I often think like that too. I wonder, if you won't be able to think, breathe, or even think after death, just turn into a restless being who wants to sleep for the rest of eternity! I mean, I am catholic, but I doubt about actually having a final Judgement day, or having to go to hell or heaven, I don't believe in such places, they seem way to perfect for me. then I think, maybe heaven is a better world than earth, but everybody lives equal, but are probaly not very attractive, because of how they died(like a really bad accident). I heard on tv this family didn't mourn for their husband/father, because they KNEW that they would meet with him in heaven, but I think differently. I'd rather enjoy the time my dads here and mourn when he dies, because I don't think I'd meet with him in heaven.Jona wrote:Sometimes I totally get lost in my thoughts about death (endless darkness and emptiness, knowing you will never exist anymore until the end of time, if it even exists). When it happens I get a really strange feeling, it's like feeling nervous for something, but many times stronger. But when I stop thinking about it I always feel better than before, especially when I'm depressed. It's like I had my portion of dark thoughts and then it's time to let that go again.
Actually, I look at life like that too, I'd rather have all the fun I can now, because at any moment I could die, and I rarely cry, for example, when my aunt died, I didn't cry, but I was sad, and I wanted to cry. Then, I felt guilty for not crying, because its like I'd didn't even cry about my aunts death, and I was shocked!! She had breast cancer, and she could talk when she was first in the hospital, but a month later, she wasn't even awake. but here is a weird thing: I sometimes can predict what happens by accident, like this-Deslife wrote:I'm nots scared about death. I know everybody will die one day, my parents will, my family will, my friends will, my loves will, and I will too, so why would I be scared of it ? I wanna enjoy my life before dying. That's why I'm often (but not always, I'm sometimes depressing...) positive about life. My grandmother died in january, I didn't cry, cause I know I'll die too one day. But I often think about death... and I wonder : What happens after death ?
"I bet the lights would go out any second now" then seconds later, they went out. I'm not psychic, its just weird when I say those things like that. The day she died, I said "Iliana(my sister), lets visit her, what if she dies today!?" I really feel bad about saying that, even though it has nothing to do with her dying(I mean it wasn't the cause, but I'm sorry I said that). The only time I did cry was when I thought about my loved ones dying, but just not saying anything, with tears coming down my cheek.







