, it never will hurt more than being emotionally attacked, but I don't like any kind of violence and would rather avoid that seeing how my mother attacked me like a fucking gorilla yesterday, my arms are still red from it.

If abusive parents could only once, for a split second experience the amount of trauma and immorality they inflict upon their children on a day-to-day basis, they would be really fucking surprised. The flaws of democracy are a breeze compared to this shit.

They would think twice before doing something again.

Thank you for caring though Ad, you're a great person.

[Adsolution]

Although, I better not show that I completely ignored what they say, because last time I was welcomed with a slap on the face. Not that getting a slap hurt, it never will hurt more than being emotionally attacked, but I don't like any kind of violence and would rather avoid that seeing how my mother attacked me like a fucking gorilla yesterday, my arms are still red from it.

Well, you have to pretend as if you're taking it all in. Your mental reactions and what you physically express can be two very different things. It's probably the best, most self-motivating way to deal with this until you're not around her anymore.


A recent occurrence of the sort happened to me in a public sushi restaurant a couple of months ago. I'd daringly snarked at one of my mother's belittlings, and she slapped me in the face, at which point I instantly retaliated by slapping her back on the shoulder within less than a second, and then was told to leave, and then had almost everything taken away. Needless to say I was appalled - no, extremely distressed and the thought was killing me for days to come - at my own actions since I'd never done anything like that before. Since she made herself look so offended by my actions, everyone had thought that I'm the only one who did anything (despite the fact that my mouth was bleeding afterward). The restaurant owner I knew pretty well (but I'd never gone there with my mother before) was then lied to by my mother about the kind of person I am, and now I'm too embarrassed to return to my favourite takeout place I visited biweekly.

This is in direct reference to my previous post about parents being surprised with their own actions being used against them. She goes on about how much I "humiliated" her by doing that in a public place, when she clearly had no problem lying afterward, and she used to slap me really hard in public all the time.

[OCG]

Reading all this makes me sick. I can't believe what kind of parents exist in this world. It makes me so mad.

[Snagglebee]

Reading all this makes me sick. I can't believe what kind of parents exist in this world. It makes me so mad.

Sadly this isn't unommon. I hear a lot of that kind of abuse here.

[Dart]

Well I just got yelled at for 3 hours for being tired. Apparently I have no right to be tired when its day. My mom decided that yelling at me would be the best decision to wake me up and that I would do what I have to do but after 16 years of living with me I thought she would know that yelling at me for a ridiculous reason and saying that I'm a piece of shit that can do nothing but gives me panic attacks. She went on for 3 hours saying I'm worth nothing and that she would put me for adoption just to make me cry. It led me to get a panic attack and I couldn't breath anymore and my mom decided to think I was over reacting and left me there to myself yelling at me still. It went to the point I felt like throwing up and missed school because of this. She also brought down my self esteem thanks mom, for the first time in my life it was high and now you brought it down back into the pit of hell. I feel like I'm never going to be at peace in this fucking home. I'm feeling so bad right now.

your mom is the equivalent of my older brother. I seriously loose my sanity around him. since summer I've tried to be nice and open to people but end up feeling like crap when I return home. what makes it worse is that my mom denies that she supports my brother, even though she does. lately he's been playing GTA (shut-up those about to yell at me and read) and suddenly, out of nowhere, has been calling me, my dad, and black people niggers for no reason at all. he always tells me i'm retarded and that i'll never amount to anything. I do all his chores (my mom pays me a fair enough wage but still) and am expected not to complain when he leaves clothes,work-out equipment, shoes, homework and checks all over the place but if one thing of mine is on the ground OH MY GOD! ( ) well, there my rant for the day, and probably all of 10th grade.

[Adsolution]

Is Incognito your brother?

[Dart]

*laughs* no, not that kind of hell, i'm talking pit of tarturus deep. speaking of, "House of Hades" came out a few days ago and i'm already at page 423!

[incognito]

what dya talking about ?

ah mayby ya make allusion to the "stupid insanity cofee night" ive make public excuses....

[Dart]

what dya talking about ?

ah mayby ya make allusion to the "stupid insanity cofee night" ive make public excuses....

yes we are talking about your "coffee night" and how you managed to post about 50 times. I don't even post that much!
but give it another week and most of us should forget. after all it's the good we need to see in people, not the bad. (cue sappy violin song!)

[Keane]

She used to give a shit when I was younger but because I'm a teenager I should be "strong" and all that crap, which is the other way around happening because of hormones and shit like that, they keep saying " I was a teenager too once" but its like they never were.
I swear to god most people here understands me better than my parents.

What their failing to understand is that not everyone experiences childhood in the same way. Both my parents had ones very different from how I'm having it.

I've been getting those since two years now. Nothing was happening but now it sounds like she just want to throw me out for real. And yeah probably it would be better seeing how unhappy I am to be with this family.

Well unless you are absolutely sure I wouldn't try to worry about it. If worrying is what you feel. I can't talk for you of course, some would see it as relief whilst others, despite the situation, would be frightened by the concept of going to an another place with people you don't know. But if that's the case I wouldn't look at it with that perspective seeing that, like Ad mentioned, foster parents are very understanding and caring people.

Aye, looks like I lost 16 years of that, its been going on like this ever since I was born Jesus Christ. I also don't understand when my parents say its " the hardest job in life to have a child". Okay I can understand from when they are born to when they are like 12 its hard to know what they want and have difficulties to say what troubles hem but after that you can talk with them to know if something bothers them for fuck's sake. My dad doesn't even know what my personality is like, this is depressing to see how much he even paid attention to me, actually, the only thing he knows is how to make me get pissed off at him and my bad habits. I don't know with my mom, I talk to her less than with my dad.

