Something Bothering you?/Daily Doldrums

[Dart]

zepto's parents must be potheads. so high that the galaxy looks like a marble.

[Zikken]

Pretty much yeah, he doesn't care about anything that I do other than telling me 300 times a day "you should be and act like every other girl teens" well what if I want to be myself, I don't feel like running for guys or clothes and all that stuff that he wants me to do, it doesn't feel like me. He just want be to be his perfect child.

My mother often talks about this perfect child I should be but I've told her I don't give a shit about it but I know that once school starts up again I'm gonna start hearing how I need to stop being a human again. It can be easily ignored of course but I know how incredibly irritating and down putting it can be to keep having to hear what's supposedly wrong about you.

I wonder what is with parents and this perfect child thing.

I used to be beaten up even more than that when I was younger because I was "weird" in other words, because I was autistic and they didn't know it, which is not a reason to do that because there is no reasons to beat up your own child. The worst I get now is being retained on the ground, which is seriously not fun at all and extremely painful to be pinned down like this and being slapped.

That's insane. I'm speechless. I mean, Jesus Christ, that's fucking horrible. I'm sorry to hear this.

I guess so, I'm so used to it that I could almost say its a daily thing.

zepto's parents must be potheads. so high that the galaxy looks like a marble.

They aren't potheads but what..

[Keane]

zepto's parents must be potheads. so high that the galaxy looks like a marble.

I...

I guess this post had good intention behind it.

Pretty much yeah, he doesn't care about anything that I do other than telling me 300 times a day "you should be and act like every other girl teens" well what if I want to be myself, I don't feel like running for guys or clothes and all that stuff that he wants me to do, it doesn't feel like me. He just want be to be his perfect child.

My mother often talks about this perfect child I should be but I've told her I don't give a shit about it but I know that once school starts up again I'm gonna start hearing how I need to stop being a human again. It can be easily ignored of course but I know how incredibly irritating and down putting it can be to keep having to hear what's supposedly wrong about you.

I wonder what is with parents and this perfect child thing.

It's a Utopian thought that those characteristics will make us happy and fix the "problems" going on. It's only natural a parent would want their child to be happy, live life to the fullest etc but there's a difference between wishing that and accepting it isn't the case and endlessly pushing it hoping it'll be reality someday.

I guess so, I'm so used to it that I could almost say its a daily thing.

It shouldn't be a daily thing. Nor weekly. Probably not monthly or just fucking ever. Please don't let yourself be influenced by me as I'm don't know about what and where, but if you feel that this something very serious you need to seek help.

[Zikken]

It shouldn't be a daily thing. Nor weekly. Probably not monthly or just fucking ever. Please don't let yourself be influenced by me as I'm don't know about what and where, but if you feel that this something very serious you need to seek help.

I don't know where to seek help for this. There isn't much anywhere I can get help in such a small city.

[OCG]

What you described Zepto is I am pretty sure a a child abuse. Child abuse is illegal. I don't know how exactly is this called in your country but there should be organization that can help you be adopted by different parents. Same organization also helps if child's parents died, but also if parents were abusing child, they are punished and they are not allowed to see their child, and child gets new home and parents.

[Zikken]

No idea but the closest I get to that is called DPJ ( kid protection director or something like that its in French ) and they called my parents today for my little brother and are going to talk with my mom. They already want to take my brother away.

[Keane]

What you described Zepto is I am pretty sure a a child abuse. Child abuse is illegal. I don't know how exactly is this called in your country but there should be organization that can help you be adopted by different parents. Same organization also helps if child's parents died, but also if parents were abusing child, they are punished and they are not allowed to see their child, and child gets new home and parents.

Yeah, this is what I was referring to, but I dunno anything about how you look at things so I don't wanna tell you that you should or whatever. I always become incredibly careful when something is personal, especially with a topic like this, no bad intentions.

[Zikken]

I don't really, I often depend too much on people and just think I'm annoying because of that, no worries in suggesting something to me I wont get mad or anything.

[incognito]

Im not very good to comfort persons and i understand 34% of the topic but we are here to psychologically give you some support...

its alwas good to share what do you feel (nan sérieux ca veut dire quelque chose ma dernière phrase ?

[Zikken]

Im not very good to comfort persons and i understand 34% of the topic but we are here to psychologically give you some support...

its alwas good to share what do you feel

It was already done with Adsolution and Keane, I'm good now, just some problem with how my parents acts toward me.

And yes it is.

(nan sérieux ca veut dire quelque chose ma dernière phrase ?

Oui pas d’inquiétude.

[Keane]

I don't really, I often depend too much on people and just think I'm annoying because of that, no worries in suggesting something to me I wont get mad or anything.

Alright, just wanted to make sure I don't come across unlike I intent.

[Dart]

zepto's parents must be potheads. so high that the galaxy looks like a marble.

I...

I guess this post had good intention behind it.

It was supposed to, kinda rubs off as abrasive though. OCG pretty much summed it up as child abuse. welp, it seems my good words are starting to sound a bit twisted to me, so i'm leaving the comforting zone for a while.

[Dark Lum Lord]

I see that others have eagerly taken up my spot of lengthy paragraphs entirely based on angst. Thanks for the helping - yet subtly fisted - hand, my fellow lovelies.

[Adsolution]

Thanks for the helping - yet subtly fisted - hand,

I can assure you, [most of] the community's hands have yet to be so adventurous.

[Dark Lum Lord]

Thanks for the helping - yet subtly fisted - hand,

I can assure you, [most of] the community's hands have yet to be so adventurous.

