Pluses (+) and minuses (−) of this day

[Adsolution]

+ My brother hosted an awesome party of forty or so people at our house two days ago, and I partook in a Brawl tournament consisting of about twenty of them and ranked second to my brother. - Just for note, these aren't rave parties, they're generally very clean and well-mannered, despite being loud, but we're respectful to the neighbours. They usually consist of video games, card games, board games, music, and sometimes beer pong (though I don't drink).

- The party got me sick just after I finished recovering from a totally different illness. I woke up this morning feeling like I had rice jammed up my nasal passage, and then as the day went on it spread to my throat, and it hurts so much to swallow I have to basically give myself an Indian Burn while swallowing in order to not cry out in pain.

-/+ When I asked my mother where the Advil 400s were (I could only find the 200s in the medicine cabinet), she instantly started yelling in an overly-angry tone: "Have you been washing your hands?" I respond by saying "Yes, I just washed my hands before coming to you, didn't you hear?" To which she replied "No you didn't, you never wash your hands, and you always get everyone else sick because of it!" - This here is completely untrue, as I've almost never passed on the sickness, in fact, more often than not my sicknesses come from my brother or mother who get them first. To this nonsense she spouts, I just say "what...?" and let her ramble on for another two or three minutes about how I'm so careless that I don't wash my hands and that she should punish me, and so on. When she finishes, I say "Alright, now where is the Advil?", She says "In my purse", I say "Thanks, that's all I needed to hear", and she the screams "Oh fuck off you fucking asshole! You cunt!!" - The reason this is partially a (+) is because this is only further reassurance that I'm not the one in the wrong here, that it's something I can use against her in the future, and that she's a insufferable, hypocritical shite.

- As it turns out, the Advil was not in her purse.

+ I managed to find the Advil after only 25 minutes of searching through sheer luck, it was in one of her drawers in her basement office. Now the pain is completely gone from swallowing and I'll finally be able to sleep (which I've been trying to do for the last five hours).

[Shrooblord]

Aw, Ad, as always, your domestic situation makes me sad inside. I hope you'll be well soon - both from the sickness and from this strange environment you live in.

[Keane]

That's awful, Ad. I'm not sure what to say other then the generic "I hope you enter a better period soon" shit but like Shroobie said above it puts a bad feeling in my stomach. Bad parenting is always something that especially hits me out of all, err, bad situations people describe, and not because it's something I can relate because my parents are, despite their stubborn mindset, pretty awesome people when I set them next to the stuff others have to go trough.

+ First day of school tomorrow and I'm not minding it. I've got plenty reasons to dislike, especially with all the shit that comes with it to catch up what I've missed, but I've had summer vacation until November so anything I'll say is unjustified whining. And besides, after one week I'll be used to it and I really doubt that anywhere I go can give me a more stressful and depressive time then last year. Hooray for being optimistic for once.

- So I've just gotta visit the place for 20 minutes today to get some things signed and whatnot and here's my mother going on about how I need to look appealing and have a smile on my face. I think that it's not even her want for me to be good looking but that she wants me to fake my emotions and appearance for other people. No, I'm not always fucking happy, I'm not gonna smile when she wants me to. I know that, to some extent, it's because she wants me to be happy and feel better around people, but trying to force it is not gonna make anything happen. I've drowned in the pressure of "making friends" and "not always being home after school" and I'm done with it. I know that saying that internet contacts are my social life sounds a bit sad but I'm OK with it and if she were more willing to listen she'd understand that I'm not here right now on RPC because I'm a depressed person. I had a fucking great Halloween with an awesome livestream and I'd love to tell her that I had a good day but she'd only question me and worry when there's no need to. I'm not some odd, frightening person that you make sure to avoid. Sure, I don't talk much cos' I'm kinda shy, it takes a while before I feel comfortable enough around you to mention my favourite colour, and I'm not the happiest person in the world. But I consider myself a friendly person. I don't hold grudges or judge you or get upset when you make a mistake. Hell, I tend to meet a guy (online) who was a massive dick to me last year. Does keep him from being more then a decent acquaintance (I'm forgiving but if you've shown that you'll go out of your way to bother and irritate me then I'll always feel like you could potentially do it again.) but if he's not being like he is last year then why should I keep avoiding him? We're all human.

