Something Bothering you?/Daily Doldrums

Master said:
Perhaps so, but more often than not, they're either questions, some unintelligible gibberish, or your consistent fanboying over Adsolution. Which while being an issue, it's not an issue explained, more an issue demonstrated. Questions belong in the Q&A thread, unintelligible gibberish requires some fine tuning to be intelligible, and Adsolution isn't active on RPC. I'm very fond of the guy, but there's general discussion, and then there's being TMZ.
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Just what needed to be said.
 
Huh, I realized that today is the anniversary of cutting off Moonlightelf completely! https://dev801.raymanpc.com/forum/posts/1047380/

I have no regrets, though she never did apologize for anything. Oh well, not my problem. Though I do wonder how things ended up working out for Neo, with his whole wanting to get into an argument with her. :lol:



As for other things, looks like I may get to go with my favorite weather man who had been into forecasting weather for years, on a storm chase. As the nasty Tornado Season approaches. I never liked storms, but it's one of those invitations I kinda hate to refuse as well. Probably will have a re-enforced fear of twisters, but at least I could know what to look for, if one should ever head my way.


Which always worries me, because dang it, I have a lot of cool games and computers and... oh hell lots of things I've gathered over the years. I'd hate to lose things to such a deadly force. :(
 
Thank you dude, you're the only English member to have wished me a happy birthday ! :mrgreen:
Thus means all the others are dipshits.
 
To be fair, since you don't have your age on RPC, it's most likely that most folks don't notice.
 
Master said:
To be fair, since you don't have your age on RPC, it's most likely that most folks don't notice.
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Thus is quite logical. Indeed.
Eren said:
incognito said:
Well, you bunch of chumps all forgot that the 23 is my birthday. :x
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Oh crap dude :? , I didn't know.. Happy late birthday!
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No problem, to be honest, I was trolling you. :hinhinhin:
 
Ughhhhh, I really don't know what I'm doing anymoreeee.

The gender dysphoria has been strong in this one lately, and it's making me into an absolute wreck. I feel so isolated. I feel like I can't be me and that I'll never be. I can't start seeing a therapist till the Fall, but I genuinely don't know if I'll be able to cope with hiding myself for that much longer. I'm scared of what my parents will think. What they'll say. Despite this I'm already so withdrawn from them and I can't stand them but I'm desperate for their approval, like it'd somehow validate myself more.

I... don't know what to do. I can't draw anymore. I can't focus anymore. I feel worthless. :cry:
 
Master said:
To be fair, since you don't have your age on RPC, it's most likely that most folks don't notice.
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If you had to guess, how old would you think I am ?
dartofthedavros said:
Ughhhhh, I really don't know what I'm doing anymoreeee.

The gender dysphoria has been strong in this one lately, and it's making me into an absolute wreck. I feel so isolated. I feel like I can't be me and that I'll never be. I can't start seeing a therapist till the Fall, but I genuinely don't know if I'll be able to cope with hiding myself for that much longer. I'm scared of what my parents will think. What they'll say. Despite this I'm already so withdrawn from them and I can't stand them but I'm desperate for their approval, like it'd somehow validate myself more.

I... don't know what to do. I can't draw anymore. I can't focus anymore. I feel worthless. :cry:
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Everyone has the right to do whatever they want if it hurts nobody, but I can understand the shock it can be for the parents.
It is kinda like saying : "I acted in a snuff porn with less than 18 old girls and a dead cat".

I am kinda rude with metaphors, I know.
 
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Oh, I'd thought an asperger would have taken a particular attention to make his sentences as much correct and understandable possible but.m.
And despite being not autistic at all, I have a quite aspergerish behaviour on my own.
 
dartofthedavros said:
Ughhhhh, I really don't know what I'm doing anymoreeee.

The gender dysphoria has been strong in this one lately, and it's making me into an absolute wreck. I feel so isolated. I feel like I can't be me and that I'll never be. I can't start seeing a therapist till the Fall, but I genuinely don't know if I'll be able to cope with hiding myself for that much longer. I'm scared of what my parents will think. What they'll say. Despite this I'm already so withdrawn from them and I can't stand them but I'm desperate for their approval, like it'd somehow validate myself more.

I... don't know what to do. I can't draw anymore. I can't focus anymore. I feel worthless. :cry:
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How is your therapist being arranged, is it through a counselor, or was it arranged by yourself? Either way, it's good you have a plan, because I think having a plan is the best thing you can have. Making arrangements so you can have a date to look forward to. Maybe you can't be yourself until then, but you can dream about that very real day (which really isn't very far from now).
 
It has suddenly got hot. I find hot weather very unconfortable, it makes me tired, snappy and seems to make me a lot more depressed. And there's nothing I can do to make it cooler aside from opening the windows (and letting bugs in :/) and turning on fans, considering air conditioning in the UK is not at all common in houses.
 
anaphasiia said:
dartofthedavros said:
Ughhhhh, I really don't know what I'm doing anymoreeee.

The gender dysphoria has been strong in this one lately, and it's making me into an absolute wreck. I feel so isolated. I feel like I can't be me and that I'll never be. I can't start seeing a therapist till the Fall, but I genuinely don't know if I'll be able to cope with hiding myself for that much longer. I'm scared of what my parents will think. What they'll say. Despite this I'm already so withdrawn from them and I can't stand them but I'm desperate for their approval, like it'd somehow validate myself more.

I... don't know what to do. I can't draw anymore. I can't focus anymore. I feel worthless. :cry:
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How is your therapist being arranged, is it through a counselor, or was it arranged by yourself? Either way, it's good you have a plan, because I think having a plan is the best thing you can have. Making arrangements so you can have a date to look forward to. Maybe you can't be yourself until then, but you can dream about that very real day (which really isn't very far from now).
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I've been arranging everything myself, from planning to see a therapist all the way down to the more subtle and minute things like walking and posture. In a way, it's kinda awesome that I've even gotten this far in the process considering how difficult its sometimes been! :o
 
Good on you man, I'm glad it's set in motion and there's progress to look forward to for you. I can imagine it's a fucking feel reel, but sometimes it's just a matter of being able to keep on plowing through the shit and not getting too stuck on the opinions of people who are too dense to relate unless it's personal to them. Are your parents open, or I guess, having an "accepting" attitude towards it? Some poor communication and understanding might be inevitable but I'm optimistic enough to believe most problems will eventually resolve themselves.
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Still depression going on here. I'm feeling kind of jaded again, just days of feeling too upset to indulge in anything comfortable but too out of the loop to do anything productive. I've become a severe pessimist about everything, but the more I delve into things the more it seems justified. I've been thinking I might have some undiagnosed assburgers going on but I'd rather leave that in the dark for now.

It's just, my incompetence and ineptness towards basic things, ever nearing choices about the future when I'm just daydreaming about childish vagabonding and trying to stay separated from suicidal thoughts, the fucking retardation in politics, every time I think im making sense of it all it just comes crashing down again and leaves me paranoid and neurotic.

I just need to find a good moment again I guess, I've been really out of it with the whole presidential race taking a turn for the worst and my parents nearing a divorce, but I can't seem to stop dwelling on things.
 
classic old gammer do you remember how i mentioned you about jazz jackrabbit spiritual successor that i present epic games company?Complex of my brand new computer/console games hate because out of boredom speaking of 90's hd remakes of famous 2d side scrollers.Especially Looka-Layle was inpired by Jak & Daxter,Banjo-Kazooie.Well for my blues the cat video game i need a wider team of developers not so small like with adsolution fangames that it will took her 36,000 years.
 
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