Pluses (+) and minuses (−) of this day

[technology4617]

--- I got a serious fever and i fear that I'm not going to be OK tommorrow for the let's play -.- Why today?!!!

[Dart]

+ Im a poor and lonesome warrior and i finally reached my home...

That was about as mature as my two year old.niece whois currently throwing a tantrum in front of my computer.

exactly!

[sonicbrawler182]

Notice how I said "take a break from things", not "take a break from everything". There are certain things you obviously have to put up with no matter ehat (e.g. family, if you still live with them), but you can always trim the fat, and tune out things you really don't have any obligation to deal with. In this case, a user on a forum who annoys/upsets you can easily be ignored.

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-My Web Authouring teacher...just....MY WEB AUTHOURING TEACHER.
-Tired as fuck and EVERYONE seems to want me to do something for them, or help them out with something really serious when I hardly have the time or energy, due to assignments. Hardly get a moment to myself lately (I would like to also note that this has nothing to do with anyone here, thankfully, and I doubt any posts I make like this ever will).
+One of the girls in my college class gave me a Christmas Card, which actually brought my spirits up a bit, and I'm not even a Christmas-y person. It's funny, she's like, the oldest person in the class, nearly (about 25 years old I believe), yet can be the sweetest and most innocent and fun, despite her troubles. Don't talk to her much as she ain't in all that often, but still. It's the little things! :3

[Adsolution]

a user on a forum who annoys/upsets you can easily be ignored.

Well, not always. The fact that someone is aware they're still posting can be difficult to ignore, and using something like the ignorelist when there are others who aren't can make you feel ignorant yourself, in a sense. Not that this is necessarily the case here, but there are still things that can't be well taken a break from.

[MisterDark'sFanClub]

- For all we know, incognito is tokiocool (Buh buh buh!!)

+Merely a matter of hours until I get my armor!

And what I meant by normal is succumbing to societal norms and being everyone's definition of "normal". All my life, I've been around people who only care about living up to mainstream views and lifestyles. And because I chose not to, I was always sort of a misfit. Plus i have a lot of weird quirks. The environment i grew upin was kinda judgemental. So forgive me for not.using the.textbook definition. Normal just sometimes has a negative connotation for me. The way I use it is sometimes different than how others use it.
(I use a Smiley or LOL to say that I mean well.)

[sonicbrawler182]

Over on darkSpyro, there are a fair few users who I really needed to ignore for reasons far more serious than "they're annoying because they act stupid and make no sense". And I've always (and still do) managed that. People's ability to do this differs, but it's more than manageable most of the time, unless it's a case where you are specifically chased down. And in those cases, one should just report the offending user (and I know some people have a pride issue when doing that, but really, that's just complicating things for yourself if that's the case).

[OCG]

+ I checked transactions and it seems Incognito donated all Tings to MrDark'sFanClub and insulted site. Hopefully that means he will leave forever and never return.

[technology4617]

+ Im a poor and lonesome warrior and i finally reached my home...

That was about as mature as my two year old.niece whois currently throwing a tantrum in front of my computer.

exactly!

Just so everyone is clear, I'm not perfect. I lose my temper and patience just like every other fucking human on the planet. That little shit has got on my (and other members') nerves for far too long, and I don't think that I should just have to put up with it; it pisses me off, and, naturally, I will react.

Also, I'm fairly certain "whois" and "old.niece" are not words, in case you needed a check for your inflated ego.

[Dark Lum Lord]

+ Managed to break out of my shell, had a pretty good time.
+ Weekend
+ Met others with similar interests, hoping I'll seem them on Monday again but it's not likely since they're in seventh grade, but it was fun regardless.
+ Hugs. I was actually hugged. Hugged. Hugs might be something very simple, but sometimes you can't help but romanticize the simple things in life. Just one hug can lift me up from any pit I've fallen in and honestly I wish they'd never end, there's nothing better than a hug in my book since you're not only being emotionally accepted, but physically as well.
+ lol k well may b secks iz bettr, butt hugs r good 2

[Keane]

- Probably not gonna see the movie tonight, was kinda looking forward to it. Ah well.

+/- Our stuff arrived which is great but that means the board games are also back and over an hour of playing Clue with my family is like a field trip to Hell.

- School is stressing me out. I have so much to do I can't even believe it. Next week is gonna be harsh and contain plenty homework, but I just gotta pull trough and know I get two weeks off afterwards.

+ I spot a chat containing Zeppy >w>

- Just a bad day. I didn't like it.

+ But I'm home now and got two days to relax and prepare for next week.

+ I found out I can access RPC and DeviantArt in Html format at school. Can't log in though. Amazing blocking system they have but I finally managed to break trough it.

I WISH I could act like a normal person you have no fucking idea, but no, I'm stuck with autism that blocks me from doing so, I feel insulted to think that wanting to behave like a normal person is boring.

The concept of something new, new to you being 'normal', will of course sound exciting, but everything has its novelties, and I can assure you that your life will be more exciting being exactly who you are than trying to be someone else.

This is why you're such a bad fucking badass and literally Jesus, Ad. I feel like you word things perfectly and are honestly the most thoughtful person with the best advice I know.

[Rulez]

+ Managed to break out of my shell, had a pretty good time.
+ Weekend
+ Met others with similar interests, hoping I'll seem them on Monday again but it's not likely since they're in seventh grade, but it was fun regardless.
+ Hugs. I was actually hugged. Hugged. Hugs might be something very simple, but sometimes you can't help but romanticize the simple things in life. Just one hug can lift me up from any pit I've fallen in and honestly I wish they'd never end, there's nothing better than a hug in my book since you're not only being emotionally accepted, but physically as well.
+ lol k well may b secks iz bettr, butt hugs r good 2

Fuck, man, hugs are the best! I remember when I got to hug my ex-crush (haha, that sounds so fucking pathetic, but hey, she's a great friend anyway!) twice! Because it's the only thing DLL cares about: yes she had and has pretty big boobs. But who, other than you, cares? I'd hug the shit out of my best girl friend right now even though she, and not that is a problem, has tiny breasts. Hugging men isn't bad either, homo or not. All of it makes you warm inside, and that's such a beautiful feeling.