If you're not willing to care about your child, then it becomes the hardest job in the world. From what I understand your father doesn't know your personality because he doesn't care enough to find out.

Although, I better not show that I completely ignored what they say, because last time I was welcomed with a slap on the face. Not that getting a slap hurt, it never will hurt more than being emotionally attacked, but I don't like any kind of violence and would rather avoid that seeing how my mother attacked me like a fucking gorilla yesterday, my arms are still red from it.

Woah what. Violence is the absolute lowest you can go with parenting. A pathetic substitute for actually willing to work the issue out so it comes to an end, with the only intent being that, hopefully, your kid will shut up and listen to you. It doesn't teach anything and only worsens the problem. Sadly ranting about it doesn't change anything and they likely don't realise what their doing. I can't exactly relate but still offer my compassion, although I see that Ad has written a more direct reply.

[Zikken]

Reading all this makes me sick. I can't believe what kind of parents exist in this world. It makes me so mad.

Sadly this isn't unommon. I hear a lot of that kind of abuse here.

My friend's dad steal her money and gets drunk with it. He owes her about $2000 now.

Well, you have to pretend as if you're taking it all in. Your mental reactions and what you physically express can be two very different things. It's probably the best, most self-motivating way to deal with this until you're not around her anymore.

Well I guess its a good thing that I'm good at pretending stuff.

A recent occurrence of the sort happened to me in a public sushi restaurant a couple of months ago. I'd daringly snarked at one of my mother's belittlings, and she slapped me in the face, at which point I instantly retaliated by slapping her back on the shoulder within less than a second, and then was told to leave, and then had almost everything taken away. Needless to say I was appalled - no, extremely distressed and the thought was killing me for days to come - at my own actions since I'd never done anything like that before. Since she made herself look so offended by my actions, everyone had thought that I'm the only one who did anything (despite the fact that my mouth was bleeding afterward). The restaurant owner I knew pretty well (but I'd never gone there with my mother before) was then lied to by my mother about the kind of person I am, and now I'm too embarrassed to return to my favourite takeout place I visited biweekly.

Everyone reach a limit where they just can't take it anymore someday and just snap in a way or another. But what the fuck is up with your mom, I just, wow.

This is in direct reference to my previous post about parents being surprised with their own actions being used against them. She goes on about how much I "humiliated" her by doing that in a public place, when she clearly had no problem lying afterward, and she used to slap me really hard in public all the time.

Your mom is going to make me sick. What an asshole, why is she even acting like this.

what dya talking about ?

ah mayby ya make allusion to the "stupid insanity cofee night" ive make public excuses....

Dafuq?

what dya talking about ?

ah mayby ya make allusion to the "stupid insanity cofee night" ive make public excuses....

yes we are talking about your "coffee night" and how you managed to post about 50 times. I don't even post that much!
but give it another week and most of us should forget. after all it's the good we need to see in people, not the bad. (cue sappy violin song!)

I sometime post over 70 times in a day.

What their failing to understand is that not everyone experiences childhood in the same way. Both my parents had ones very different from how I'm having it.

My childhood is pretty much dead already.

Well unless you are absolutely sure I wouldn't try to worry about it. If worrying is what you feel. I can't talk for you of course, some would see it as relief whilst others, despite the situation, would be frightened by the concept of going to an another place with people you don't know. But if that's the case I wouldn't look at it with that perspective seeing that, like Ad mentioned, foster parents are very understanding and caring people.

Nah, I wouldn't get frightened or anything, the only bad thing is that I have trouble with changes in my life, it can just be our table changing size ( because we can take out the part in the middle ) and its going to bother me for 2-3 months. There is already my little brother than might be taken away from our family for reasons because the school wants to.

If you're not willing to care about your child, then it becomes the hardest job in the world. From what I understand your father doesn't know your personality because he doesn't care enough to find out.

Pretty much yeah, he doesn't care about anything that I do other than telling me 300 times a day "you should be and act like every other girl teens" well what if I want to be myself, I don't feel like running for guys or clothes and all that stuff that he wants me to do, it doesn't feel like me. He just want be to be his perfect child.

Woah what. Violence is the absolute lowest you can go with parenting. A pathetic substitute for actually willing to work the issue out so it comes to an end, with the only being that, hopefully, your kid will shut up and listen to you. It doesn't teach anything and only worsens the problem. Sadly ranting about it doesn't change anything and they likely don't realise what their doing. I can't exactly relate but still offer my compassion, although I see that Ad has written a more direct reply.

I used to be beaten up even more than that when I was younger because I was "weird" in other words, because I was autistic and they didn't know it, which is not a reason to do that because there is no reasons to beat up your own child. The worst I get now is being retained on the ground, which is seriously not fun at all and extremely painful to be pinned down like this and being slapped.

[Keane]

Pretty much yeah, he doesn't care about anything that I do other than telling me 300 times a day "you should be and act like every other girl teens" well what if I want to be myself, I don't feel like running for guys or clothes and all that stuff that he wants me to do, it doesn't feel like me. He just want be to be his perfect child.

My mother often talks about this perfect child I should be but I've told her I don't give a shit about it but I know that once school starts up again I'm gonna start hearing how I need to stop being a human again. It can be easily ignored of course but I know how incredibly irritating and down putting it can be to keep having to hear what's supposedly wrong about you.

I used to be beaten up even more than that when I was younger because I was "weird" in other words, because I was autistic and they didn't know it, which is not a reason to do that because there is no reasons to beat up your own child. The worst I get now is being retained on the ground, which is seriously not fun at all and extremely painful to be pinned down like this and being slapped.

That's insane. I'm speechless. I mean, Jesus Christ, that's fucking horrible. I'm sorry to hear this.