Pluses (+) and minuses (−) of this day

[Bradandez]

(+) Got over with asking the girl I like to prom.

(-) She said because no because she was going with her friend. I can understand.

(+) At least I save some money since I'm not going to prom anymore.

(-) Kinda got hit in the emotional testicles today too. I don't feel happy with myself lately. My confidence has dropped severely all of a sudden. I realize my social life is nonexistence and questioned my purpose in life. Some heavy and depressing thinking. Though I really can't tell anyone since no one seems that interested into listening my problems.

[Dark Lum Lord]

This is one of the most ridiculous things I've ever heard! Can you explain?

I was going through an existential crisis when I typed all of that downer shit. Depression tends to make one say ridiculous things. The feeling can essentially be described as being slowly consumed in a jello of negativity. I tend to cycle between "idealizing/being fucking high on my own brain chemicals" and "I fucking hate every single thing in existence/I'm tired and don't bother getting in my way unless you're in the mood to die a painful death/oMG SO EMO". I was initially diagnosed with depression last school year, though recently I've begun to suspect that I'm actually located somwhere on the bipolar spectrum. Or maybe it's just all of those angsty teen hormones mixing in with my cycling of major depressive episodes. Either way, meh.

But anyways, digressing aside, when I typed that emo abortion you happened to lay your eyes upon, I was going through a negative mood (If it wasn't already obvious). At the time, I felt hopeless and was angered, shocked, and disappointed with the way the planet and human beings are. It's some pretty deep shit/I'm too lazy to type on and on about it at the moment. I was going through a melting pot of negative emotions, and for example I was angered by the boring routines we're all stuck in, annoyed by gender norms, disappointed by how others view me, upset with what human beings have done to this planet, angered by the corruption of governments and the brainwashing of society, etc. Just your typical teenager, gag-worthy garbage that we'll all laugh at in hindsight.

I also felt like I honestly had no one that I connected with.

But in incognito's world, medicine means taking four palm tree trunks, three raccoon nails and six and a half million pounds of salt and stuffing it up your asshole.

Hehehehhe

[incognito]

+ I feel good today, and I had yesterday too. Unlike earlier.

If im Incognito that means i kill 1000 people everyday and that means there is not limit between reality and virtual.

You know, medicine for Schizophrenia exists.

I'm pretty sure he's talking about his avatar.

Yes. Thank you .

If no limit exist between real and virtual that means Michel Ancel is Rayman.

[OCG]

Michel Ancel is Polokus
(creator remember?)

[Snagglebee]

+ Awsome weather
- The current situation in school is a pain.
+ My clearence to participate the drving test was approved today. I will totally get my driving license still this month (now need to plan who I gonna visit first?)

[Imco]

+ Just got back from an Asian stir frying restaurant with my class I had a great time

[Keane]

- I feel pretty hopeless today, I don't wanna do anything anymore nor do I even really care for the upcoming vacation.

- Failed another Algebra test taking out all my efforts from the past two weeks :/

- If I don't pass the next one I might have to take double maths related classes next year, which might replace my music theory class

+ Father apparently met with my counselor today, but if any of it'll even help is not certain at all

[Dart]

- teaching myself geometry, which is proving exceptionally difficult.
- lots of work to turn in tomorrow, including a radio broadcast and a small mountain of homework.
+ its almost the week end, which I will greatly enjoy!
+finished the Harry Potter series last week and I'm still feeling really great from it (I get motivated by good books)

[Keane]

+/- Alright so my father had a talk with the counselor. Sadly it wasn't exactly what I hoped for as they pretty much just told me to join a school club or they can "arrange a meeting" which is pretty much just forcing two lonely people into a friendship like I mentioned before. I'm apparently going to be talking to him myself tomorrow, and I'm not sure what to think of it really. Apparently I'm going to receive assignments which ask me to do things like having small talk with five strangers before the next meeting, and I'm not sure if I like that idea or not at all.

[Zikken]

- I haven't been coming here much lately and I got no idea why. :c
+/- I actually have nothing else to say because my days has been neutral recently. Its boring.