[technology4617]

To add to Zepto and Ad's conversation, I have always been happier and more popular when I didn't act normally, as opposed to when I did. Not being normal (as long as you're not a retard like incognito) is generally a good thing, since it gives you individuality.

[Dark Lum Lord]

+ Oh shit, I didn't even notice what Ad had stated until Keane quoted it, thank you, his words are just what I needed to further bring me out of this hole. It feels like these entire past two years I've been pretending to be something I'm not. My standards are even more high than my parent's and I can never live up to them but there's no point, I don't know why but for some reason I can't get my mind to reinforce the fact that I'm fine just the way I am, that no one's perfect. I feel like I myself believe that I'm fine, that I have friends, that I just have to be myself, but it's my sub-conscious that refuses to agree. It seems that day after day my mind is attacking me with the help of my vicious sub-conscious, but I don't feel directly attached to these thoughts, I don't want to believe but there's nothing I can do. I guess that's depression for you.

But I guess that's adolescence for you, you're sucked down into a whole other world full of new worries and responsibilites, a major one being of the social area - ahem, cliques, the "No one understands me" phase, the "Fuck you/i r rebelz" phase, the "I'm never going to love again" phase, the "I'm so alone" phase, so on, all products of this.

+ I found out I can access RPC and DeviantArt in Html format at school. Can't log in though. Amazing blocking system they have but I finally managed to break trough it.

(+) I can access and log into Tumblr and RPC at school.

+ Lately I've been wanting to turn my life around, to break out of this (rusty) cage and reach out to others, to work on my grades more, and such and today has been an example showing that I truly can do this if I want to. I literally cannot explain how happy I am, I've been taking it a bit slow with getting out of my shell but it's been working for me, no longer do I feel depressed or lonely. On Monday I'm going to attempt to be the opposite of myself, I'm not going to take it too far and fail to achieve my expectations, but I'm going to try and I know it's going to work out now because I did it today.

Fuck, man, hugs are the best! I remember when I got to hug my ex-crush (haha, that sounds so fucking pathetic, but hey, she's a great friend anyway!) twice! Because it's the only thing DLL cares about: yes she had and has pretty big boobs. But who, other than you, cares? I'd hug the shit out of my best girl friend right now even though she, and not that is a problem, has tiny breasts. Hugging men isn't bad either, homo or not. All of it makes you warm inside, and that's such a beautiful feeling.

Heh, well I do enjoy me some boobs, but it's the hug I care about, the gender doesn't matter but I prefer hugs from someone I have a crush on soley due to the fact that it produces the fuzziest feeling possible. But that's just it, hugs are essentially a lemonparty of emotions of fuzziness ands feelings of being cared for.

o add to Zepto and Ad's conversation, I have always been happier and more popular when I didn't act normally, as opposed to when I did. Not being normal (as long as you're not a retard like incognito) is generally a good thing, since it gives you individuality.

This.

[Rulez]

Heh, well I do enjoy me some boobs, but it's the hug I care about, the gender doesn't matter but I prefer hugs from someone I have a crush on soley due to the fact that it produces the fuzziest feeling possible. But that's just it, hugs are essentially a lemonparty of emotions of fuzziness ands feelings of being cared for.

Well said. Might I add, hugging someone you care for, be it a crush or your best friends, is a fantastic feeling.

[Keane]

Hugs are. I remember someone joke hugged me a while back and when they stopped I was trying to awkwardly hold on to them.

+/- Got into this talk with my mother and she raised the question if I liked anything about myself (Was on the edge of entering an argument, glad we didn't) and I told her that I consider myself a loyal, caring person with good intentions and she was surprised. As if though it's not possible for someone to like themselves in any way. It's kinda sad that summing up your worse sides is apparently normal but being happy with yourself in some way is surprising. Brother told me to "prove it", making it even sadder that he's willing to gladly take my negative aspects for granted but the positives ones? Prove or it's not possible. Bleh, at least nobody got mad or anything.

+ But with that being said, I'm still glad that I have this personality and have no shame admitting that, believe it or not, I am a good person in some ways O:

[OCG]

I am mostly neutral about Hugs, but then again, I rarely ever get them in my life. They can be nice I guess.

[Dark Lum Lord]

I'm a bit childish when it comes to my love, I will rarely ever go up to someone and hug them, but when it comes to love hugs are preferred and I will gladly accept hugs from anyone. However, despite my deep love for them, I tend to respond awkwardly since I'm not used to being hugged and they feel so sudden, I tend to just stand there awkwardly and typically won't give them back to the person hugging me. Either way, I'll still highly appreciate the hug and feeled cared for, having a feeling of never wanting to let go/be let go of.

[Master]

- I've got one heck of an obstacle course to get through on Monday and Tuesday before I can be properly free
+ It's almost here, I want it out of the way.

[Dark Lum Lord]

+ Music.

[sonicbrawler182]

- I've got one heck of an obstacle course to get through on Monday and Tuesday before I can be properly free
+ It's almost here, I want it out of the way.

Literally my thoughts exactly, except throw in a good portion of the weekend too.

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+Got part of an assignment out of the way earlier.
+Messing around with my custom soundtrack for Project M. Put some Rayman songs in there too.
-I just need to wait until my mother is finished with the TV so I can test them.