I'll have to give you bucketfuls of kudos on that one, heh. Thank you for somewhat converting my mixed emotions into happiness.

[Zikken]

Uuuuhg I can't take this anymore, I'm getting yelled at 24/7 now because I am "unable" to do anything. Alright yeah I get it: I can't draw, I can't read, I can't write, I can't speak my mind, I can't get friends, I can't be myself because I got some fucking idiotic parents that wants me to be perfect to their images of a daughter. I just got grounded from eating, that's so great. My mom tried to break my laptop, okay, my dad wants to take it away forever until I become "normal like everyone" yes hello dad I am autistic, that's awesome. I'm just crying like a child because no one even cares about me in this fucking house, they don't even pay attention to how I feel after they have said things I'm so sick of them, I just don't want to live with them anymore I just want to go away. Now they are saying that they failed to educate me what the fuck. " she have no job she is a failure" I can't even talk to a stranger without being extremely anxious how do you expect me to have one you're not even helping me with that.

I just locked myself away in my room and will be staying in it until after tomorrow because I'll have to go to school but yeah, probably not even going to be able to eat without getting yelled at, its the second time this week that I can't eat. Now they are talking like super happy and I can hear them, my room is right next to the kitchen, not giving a fuck about in what state I'm stuck in, like as if it was completely normal, I get beaten up emotionally and physically by them and they thing its a normal parent thing and I'm sick of it.

Hope you guys are having a better day than me.

[Keane]

Uuuuhg I can't take this anymore, I'm getting yelled at 24/7 now because I am "unable" to do anything. Alright yeah I get it: I can't draw, I can't read, I can't write, I can't speak my mind, I can't get friends, I can't be myself because I got some fucking idiotic parents that wants me to be perfect to their images of a daughter. I just got grounded from eating, that's so great. My mom tried to break my laptop, okay, my dad wants to take it away forever until I become "normal like everyone" yes hello dad I am autistic, that's awesome. I'm just crying like a child because no one even cares about me in this fucking house, they don't even pay attention to how I feel after they have said things I'm so sick of them, I just don't want to live with them anymore I just want to go away. Now they are saying that they failed to educate me what the fuck. " she have no job she is a failure" I can't even talk to a stranger without being extremely anxious how do you expect me to have one you're not even helping me with that.

I just locked myself away in my room and will be staying in it until after tomorrow because I'll have to go to school but yeah, probably not even going to be able to eat without getting yelled at, its the second time this week that I can't eat. Now they are talking like super happy and I can hear them, my room is right next to the kitchen, not giving a fuck about in what state I'm stuck in, like as if it was completely normal, I get beaten up emotionally and physically by them and they thing its a normal parent thing and I'm sick of it.

Hope you guys are having a better day than me.

Zepto I am truly sorry to hear what you have to go through and what's being done to you. You parents are complete lunatics but I think we both know that. What I want you to remember is that your a beautiful person & that I wish you all the love and luck to in the world and I mean that. It's painful just to read these sort of posts. But if you have made the decision that you personally want to get away from these people and continue your life differently then by all means please do take action. I don't know if you can get access to a phone for a helpline or if there's anything online but your country is able to offer it. However I do suggest that if you want to seriously consider this that you first let a night pass to recollect some thoughts and cool down. But again, what's being caused to you is not what you deserve or should continue to pester you any longer. This falls under child abuse and it's much more then a shame that you should have to experience it.

Again, your no less then anyone else. Your kind and enjoyable and your drawing is fucking brilliant and overall it's been very enjoyable to have you around. Please, please do make up your mind and decide what you want because you shouldn't be having a lesser day then even one of us. There's good people with good intentions out there.

[Dart]

like I posted earlier, i'm a whole continent away but I can sense your pain. my advice, call the french police or something; I wish there was something I could do, honestly. are you in your final year of school Zepto? if so, try sticking it out till then and bail as quick as you can run. hope you feel better.

[incognito]

hey there is not some UNICEF center where you are ?

Or center specialized for those situations ?

OH ! damn where i am ! Wait here im back with my head !

[Zikken]

hey there is not some UNICEF center where you are ?

Or center specialized for those situations ?

I've heard of UNICEF but I don't think so.

like I posted earlier, i'm a whole continent away but I can sense your pain. my advice, call the french police or something; I wish there was something I could do, honestly. are you in your final year of school Zepto? if so, try sticking it out till then and bail as quick as you can run. hope you feel better.

I don't think the police can really do something about it, we got the shittiest one here, also my mom is one at the hospital so....yeah.

But no I had to restart all over my high school so I'm pretty far away, the school expect me to finish in 2019.

Zepto I am truly sorry to hear what you have to go through and what's being done to you. You parents are complete lunatics but I think we both know that. What I want you to remember is that your a beautiful person & that I wish you all the love and luck to in the world and I mean that. It's painful just to read these sort of posts. But if you have made the decision that you personally want to get away from these people and continue your life differently then by all means please do take action. I don't know if you can get access to a phone for a helpline or if there's anything online but your country is able to offer it. However I do suggest that if you want to seriously consider this that you first let a night pass to recollect some thoughts and cool down. But again, what's being caused to you is not what you deserve or should continue to pester you any longer. This falls under child abuse and it's much more then a shame that you should have to experience it.

Again, your no less then anyone else. Your kind and enjoyable and your drawing is fucking brilliant and overall it's been very enjoyable to have you around. Please, please do make up your mind and decide what you want because you shouldn't be having a lesser day then even one of us. There's good people with good intentions out there.

Easier said than done, my city is literally "corrupted" by money and these sort of things. I'm going to have to wait for something to happen, I can't do much about it sadly.