I'm sorry, but I'm just not ever gonna be the ideal son. Again, my parents are great people who have made sure I have everything I want, have taken me on more vacations that someone else may not go on in their entire life and even if they don't always understand they've shown themselves to be caring. It's more that they, especially my mother, have always been so manipulated by media and other people. I think I like that Don't Hug Me I'm Scared video so much because I can relate to it. As a kid my mother was always telling me what is creative and what isn't. I was always very interested in game design and even then I was all about games not being New Super Mario Bros. (Generic plains world, desert world, snow world) and would draw out my ideas for all sorts of magical and original places. Even come up with platforming ideas and how'd they play out. That was apparently "weird" and "not creative". No, creativity was if I had drawn a picture of our family with our house or something like that. Why? What was wrong with what I was doing? I just had different interests. In fact I should still have those drawings somewhere and some of the ideas weren't even half bad. Cool stuff like temples and strangely coloured mountains that was very Rayman inspired. Even had characters for it that all had different personalities and such. I still like that stuff. The drawings are ugly as fuck of course but I was 6 or 7. If I ever have a kid or adopt one or whatever and he/she draws out whole worlds with characters that have different personalities and thought out ideas for how things interact with each other I'd be beyond proud that they are being that creative already rather then just drawing a picture of our house with a tree next to it. Or any other thing that they like to do. It's not me who should decide for someone else what they want to put their thinking in.

I don't think my parents were being bad people purposely (I don't even wanna call their actions bad), I think they were just soaked up by the believe that I wasn't acting like every shitty magazine or other person was saying that normal kids should. Same thing with the pacing around thing I do. I've read up on it and i's apparently a common anxious behaviour but I don't mind. It helps me relax or if I'm thinking about something or just enjoying music. I'd do it in the living room & they would let me but every time they'd say something to remember me of the fact that it was strange and I probably shouldn't do it. Now I only do it in my room or try to get out of the house and do it outside and if someone walks in I'll pretend that I was picking something up or was about to sit down. I really shouldn't have to do that for pacing around. It's not a bad thing. It just helps me in some cases. Just like how I enjoy my music best during a car ride. Can't explain it but I don't care. But that's just something that bugs me about people in general.

I'm sorry, I'm rambling on and when I come to this thread in 15 minutes I'll probably regret half the stuff I wrote. I'll stop now. Don't feel the need to reply if you don't want to.

[Rayfist]

+ Today is the day I got more video views on YT than RayFist

Don't you always get more views than me?

(+) Is planning on getting into the Yakuza series, starting with the third.

[Dart]

+ am finally finished with my Bradcasting Communications work, and I feel so relieved.
-I also finally did my famous painters powerpoint for French3. GODDAMMIT Renoir why did I have to chose you! you and your fucking nudes screwing up my concentration!

[BzzitTheMoskito]

+ Feels very satisfied with myself, I did 5 drawings last night.
- Boring day today.

[Master]

- Holidays are over, let the onslaught begin once more
- MY CALCULATOR IS DEAD!!! ahem, this is bad, seeing as I need it to make calculations and the like in college.
- So much stuff to consider and deal with, urgh...

[Keane]

+ Lil' bit bored but question lists always save the day

- I have to get out of bed at a normal time from now on. Oh no.

[Zikken]

- My parents want to obligate me to go sleep at said hour, aaaah.

[Keane]

- We're in this together I believe. Mother has been wanting me to shut down at 11 PM. I don't need over eight hours of sleep.

[Zikken]

What a coincidence, my mom said 11 PM too.

+ commissioned someone to make a derp animation and then I put it in my sig because I love it. I will keep it there for some time.

[Keane]

I'm gonna go at 1:45 AM instead because that gives me five and a half hours and has proved to be just enough for me to not zone out during school. Will probably lie awake for a while.

+ I love it! One of my favourite OCs of yours.

[Zikken]

Watch me fall asleep at my desk or something similar around 2 am.

-/+ I killed 17 of my characters two days ago because I had too many, now I only have 10.

[Keane]

Depends for me. Some days 2 AM is my limit and I fall asleep while I'm doing something and other days I can skip the night and not get tired until far into the next day. If that does happen I try to at least go to sleep at 5 AM or something so I don't end up doing so at 5 PM and mess up my rhythm.

I saw. I actually didn't notice Oboroe before until just a few days ago.

[Zikken]

Ahh.

That poor character never got drawn except on its ref. I'm really lazy to draw my own characters for some reasons.

[Keane]

Aww. Did you ever consider writing about them? Not sure if that's your thing but Admos almost begs for a tale. /o/

[Zikken]

The problem is that I really suck at writing, and I'm not talking about writing words but making up stories and stuff. I always got 0 in writing in both French and English class. Else I would totally do it.

[Keane]

For me it's the other way around. I love making up stories but my writing is always very cheesy and I need to go back to change words so that every character isn't going "Though kinda, hmmm, I kinda agree though but hmmm I'm not kinda not sure though" I do need a lot of time to get something good in my mind. I've had an idea for about five years now and I'm still constantly tweaking it and even making major changes. Probably at least another year until I wanna write it down.

[Zikken]

It takes me around 5 minutes to get a good idea, but I never can write them.

[Keane]

Five minutes? Sonic 06 becomes Shakespeare compared to what I can think of in such little time.

I suppose I could give it a shot again sometime. Just gotta survive the frustration of it coming out well.