[Adsolution]

+/- Alright so my father had a talk with the counselor. Sadly it wasn't exactly what I hoped for as they pretty much just told me to join a school club or they can "arrange a meeting" which is pretty much just forcing two lonely people into a friendship like I mentioned before. I'm apparently going to be talking to him myself tomorrow, and I'm not sure what to think of it really. Apparently I'm going to receive assignments which ask me to do things like having small talk with five strangers before the next meeting, and I'm not sure if I like that idea or not at all.

Well, while it is true that being forced into a situation in which you have to socialise can actually work, I think there are always better ways. Ultimately your goal is to end up socialising, it's just the journey to that goal that's the difficult part, especially if you have the option not to.

- My sleep schedule has been so off lately, with me going to bed usually around 8:00. So today I happily felt tired around 23:00, and tried to go to sleep right then and there. I'm tired, yet I've pretty much lain awake in bed for the past five and a half hours, staring at my eyelids and unable to sleep; I'm even more awake than I usually am at this time now. This is retarded.

[Rulez]

+ well, this is five day-old news, but I got a new computer; my old one bork on the 5th of February
+ I can definitely say music is the biggest part of my life, based on, well, everything! It's definitely my future and my passion.
+ Adsolution is fucking badass!

[Dark Lum Lord]

+/- Alright so my father had a talk with the counselor. Sadly it wasn't exactly what I hoped for as they pretty much just told me to join a school club or they can "arrange a meeting" which is pretty much just forcing two lonely people into a friendship like I mentioned before. I'm apparently going to be talking to him myself tomorrow, and I'm not sure what to think of it really. Apparently I'm going to receive assignments which ask me to do things like having small talk with five strangers before the next meeting, and I'm not sure if I like that idea or not at all.

Meh, if I were in that situation, say, last year when I finally reached out for help due to my depression and social anxiety I'd probably have had a terrible panic attack hearing that. It's different now. On the other hand, hopefully it works out for you. Being forced into it isn't my cup of tea, but it's better than dying a slow death of loneliness.

- My sleep schedule has been so off lately, with me going to bed usually around 8:00. So today I happily felt tired around 23:00, and tried to go to sleep right then and there. I'm tired, yet I've pretty much lain awake in bed for the past five and a half hours, staring at my eyelids and unable to sleep; I'm even more awake than I usually am at this time now. This is retarded.

I can sympathize. Mine's been fucked for awhile now. But I actually feel better staying up late. I seem to garner energy at night rather than day, and if I go to sleep late I feel more refreshed. Going to sleep earlier than I usually completely wrecks me.

[MisterDark'sFanClub]

@incognito and OldClassicGamer

So Michael is Polokus is Jimmy is Rayman?

Mind blown.

[technology4617]

- There's a guy in a Cadillac by the high school near our house who is likely dead, considering that he hasn't moved his car and has appeared to remain motionless for over two hours now. We called the police an hour ago, and they still haven't sent an officer over, and, while it doesn't directly affect me, it kind of disturbs me that the police nor any passer-by really seems to care about this, especially considering that he's just stopped in the middle of a busy street.
+ Had a decent Five Guys burger with my aunt and cousin, and had some interesting conversations.

EDIT: + According to my mother, he finally went on his way, but it was still kind of creepy that he was sitting there for all that time with seemingly no one noticing, likely until a cop told him to go on his way.

[Snagglebee]

- Had some troubles with the Mega Drive I received.
+/- It's working OK now.
+/- I must find a Scart RGB cable for that somewhere.

[Fifo]

+ I’ve fooled an iMessage user with my iPhone by sending the iMessage typing animation:

[Rulez]

+ I’ve fooled an iMessage user with my iPhone by sending the iMessage typing animation:

master trole

[Fifo]

+ I’ve fooled an iMessage user with my iPhone by sending the iMessage typing animation:

master trole

What do you mean by “master trole”?

[Rulez]

+ I’ve fooled an iMessage user with my iPhone by sending the iMessage typing animation:

master trole

What do you mean by “master trole”?

What the fuck could I mean?